Saturday, April 30, 2022

Saturday's Series Spotlight: Single Dads by RJ Scott Part 2



Single Dad Christmas #3.5
Summary:
Hiring Paul is the best thing I’ve done for my small family. With love, care, and ruthless organizational skills Paul has taken care of my children, Anna, AJ, and Aden, with me as part of the deal. He always told me he’d only stay two years and that he wanted to travel the world, but it didn’t stop me falling in love with him. I never told him, because who am I to steal his dreams? Now he’s handed his resignation to me so I have a decision to make. He’s leaving us and I can either tell him I love him and ask him to stay, or watch him go. 

I have only one Christmas to make things right.

A short story based in the Single Dads ‘verse.

This story originally appeared in the ‘Gifts for the Season’ Anthology with a host of other authors, which in Christmas 2020, raised over $20,000 for The Trevor Project.


Always #4
Summary:

Lives change in an instant, but with family found and forever love, there is always hope.

Impetuously putting his life on the line, Adam saved a child trapped in a car wreck and suffered career-ending injuries. Living with chronic pain, and at his lowest moments, he had friends who wouldn't let him give up, a family who had his back, and even though his future was different from what he'd always planned, he at least had hope. When Cameron and Finn land on his doorstep, he never dreamed that he would fall in love with the small family or that maybe he'd get to be a hero again.

Cameron goes from being a devoted husband to a single dad overnight. With his neatly planned future in ruins, he will do anything to make a new life for his son, even if it means moving to the other side of the country. Renting a room from Adam is the first step in making a home for him and Finn, but falling for the former firefighter was never part of the plan.

The shadows from Cameron's past might take a long time to touch this fragile future, but will he have to face the consequences alone when they do? Or will there always be hope?



Listen #5

Summary:
He only wanted to make the best home for his new daughter; he never meant to fall in love with the man who might steal her away.

Nick and his husband had always wanted a big family, but when cancer took Danny six years ago, Nick was left a single dad of three. He never considered his broken heart would heal enough to add to his family, but as soon as he meets Teegan he knows he wants to adopt the little girl. Born profoundly deaf, Teegan has been rejected twice already in the adoption process and hasn't found her forever home. Nick wants to be her hero—her dad—and create a world that is safe and happy for her. He knows he wants to make her life perfect—he doesn't know how to go about it or understand the best thing to do for his family, and he needs help. Enter Elliot, and Nick finds himself falling for the frustrating, sexy, inspiring, and caring teacher who can make things right.

Elliot is wary of helping the man who appears more interested in public opinion than the needs of his own family. But, learning that Nick, wealthy and entitled, is now adopting a deaf child, Elliot knows this is a step too far and strides into battle. As the child of deaf adults, Elliot knows he is the best person to advocate for little Teegan and, if needed, he is determined to intervene and halt the adoption. Nothing and no one will get in Elliot's way when it falls on him to protect Teegan.

This single dad story features a widower struggling to make things right, a teacher battling for a child's wellbeing, an adorable toddler, three loving siblings, a home with a view of the ocean, and families standing behind them both.


Single Dads Christmas #3.5
Original Review January 2021(part of the Gifts of the Season Anthology):
What a lovely holiday gem, you've got two men who haven't spoken about their feelings, most likely hoping the other speaks first, lack of communication can be tricky to pull off but when done right it's one of my favorite tropes.  I've always said there is nothing sexier than a man who cares for children and in Single Dad Christmas you have a father AND a manny(male nanny for any newbies out there😉) so it's two-for-one in the sexy male role.  You know what?  That's all I'm going to say because this is a holiday novella you need to experience for yourself to fully appreciate how it warms the heart and puts a smile on your face and for those familiar with RJ Scott's Single Dad series, it's a great addition to said series.  Short, sweet, fun, and simply put: a delight.


Always #4
Original Review June 2021:
First, I want to say as I have said in other reviews for this series, to me there is very few things sexier than a man who cares for a child.  So right off the bat watching Cameron care for his little boy, Finn, ticks so many wonderful boxes for me.  And of course Finn is an absolute dream.  Torn between being a kid and this need to protect his dad, I just love him.

Second, for those who know me outside my blog and/or you have followed my Caregiver Month series posts every November will probably remember that my mom has dealt with chronic pain for over 30 years.  I mention that because Adam is adjusting and living life with chronic pain so I tend to be overly critical when this subject is touched upon.  Not that I need the subject to be spot on, perfect, without hiccups because it is fiction but it's close to my heart and I do need some semblance of accuracy and respect.  There was no need for doubt(not that I really had any) when it comes to RJ Scott, I know she does her research.  What Adam felt, said, his inner monologues, his communications with friends, it was all so well written and I'm not exaggerating when I say I had tears in my eyes at times, both because I felt for Adam but also for the level of heart and emotion the author put on every page.

Third, the amount of drama from Cameron's past and Adam's new path is so well balanced with the friendship and romance.  I won't go into details but trust me, it works perfectly.  Both men are dealing with heartache and rebuilding an uncertain future, for different reasons yes but still they individual futures have been turned on their heads.  I'm all for doing for yourself but sometimes you need that missing piece to connect the dots, to light the way, to make everything fit, or a thousand other cliches that may get overused but that doesn't mean they aren't on point.  Simply put: Cameron and Adam just fit.

One last point about the chronic pain.  As I said, it's my mom who lives with chronic pain and though I have no intentions of ever thinking about this in my parents situation😉 I just want to take a minute to say a special thanks to RJ Scott for going the extra mile when Cameron did his research on sex and chronic pain.  It's definitely an aspect that those who haven't lived with it, either themselves or watched a loved one, never even give it a second thought, that the physical intimacy side of a relationship can be devastating both physically and emotionally.  So again, thank you, RJ Scott for showing there are ways if you do the research and are incredibly patient.

Always is not only worthy of the author's Single Dads series but it's a truly entertaining, heartfelt emotional gem.  For those wondering if Single Dads is a series best read in order or series of standalones, they are standalones as each book deals with a different pairing, friendships factor in so previous main characters pop up and as I'm a series-read-in-order kinda gal I'm glad I've read them from the beginning but no it's certainly not necessary, you won't be lost if you pick and choose or start with Always.


Listen #5
Original Review April 2022:
Another entry in the author's Single Dads series and it's another win win for this reader.  I've said it before and I'll say it again(and no doubt again and again and again😉): nothing is sexier than a man who dotes on children, who cares for them, gives them a stable, loving, and secure home.  I still remember the first time I found this connection driving up the beauty of the man's aura, it was my junior year in high school and a classmate was caring for his little brother during the homecoming pep rally(it was open to the families as well as us students which is why he was carrying his 2 year old little brother at school), I'll admit he was someone I never really gave a second glance to but at that moment, my interests were piqued and ever since I've found it to be incredibly sexy.  So you can imagine when one of my favorite authors created a series surrounding single dads . . . well lets just say I was first in line for all of it.

RJ Scott has never let me down and Listen is no different.

I was definitely intrigued by Nick with his friendship to Cameron in Always(book 4) and by the third time his name was mentioned in that book I just knew he'd be getting a journey all on his own and boy did he!  Nick and Elliot having an established "relationship" when we first meet them, they by no means fall under the "enemies to lovers" trope but certainly are no where near the "friends to lovers" umbrella either, I feel they are nearly "acquaintances to lovers" so perhaps a little of all three.  Whichever trope you see them as, their journey is not to be missed.

I love the attention to details that the author gives to the deaf characters but also the hearing ones as well and the difficulties(I don't like that word but nothing else seems adequate or appropriate either so I guess I'll stick with "difficulties") in communication they face.  I've not seen the movie CODA(truth is I hadn't heard of it until the Oscar nominations were announced earlier this year) and have no idea if it influenced the author's research or want in telling Nick and Elliot's story but I couldn't help but think of the clips I've seen over the past weeks and realize I've never given much thought to how access to(or lack thereof) communication some face.  I've grown up around disabilities and health issues since the day I was born and difficulties(again not liking the use of that word) were just dealt with on a daily basis so one assumes when there is a need for ASL it's available.  RJ Scott, through Nick and Elliot's story, has made me see that isn't always how it works and the need for it to work that way has to happen.

Now, having said all that, don't think Listen is a preachy school lesson on the right and wrongs of language barriers in the worlds' educational systems because it's far from it.  Listen, above all else is a beautifully written love story filled with friendship, disagreements, laughter, wariness, family, love, heat, lust, and plenty of heart.  I just felt the need to put voice to what her words stirred in me, maybe you won't see it, maybe you don't need to see it because it's a daily battle for you or a loved one.  At the end of the day, the end of the book(which I never really wanted to happen because I hate to say goodbye to these characters), Listen entertains. Listen warms your heart. Listen makes you smile.  Maybe Listen will make you think but simply put: Listen is a fantastical delight!

RATING:



Single Dads Christmas #3.5
Austin
I couldn’t stop staring at the photo. 

It was of Paul, my manny for two years now, sitting on the sofa in our front room, my three babies all curled up around him fast asleep. The triplets had only been eight months at that time; Anna had been teething, Aden and AJ had spent an hour wailing in sympathy, and Paul had been up all night, alongside me, soothing and rocking and loving the three of them. I’d snapped a photo of him and the triplets asleep, because in all the chaos created by my beautiful children, that’d been a rare moment of peace. 

Had I fallen in love with him that night? 

I didn’t know for sure but it could well have been that day when the first seed had been planted of my wanting Paul as something more than my children’s nanny. 

For two years, Paul had cared for the triplets with a gentle touch, and me alongside that. Somehow, I’d continued to hand my heart to him in tiny pieces, until at Thanksgiving the words I’d held inside spilled out. The children were in bed, the day had been busy, we’d had nothing to do but watch a movie and drink chocolate, and he’d fallen asleep, slid sideways and slept against me. 

I didn’t take a photo but I did whisper the words that were in my heart. I love you. 

It was the only time I’d been honest with him, and myself. But a month later I couldn’t say the words out loud for a million reasons that used to make sense. And now I was hiding out in my office and I couldn’t focus on anything but the letter perched on the corner of my desk. That damned piece of paper was the reason my chest was tight with the crushing inevitability of my heart breaking. Across the front of the envelope Paul had written my name in beautiful cursive and the edges of it were ragged where I’d opened it, thinking it was nothing more sinister than one of his homemade Christmas cards, like the ones he made with the children. But it wasn’t a card covered in glitter, or embellished with feathers, it was his resignation letter. Even though I’d known that the two years he’d promised me were almost up, I’d ignored the fact because maybe if I refused to acknowledge he was getting ready to leave, then it might not happen. 

I’d memorized every word Paul had written, from the Dear Austin, right down to the Best wishes, Paul and even the part where he thanked me for the wonderful opportunity I’d given him. 

He’d left it on the counter three days ago, right next to the coffee he’d made, and the muffin he’d baked fresh for me, and I’d been in a daze ever since. 

“Oh babe, why are you still here?” Maria’s question scared the living shit out of me, and I yelped and nearly fell off my office chair, clutching my heart and scrambling to face her. 

“Holy— warn a guy!” 

She switched on my office light and I blinked into the brightness. “Austin, sitting in the dark won’t solve anything.” 

I knew that. “I was working on—” 

“You’re not working, you’re hiding.” She leaned on the edge of my desk, conveniently hip-checking the envelope and its contents to the floor before pushing it with her toe out of sight. Part of me died inside, because I wanted to keep that letter after he’d gone, because he’d written it with one of his fancy art pens, and I could picture him sitting and composing the words. She crossed her arms over her chest, staring at me pointedly. 

I went on the defensive. “I’m here because the kids are working on a surprise for me, and Paul made me promise not to be anywhere near the kitchen before five,” I scooped up the papers on my desk and shoved them all into my bag. With nothing else to do, and January far too close, I knew I had to start planning for a future without Paul, and these were supposed to be informed and researched lists of nanny agencies. Only the exercise had deteriorated into me doodling hearts. So much for admitting he was leaving and that I needed to replace him. 

She sighed noisily then flicked my forehead which— dammit— hurt. “It’s nearly five now, Austin, you idiot.” 

“Huh?” I glanced at the clock, and it hit me that I’d lost my chance of being home by five if the traffic on the freeway didn’t cut me a break. It’s December twenty-third; of course there will be no break cut for late-ass architects who don’t watch the time. “Shit.” 

“When Paul said leave the kitchen, did he really mean for you to come to work? Why didn’t you just go up to your room and read a book? No one else is working today, so why drive twenty miles across town to the office?” 

Because I can’t bear being in the house listening to the kids laugh with Paul over Christmas cookies and glitter, that’s why. I snapped the fastening on my bag and changed the subject. “You’re here.” 

“Yes, because we agreed I would check in with the office today because it’s my turn. You, on the other hand, are supposed to be on official vacation.” 

“I have three whole days when I’m not working—” 

She snatched the bag from my hand, and shoved me toward the door. 

“Three days off and you don’t need to take work home.” 

“The Griersons—” 

“Are in Barbados, and don’t need to see any plans until January. You weren’t working on their file anyway, you were sitting like a mushroom in the dark and pining over the only man you’ve ever really loved, and you won’t do anything to stop him leaving.” 

I winced. “I was not pining, for goodness sake.” 

I held out my hand for the bag, but she put it behind her back. “Yes you were.” 

“Give me the bag, Maria—” 

“Nope.” 

“My cell is in there,” I lied. 

She pointed to my pants pocket where the outline of my iPhone was very clear. “No it isn’t. So, go home, kiss your babies, have a drink with Paul, hell, talk to Paul, tell him how you feel, ask him to stay. Then when he says yes, have the best Christmas in the history of Christmases.” 

“Maria—” 

“You need to be honest. With him and yourself.”



Always #4
Chapter One 
Cam 
“He was lucky to get away with seven years,” Jim, my exhausted counsel, and only real friend took a seat opposite me in the small room off the main corridor of the courthouse. I hadn’t been able to afford a lawyer of my own, and when Jim had turned up at my door, telling me he was my court-appointed liaison, I was horrified. I needed better representation, but how would I pay for any of it? 

Turned out he was the best thing to happen to me. He’d done everything to keep me from being dragged into the case by the DA who insisted I must know things I wasn’t revealing. Hell, I wish I had known something that would help put my husband behind bars because his actions had put Finn—my son—in danger. 

How could I know anything when I’d coasted through the last few years in a daze of uncertainty, lies, and pain?

Finn hiccupped a sob into my neck. I held my son so tight that I hoped he felt safe. He didn’t need to hear anything else about what his other dad had done, or how hard Jim had to fight behind the scenes to exclude paper thin lies created by my husband’s team. 

The defense had painted Graeme as a solid family man who’d simply found himself caught up in things he had no control over. They’d been lying. If there was one thing the court case had shown everyone it was that Graeme had had all the control all of the time. Over money, and people. 

Over me. 

Graeme had been born into a rich family, given more money than he knew what to do with and went on to hold a respected position with a group of investment managers who’d courted him as if he were a king. He was a smooth talker, able to con even the most normal of people. Even me. 

Pathetic. Idiotic. Blind. Me. 

Falling for Graeme had just been step one in a tragic story. I’d fucked up, and I should never have fallen under Graeme’s spell or allowed him to control me as he had. 

I’m a strong, principled man who knows right from wrong. I’m a good dad. 

Repeat as needed. 

“There’s nothing lucky about what happened to us,” I whispered back, aware that Finn, huddled into my side, could hear everything I said, and some of it I never wanted him to know. Thankfully, Finn hadn’t been in court for the long closing statements, sitting instead in this small room with a kindly court officer who’d played computer games with him and fetched him lunch. I’d been on my own to listen to the defense as they lied to explain away what Graeme had done as trying to please his money-obsessed husband. It was apparently my fault. He loved me too much. He wanted to please me. Me? I’d never wanted a single dime of his money. 

I wanted a family, a husband who didn’t fuck about on me, a dad for Finn who cared enough to be at home. I didn’t want money, or maids, or a chef who lived half the week in our house, or private schools and exotic holidays, although that was how I was painted. They argued that the pressure on Graeme was intense, and the defense team cited me wanting Italian marble tiles in a bathroom as the straw that broke the camel’s back. I never said anything about a bathroom, let alone tiles. 

The lies were many, and through all of it I could see the way people stared at me, one of them, an angry white-haired man, never took his eyes off me. Simon Frederickson had everything going for him—a newly retired pension fund manager he was expecting a retirement full of good things. But, he’d bet everything on Graeme which was the start of his downfall. He’d been a key witness for the prosecution and had given gut-wrenching testimony about how he’d lost everything, his money, security, family, his entire life—and it had all been Graeme’s fault. Simon had become my touchstone in this whole thing. From watching him I could see the lies that would be believed, and the way the jury was slowly buying into the defense’s rhetoric.

It was somehow all my fault, and the way that the witnesses stared at me, Simon included, showed me what they thought. 

I could see the point where every single one of them thought I was getting away with hiding money, living the life, and that I needed to pay as well. My only blessing was that there was not a single shred of evidence to say I was involved. 

There wouldn’t be, because I wasn’t part of what Graeme had done, unless my naïveté counted. I just wish I could push the guilt away, because they were right in one way—I should have known. Finn shifted in my hold, but it wasn’t to move away, it was to bury himself even closer and I smoothed my hand on his back. 

“What next?” I asked Jim, staring right into his eyes, able to see the very moment where optimism and relief died, replaced with defeat. 

“The house is gone,” he said. 

“We knew it would be.” 

The house was where I’d thought we’d be happy, where I thought I could give Finn the life he deserved, where I’d fallen in love. But now, all I could recall was Graeme in the kitchen holding a knife, a lifeless body next to him, as he held a pity party for one where he blamed everything except himself for cold-blooded murder. 

How does a man kill another person and not end up behind bars with a life sentence? 

The prosecution had wanted him put away for anything they could find. They’d settled for a plea bargain, in exchange for passwords to a multi-million dollar bitcoin account, and now Graeme was locked away for seven years for the white-collar crime of embezzlement. Seemed to me as if other people’s money had helped him again, and I could feel the weight of everyone staring at me in court. 

“There’s no money in any accounts, it’s all gone.” 

I nodded. Every cent that was legitimately mine was in my backpack—all five thousand dollars that I’d stashed away over the last six months from helping out on small renovations in my spare time. It wasn’t enough to start over, let alone even rent a place, but it would get us a bus ticket away from here. 

He held out his hand, and I managed to shake his without dislodging Finn. “It’s been a pleasure working on your behalf.” He crouched in front of us, his round glasses reflecting my image. “Finn?” 

Finn stirred in my arms and finally peeked out of my coat, his dark hair mussed and his eyes red from crying. “Yes, sir?” he asked, his voice cracking. 

“You’re the bravest boy I’ve ever had the pleasure to meet. You look after your daddy if you can, but also, let your daddy look after you. Pinkie swear?” He held out a pinkie, and Finn didn’t hesitate to offer his as they shook, and then Finn buried himself again. With a smile that softened his normally stern face, Jim patted Finn’s knee before nodding to me. “You know how to reach me if you need any advice.” 

“Thank you for all you did, Jim. I don’t know how I can ever thank you.”

“You’re welcome—I’m not bad for court-appointed counsel, right?” His eyes twinkled, and I winced, recalling our first conversation where I’d told him outright that we needed a real lawyer who could look out for me and Finn. He’d been better than any high priced lawyer I could’ve imagined. 

“Not bad at all,” I turned the joke back on myself, and we exchanged smiles. He was filing divorce paperwork as a favor, and I knew I’d never be able to pay him back in this lifetime. 

“This is for you,” he held out a large envelope, and I took it without hesitation, used to being passed this and that, and long past questioning anything. “It arrived by courier to our office, but it’s addressed to you. Is it something I need to deal with?” 

I needed to open it and see, so sitting on the hard bench with my nine-year-old son crying in my arms, I managed to open the envelope, and pulled out a handwritten note. I skimmed to the name at the bottom—Nick. My chest hollowed with pain. Why was Nick writing me notes when I’d told him to stay out of my life? What did Nick have to do with me right now? As far as I was concerned I’d burned any bridges between me and my best friend a long time ago. 

“Cam? Are you okay? You look pale. Do I need to get help?” 

I shook my head. “It’s from an old friend.” 

“You’re sure?” 

“I’m sure.” 

Only when he was gone did I pull the note out again to read it.

Dear Cam, 
PLEASE READ. 
I found a place for you to stay. I promise Finn will be safe from the media circus there. All the details are in the other envelope. 
Don’t be stubborn about this. Don’t run. You don’t even have to see me. Just come home. 
Nick. 

Inside the other smaller envelope were details of someone called Adam Williams, and an address in La Jolla, San Diego, not far from where I’d grown up in Carlsbad in the same neighborhood as Nick. 

Nick had started as my childhood nemesis, then become my very best friend, and even my boyfriend for one night, until a kiss had determined that we were better off as brothers than boyfriends. He’d been the one to support me when I’d adopted Finn—I’d asked him to be Finn’s godfather—that was how much he’d been part of my life. I’d been unnecessarily cruel to Nick when he’d called me just after Graeme had been arrested. He’d asked if I wanted help. I’d still thought my husband was some kind of innocent victim, and with hindsight I’d acted in an emotional form of self-defense. The last thing I needed was Nick to say I-told-you-so because he’d never liked Graeme at all. 

I’d asked him to leave me alone, irrationally distrustful and harsh. He’d backed off… so why was he contacting me now? Shocked, worried, uncertain about what I was reading, I sat for the longest time, hugging my son, and spiraling back to that last conversation with Nick when I’d told him that he couldn’t understand what I was going through and to leave me and Finn alone. 

How could I face him? Was it even possible that San Diego was the right place to stay for a while? Was it time to go home? Finn and I had been living out of suitcases in a cheap motel, sharing a room for so long it had become our normal, we spent most of our time dodging journalists and people hurt by what Graeme had done. At times I feared for our lives. 

So, what is keeping me in New York? 

“Dad?” 

“Yeah?” 

“What do we do now?” 

I didn’t have a clue. New York was nothing to us. No friends. Nowhere to live. No money. And, worst of all, the media frenzy around us that wouldn’t abate for a long while. And in the middle of it all, Finn. 

“I think we need to head home.” 

He stiffened in my hold, and pulled back. “I don’t want to go there. Can’t we go back to the motel?” 

We wouldn’t be going back to that motel now, everything we’d left there was going to stay, not that it was much. I’d already put a plan in place for us to slip away, but never with a destination fixed in my mind. I pressed a kiss to his head.  “We already talked about this, you don’t have to worry, we’re not staying in New York and we have plans, right?” 

“A horse place in Montana with a river.” 

“And a new job for me.” 

“And I can get a dog.” 

I side-hugged him. “Yep, a dog of your own. But we can’t do that straight away, we need to…” hide, avoid the press, lick our wounds. “… just take some time. Back to my old home, California, then it will be you and me against the world, Finn.” 

He processed the information with a frown, his eyes red from crying and his hair in tufts where he’d hidden in my hold. Then he wrapped his arms around my neck, tight as he’d done since last June, over a year ago. Everything in his world had been destroyed, he wasn’t going back to the private school. He didn’t have friends here. It was the two of us, starting over. 

“You and me against the world, Finn,” I repeated, and felt his tears hot on my skin. 

I’m not sure either of our hearts would heal from this. 

But we had to try. 

Security guided me to the exit, but determined journalists had gathered outside, a whole mess of them waiting, and I hovered inside, hiding Finn behind me. I could see the road to the train station, and if we could just get there then we could make it anywhere.

I crouched in front of Finn, zipped up his coat, pulled up his hood, and clicked the snaps so that the lower half of his face was hidden and the furry hood shielded his eyes. I did the same with my coat, and then I gripped his hand and pointed out of the front window. 

“You remember what we’re doing now.” 

“Running away,” he said with renewed confidence. 

“It’s the last thing we have to do. Just as we planned, okay, we’re heading for McDonald’s. Can you see it?” 

Finn nodded, and swiped at the tears on his face with his free hand. 

“Don’t let go of me,” I said. “If you get scared I’ll carry you.” 

He was nine, small for his age, I could easily carry him, but he pushed his shoulders back and shook his head. 

“No carrying.” 

“That’s my boy,” I praised, even as my chest tightened. 

Then, we opened the door. 

“Cam! Where’s the money?” 

“Cameron Hastings! Did you agree with the sentencing?” 

“Can you give us an interview, Mr. Hastings?” 

“Cam! Over here! Over here! Did you lie for your husband?” 

“Is your son okay?” 

“Cam! Cam! How is it possible that you don’t know where the missing money is?”

It broke my fucking heart that I didn’t know about the money, or where it’d gone, and that I couldn’t give back what Graeme had stolen. It killed me that people had lost everything, and that somehow I was part of the awful loss they’d experienced. If I’d seen what was happening then maybe I could have done something—stopped him. A blanket of despair settled on my shoulders, and for a second I indulged the hopelessness, before shoving it away. I was going to give Finn a new start, and it didn’t matter about the rest of it—Finn had seen too much, and he needed a safe place where he could learn to be a kid again. 

“You fucking asshole!” Simon Frederickson was there, eyes sparking with temper, his lips twisted in a snarl, reaching for me and Finn, and yelling in my face. This wasn’t the first time he’d come at me, but this time I had Finn at my side and I moved to protect him. 

“Sir!” Security moved in. 

Everything inside me snapped, and I reached out to grip Simon’s arm. “I’m sorry, I don’t know. You have to believe me.” 

“I have nothing!” he screamed in my face, and next to me Finn buried himself in my side. 

“I wish I could help you.” 

“I will make you pay, you fucking lying piece of shit.” 

“Sir!” Security bundled him off me, my hold on him ripped away, and then with utter determination I shoved through the crowd. Other security attempted to keep the media away but god knows who else was in this crowd who hated us. I couldn’t breathe until we made it through the barrier which trapped the journalists long enough for us to get to the crossing, over the road, and into McDonald’s. The media followed us, I glanced back to see Simon face down on the sidewalk, the cops there, and I wanted to go back and plead with them to take care of him. He had a family—a wife undergoing cancer treatment, two kids with families of their own, and he had no money. He’d been destroyed more than I was. 

Please don’t hurt him. I almost went back. 

“Dad?” Finn tugged my sleeve, and that dragged me back from compassion to fear in an instant. I had to keep Finn safe. We took the side door, went through a book store, left via the rear exit, hid in a Starbucks for a few minutes, doubled back on ourselves, and finally I felt we might be free from being followed. Cautiously, I headed for the station, Finn holding my hand, blending in with the tourists, and went straight in with a group to find the lockers, opened the one we’d rented the month before and pulled out our bags. Once inside the bathroom I messed up my styled hair, pulling it down to frame my face, then shoved a scarlet NY beanie on, took off my coat and dumped it on the floor, and then set about helping Finn to reverse his two-sided jacket, adding a matching NY beanie. I changed out of my suit into jeans and a jersey, and then, with Finn watching, I hacked away at the beard I’d let grow long, taking it back to smooth skin as much as I could. All I had in the bags was a couple more change of clothes, all the cash I had left in the world, our passports, and as many of Finn’s baby photos as I could fit.

I don’t know what was in Finn’s bag—I’d let him pack it himself, to take reminders of our old life that would see him through enough until we could go home one day and get more. 

Home? It’s not our home anymore. 

“You remember what to say if anyone talks to us?” I wrapped the suit and coat in a bundle and pushed it into a plastic bag. I’d drop it with one of the homeless guys outside, surely I could do one more good thing before we vanished. 

Finn blinked up at me, his eyes full of tears, but his shoulders were back and determination was written in every line of him. My little man was so brave, even after everything I’d allowed to happen. “I remember. I have to say we’re going to visit family, and I can’t talk to anyone about anything else. Oh, and my name is Finn Bellamy, not Finn Hastings anymore.” He worried at the zipper on his coat and I knew he had something else he wanted to say. “Dad?” 

“Yeah?” 

“Will people ever stop hating you?” 

I thought of all the people searching for someone to blame and turning their gazes on Finn and me. They were right to accuse me of being naïve, they could harass me and call me every name under the sun, but they weren’t touching Finn. I just knew they weren’t going to stop for a long time. 

“They will do one day, I’m sure,” I lied, and then patted his head. “Ready for an adventure?” 

“I don’t know, Dad, I’m scared.”

My heart cracked and I cradled his face, staring into his dark eyes and wondering what was the best thing to say. I couldn’t exactly say I would never let anything happen to him because I had so let him down, and I couldn’t promise him that everything was going to be okay, because I didn’t know that. So I went with what Finn’s counselor had said—that honesty was the only way to go. 

“I’m scared as well.” 

His eyes widened, and he grabbed at me. “You are?” 

“How about we both pretend we’re not scared, and get on a bus or a train and head away from here?” 

He tugged me close for a hug, almost unbalancing me. 

“Okay, Dad.” 

I hugged him, then bopped his nose and smiled, waiting until he gave me a returning smile, and only after he did was I ready to leave the confines of the bathroom to find a seat on a train or a bus heading anywhere. For better or worse, we had a destination now—San Diego. 

One day Finn and I might return to a life in New York, after all it was a big city, but there was something so warm when I thought of heading west to the place I’d been born. All I had in New York was a shit-ton of miserable memories, and a marriage that had gone to hell, catching Finn in its destructive force. I was happy to leave. 

We headed out and tried to lose ourselves again, and it was only when we were on the train that I could even think of relaxing a little.

“Hi, is this seat free?” I looked up and all I saw was white hair. My mind made the connection to Simon Frederickson and fear gripped me. My heart raced, but it was just a random guy looking for a seat, that was all. I was losing my shit—seeing phantoms. 

“Yeah, sure.” 

The man smiled, then sat down and immediately put in ear buds before closing his eyes. Thank goodness he didn’t want to sit and chat because that was the last thing I needed right now. 

I just needed time to think. Finn and I could hide out together for a few months, just while I planned a fresh start and got my head straight. Simon wouldn’t know where we were, nor would others like him whom Graeme had wronged. Neither would the media, or the senders of the hate mail that arrived every day, not for a while at least. I hoped we could be anonymous, to give ourselves time. 

“Let’s get this adventure started.”



Listen #5
Chapter One 
Elliot 
It sucks that I’m crushing hard on a parent of one of my pupils. 

Nick Horner fueled more than one of my private fantasies and I couldn’t do a damn thing about it. From his dark hair to his green-hazel eyes, he was my celebrity crush, broad, and strong, with an ass you could bounce a quarter off. And I could wax lyrical for days over his face— his perfect face— with his gorgeous smile, dimples, and cheekbones, and lips just this side of plump and so pink I could almost taste them. He was so sexy he stole my breath, and I wanted him under me, on top of me, in me, me in him, all ways… badly. 

Unfortunately, his daughter, Hannah, was in my English class. 

Not unfortunate because she was a bad student. Not at all. In fact, she was a shining light in a class full of entitled rich kids at St. Josephs, and I mostly had good things to say about her in among the worries. It was just unfortunate that he was the parent of a child at the school and was off-limits, despite being my idea of perfection. 

My lust-filled thoughts had begun when we bonded over pineapple on pizza at the last Queer Straight Alliance fundraising event. Or rather, we hadn’t bonded, but ended up teasing each other. Nick took the stance that it was the worst thing in the world, and I’d told him it was the best kind of pizza. That had been a few months back, when Hannah had only just joined my class, and the pizza-bonding had been a fun way to pass ten minutes, but nothing more. I flirted. I think he kind of flirted back, but I wasn’t sure, and it was never going to go anywhere. 

“Pineapple doesn’t belong on pizza,” he’d said right by my ear when I wasn’t expecting it. I’d spun around so fast that a mushroom appetizer had flown off my plate and barely missed hitting him in his perfect face. 

I think I held up my end of the conversation, but there’d been nothing more than a buzz in my head, until I realized he’d been staring at me with a frown. 

Then, I’d lost the plot entirely, made some joke about how we should add a new QSA seminar on how to admit to your horrified family that you liked pineapple on pizza. He’d snorted a laugh then, and it was as if I had a superpower that only worked on him, because I didn’t make people laugh. I was too serious, too intense— I’d heard it all. He’d smiled with me, not at me, and for a second there, with half a shrimp special in my hands, I’d thought I’d seen the ever-present aloofness in him melt away as he stared into my eyes with an intensity I’d never experienced. Then, he’d exited stage left, and I got the feeling I’d done something wrong— that maybe I shouldn’t have admitted that pineapple on pizza was definitely a thing. 

We’d met at a couple of other school events after that, and I swear there’d been something there— an indefinable thing that was part attraction, part wariness, and wholly awkward, although it never went past chatting, and always ended with us exchanging handshakes and going our separate ways. 

But now, for the first time, I was meeting Nick in an official capacity as Hannah’s teacher at our very first parent-teacher conference of the year, and I was excited, and nervous, and a bit sad that I couldn’t get my flirt on. I had important things to say to him about Hannah, and I needed to stay one hundred percent professional and certainly not imagine Nick Horner naked. 

I grabbed a cinnamon roll from my bag— I’d missed any kind of meal break to write reports from yesterday’s parent-teacher meetings but I always carried emergency rations just in case. I even managed to finish the roll because Nick Horner was currently running late, the clock ticking off the minutes as I added a few more notes to my list. I was so lost in the words, brushing cinnamon roll crumbs from the paper as I wrote, that the sharp knock on the door startled the hell out of me. 

“Come in,” I called, and a very guilty Nick Horner poked his head around the corner. 

“I’m sorry I’m late,” he murmured. 

That was one of the things I liked about him— despite his money, and his celebrity, he wasn’t entitled and he’d even thought to apologize. This private school, the most expensive in San Diego, wasn’t used to parents who were humble enough to apologize for their tardiness. 

“It’s fine, please come in.” I gestured to the selection of chairs. 

He took the one opposite me, and I got my first look at the man who took up way too much real estate in my thoughts. He was nothing like I recalled, not bright and engaged, but instead exhausted— his eyes bracketed with lines, his normally bright hazel eyes dull. He wasn’t in a suit, but jeans and a T-shirt, with a ball cap pushing back his dark hair and even though he was a tall man, he was hunched in on himself. 

Something wasn’t right. 

“Is everything okay?” I know I sounded worried. 

“Yeah, of course, and sorry again, I was stuck… just stuck,” he mumbled, then cleared his throat, and wriggled in the chair to sit more upright. 

“No worries,” I reassured him. 

“It’s been one of those days. Weeks.” He waved off his words, but he wouldn’t meet my gaze. “So uhm, I’m here for Hannah’s report?” 

I opened the file and went through all the usual items, her academic achievements in my English class, which for the main part were exemplary. Nick smiled softly at most of it, but it seemed as if the smile was difficult to hold, and he kept staring at anything but me. He was distracted and I wondered if he was getting enough sleep— or any at all. Maybe, he was deep into a new documentary and working all hours? Who knew? He listened with a sudden burst of interest when I talked about Hannah’s schoolwork, even wanting to know how he could help her at home. Then, for long moments, he zoned out. Was tonight the best time to talk seriously to him? 

“I do have some concerns,” I began. 

He finally glanced at me. His body language screamed defensive and exhausted, and I hesitated a moment before telling him what I felt because he seemed so damn brittle. I didn’t know what was going on with him, but he wasn’t the Nick I’d met before. 

“Concerns? About my Hannah?” He was confused, shocked even. 

How did I explain that things weren’t quite right? I’d been teaching for three years at St. Joseph’s now, and with Hannah’s cohort for this semester, but I was still a new teacher and sometimes struggled to explain things I couldn’t back up with black and white test scores and statistics. Hannah shone in verbal reasoning, her intelligence put her at the top of my class, but she lost focus easily, and her homework assignments weren’t consistent. I’d tried talking to her other teachers, but they’d given me the look. The one that said I should understand Hannah’s father was a celebrity, and maybe, I should let sleeping dogs lie in case we lost his donations. 

They clearly didn’t know me very well— I was the champion of the underdog, and Hannah was struggling. 

“I wanted to ask if everything is okay at home?” I said. 

His body language shifted, going from shocked to closed off to frustrated. Maybe that wasn’t the best first question, and I glanced down at my list. Seeing him here had thrown me off-balance, and watching his stress had made me think there was something bigger than just what was happening with Hannah. 

“Everything is fine.” He was quick to defend, as if he’d almost expected me to say something and had rehearsed what to say. 

My chest tightened at the sudden iciness in the room. “I’m asking because Hannah hasn’t managed to hand in an assignment on time this semester, and I’ve noticed a pattern in her not concentrating in class—” 

“You literally just said Hannah is one of your best students,” he interrupted. 

“Hannah is one of the most vocal in class, always backing up her comments with thoughtful clarification, but I feel as if her academic progress doesn’t align with my high expectations for her. In a publicly funded school, there are procedures to follow for supporting students, but I’m hitting nothing but brick walls here at St. Joseph’s, and so I’ve gone straight to you, her dad.” 

He raised an eyebrow, and I got the feeling he had a low opinion of my expectations and my comment on how the exclusive St. Joseph’s worked. I wasn’t sure what he was trying to convey with his expression, so I forged ahead. 

“I feel that, at times, she’s over-engaged in my classroom, almost obsessive, and then appears scattered, so maybe she would benefit from a private assessment for what I feel could be some level of attention deficit.” 

“What? Like ADHD?”

“I don’t know exactly—” 

“I don’t need people thinking they can tell me what’s best for my kids.” 

“Mr. Horner—” 

“I know she’s been scattered, but have you thought that maybe it’s your teaching?” He crossed his arms over his chest. “You’re a new teacher.” 

“No. I’ve been here three years—” 

“Which is nothing.” 

“I agree, it could be my teaching methods,” I began diplomatically. I’d never said I was the best teacher in the world, but I knew my kids, and this wasn’t about the teaching, at least I didn’t think it was. I was thrown because he didn’t seem to be respecting my opinion, and I’d always had the impression he respected others. 

Not that I knew where the impression came from— maybe because I’d seen the documentaries he’d made? Or because he hadn’t laughed me out of his space for liking pineapple on pizza? 

“So why have none of her other teachers reached out?” 

Great— he was going straight there. “I’m the only one who currently considers there to be an issue.”

“And there you go.” His tone was dead. “I don’t pay thousands to this damn place for one inexperienced teacher to jump to conclusions. She’s tired, having to take the slack for everything because of me— because I’m letting everyone down. Look, she’s working too hard, that’s all.” He left his seat and began to pace, agitation in every line of him. Gone was the smooth guy who didn’t have a hair out of place, in his place was a man who was on edge. 

I was at a disadvantage staying in my chair, so I stood and held out a hand to stop him pacing. I didn’t mean to touch him, but he sure as hell walked into my hand and then flinched and stumbled back, only to catch himself and then straighten to his full height, which was a good six inches over mine. 

I’m not intimidated. On the other hand, do I need to call security? 

“Mr. Horner,” I began in an even tone. “I think we’re talking at cross purposes. I’m not jumping to conclusions, and I care deeply about the success or failure of my students.” 

“My daughter is not a failure,” he snapped.

“I shouldn’t have used that word. I never said she was.” I raised a hand again. “Let’s start this again. I’ve been observing Hannah, and her usual group of friends seems to be pulling away, and she’s quiet, less engaged in my class, and in my observations, I wonder if you’ve considered having her evaluated for attention deficit. Girls are infinitely better at masking ADHD than boys, and it’s a wide spectrum that covers a multitude of—” 

“We’ve been through a lot.” He was good at interrupting me. “You do know she lost her other dad, right?” 

“I know, a few years ago.” I wish I hadn’t said that when I saw the flash of anger in his eyes. 

“Are you implying there’s a time limit on grief?” 

“No. What?” This conversation was seriously going off the tracks. “I didn’t say anything of the sort, losing a parent will never leave you. I understand that—” 

“She’s fine.” 

I wished he’d just let me talk. “I thought that—” 

He didn’t even wait to hear what I was saying, exiting the room and slamming the door so hard the wall shook. 

I stared at the space he’d been taking up as if it had all the answers. Five minutes, that was all that had passed in the aborted meeting, and I’d never witnessed such a range of emotions. I didn’t know how long I stared, but it was long enough to conclude that Nick Horner had lost his shit in a spectacular way. I picked up Hannah’s paperwork and shuffled it into a pile— lost in thought when the door flew open again— and Nick walked back in. He closed the door behind him and leaned there, his chin on his chest. 

“Christ,” Nick muttered, then pressed his fingers to his forehead.   

“Mr. Horner?” I asked cautiously, not wanting to spark anything weird. There were only maybe five steps between us, and I was close enough to see his wet eyes— it wasn’t fear I was feeling, but compassion. “Nick?” 

He winced when I used his name. Had I overstepped? Or was there something else going on? 

“Do you have a bathroom?” he asked. 

I gestured to the end of the conference room, and he headed that way. I followed him a few steps, wondering if he needed something, confused as hell, and when he didn’t close the door but just splashed water on his face, I waited at the doorway for him to talk.   

“Do you need me to get anyone?” I asked. 

He turned toward me so fast I took a step back.  “ No— I know there’s something going on with Hannah.” He pressed a wet hand to his chest and left a damp spot there. “I know in here that I’m letting her down because I can’t get my head straight, and she’s carrying a load I should be lifting.” He yanked paper towels from the supply and scrubbed his face, then threw them into the trash can. “I came back to apologize, but…” He pressed fingers to his temples and winced. 

“Hannah is an exceptional student, and I just want what’s best for her.” 

“I know that I’m failing at this, and if people find out how about her, how do you think this will look to them?” he asked tiredly, supporting his weight by gripping the vanity. 

Wait? What? He was upset because he didn’t want people to know his daughter was struggling? “Sorry?” I was angry then. I couldn’t help it, and the irrational side of me spilled out all over him. “Are you saying you care more about your media profile than your daughter?” 

“No. What?” He looked horrified. “That’s not what I meant. Of course, I don’t think that.” 

“Really?” 

“No! Yes. You don’t understand. There are people who think they know me and judge me for every goddamn move my family makes.” 

His anger slipped, and in its place was a vulnerability so raw that I took a step closer and raised a hand. I didn’t know what I would do, touch him in reassurance, pat him, thump him for shouting at me? God knows, but he was confusing the hell out of me. 

“You don’t know what it’s like for everyone to be watching you all the time!” he said and then slumped. 

I reached for him, compassion welling inside me, and for a second, he covered my hand with his. As if he recalled something terrible, his eyes widened, and I didn’t understand how we’d gone from him being angry to needing compassion. 

“I can listen if you need me to.” 

He stared at me in silence, and then placed a warm hand against my left cheek. 

“Pineapple,” he murmured. “You threw a mushroom thing at me and made me smile. Your eyes make me think… You’re the only one since Danny that I’ve ever…”

“Huh?” 

“Shit, I’m sorry.” The apology was raw. 

I raised a hand to cover his. “It’s okay, Mr. Horner.” 

“Nick. My name is Nick.” 

“I know.” 

“I don’t know what I’m saying.” He sounded broken, and there was anger there as well, only it seemed directed at himself. “I’m fucking up, and I’m not ready. This is your fault. No, it’s not your fault. It’s on me, and I don’t think I should do this, but I wanted to.” 

We stared at each other in silence, and we were so close that if he shifted an inch or two we’d be kissing. I should’ve moved back, but instead he cursed, and the curse came from a place deep inside him, and it dripped with pain. He hauled me into his arms, and we kissed. It was more than just a kiss, it was an all-consuming claiming of each other, and after a moment of panic over what we were doing, I gripped his shirt and gave as good as I got. 

I forgot everything but the taste of Nick, and the way he tugged me forwards and into the bathroom, shutting the door behind us and lifting me— lifting me— onto the counter, and insinuating himself between my legs. Both of us hard, the kiss was everything, and desperate to get my hands on him, I wrapped my arms around his neck, lacing my fingers together, and someone whimpered. 

Me. 

“Please tell me to stop,” he pleaded. 

I tightened my grip. “More,” was all I could force out, and we went back at it like kids under the bleachers, all uncoordinated hands and lips. 

“You taste of cinnamon,” he blurted as he drew breath. 

“Rolls.” I was incoherent as I kissed him again, our tongues tangling, and his hold solid on my back. 

Then as quickly as it started, it stopped. 

He released me, and stumbled away, his back hitting the wall, and as he wiped his mouth, his eyes widened. 

“Fuck, I’m sorry,” he whispered.

“It’s okay.” 

“It’s not okay. I’m sorry, this should be about Hannah!” He scrunched his hair as if he was going to pull it out from the roots. 

“Let’s talk then.” 

“It’s too late. It’s too much.” He looked destroyed, “I can’t even look at you.” 

Ouch, that hurt, and I felt exposed and disrespected, with my lips still wet from his kisses. 

I wanted to shout at him, but before I could say anything, he yanked at the door to leave. I followed him out into the room, but he was heading through the main door, and even though he didn’t slam it, the end of our meeting was final. So many lines had been crossed, and none of what had just happened made any real sense. 

Was it worse that I was furious at his denial that anything was wrong with Hannah, or that I just wished he’d come back? 

Please come back.


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📘🎥Friday's Film Adaptation🎥📘: The Gracie Allen Murder Case by SS Van Dine



Summary:

The beloved 1930s comedienne becomes the famed detective’s sidekick in the series that “transport[s] the reader back to a long-gone era of society” (Mystery Scene).

During a glamorous night on the town, Gracie Allen finds a dead body—and a cigarette case nearby that belongs to her date for the evening. Detective Philo Vance is on the scene, but questioning Gracie is causing more confusion than enlightenment. To prevent her from creating more chaos, Vance decides to keep her close by as his unofficial sleuthing partner. Now, with the help of the zany star—or in spite of it—he intends to find the real killer . . .

Mr. Van Dine’s amateur detective is the most gentlemanly, and probably the most scholarly snooper in literature.” —Chicago Daily Tribune

The best of the American mystery men.” —The Globe



CHAPTER ONE 
A Buzzard Escapes 
(Friday, May 17; 8 p.m.) 
PHILO VANCE, CURIOUSLY enough, always liked the Gracie Allen murder case more than any of the others in which he participated. 

The case was, perhaps, not as serious as some of the others—although, on second thought, I am not so sure that this is strictly true. Indeed, it was fraught with many ominous potentialities; and its basic elements (as I look back now) were, in fact, intensely dramatic and sinister, despite its almost constant leaven of humor.

I have often asked Vance why he felt so keen a fondness for this case, and he has always airily retorted with a brief explanation that it constituted his one patent failure as an investigator of the many crimes presented to him by District Attorney John F.-X. Markham. 

“No—oh, no, Van; it was not my case at all, don’t y’ know,” Vance drawled, as we sat before his grate fire one wintry evening, long after the events. “Really, y’ know, I deserve none of the credit. I would have been utterly baffled and helpless had it not been for the charming Gracie Allen who always popped up at just the crucial moment to save me from disaster… If ever you should embalm the case in print, please place the credit where it rightfully belongs… My word, what an astonishing girl! The goddesses of Zeus’ Olympian ménage never harassed old Priam and Agamemnon with the éclat exhibited by Gracie Allen in harassing the recidivists of that highly scented affair. Amazin’!…” 

It was an almost unbelievable case from many angles, exceedingly unorthodox and unpredictable. The mystery and enchantment of perfume permeated the entire picture. The magic of fortune-telling and commercial haruspicy in general were intimately involved in its deciphering. And there was a human romantic element which lent it an unusual roseate color. 

To start with, it was spring—the 17th day of May—and the weather was unusually mild. Vance and Markham and I had dined on the spacious veranda of the Bellwood Country Club, overlooking the Hudson. The three of us had chatted in desultory fashion, for this was to be an hour of sheer relaxation and pleasure, without any intrusion of the jarring criminal interludes which had, in recent years, marked so many of our talks. 

However, even at this moment of serenity, ugly criminal angles were beginning to protrude, though unsuspected by any of us; and their shadow was creeping silently toward us.

We had finished our coffee and were sipping our chartreuse when Sergeant Heath,* looking grim and bewildered, appeared at the door leading from the main dining room to the veranda, and strode quickly to our table. 

“Hello, Mr. Vance.” His tone was hurried. “…Howdy, Chief. Sorry to bother you, but this came into the office half an hour after you left and, knowing where you were, I thought it best to bring it to you pronto.” He drew a folded yellow paper from his pocket and, opening it out, placed it emphatically before the District Attorney. 

Markham read it carefully, shrugged his shoulders, and handed the paper back to Heath. 

“I can’t see,” he said without emotion, “why this routine information should necessitate a trip up here.” 

Heath’s cheeks inflated with exasperation. 

“Why, that’s the guy, Chief, that threatened to get you.” 

“I’m quite aware of that fact,” said Markham coldly; then he added in a somewhat softened tone: “Sit down, Sergeant. Consider yourself off duty for the moment, and have a drink of your favorite whisky.” 

When Heath had adjusted himself in a chair, Markham went on. 

“Surely you don’t expect me, at this late date, to begin taking seriously the hysterical mouthings of criminals I have convicted in the course of my duties.” 

“But, Chief, this guy’s a tough hombre, and he ain’t the forgetting or the forgiving kind.” 

“Anyway,”—Markham laughed without concern—“it would be tomorrow, at the earliest, before he could reach New York.” 

As Heath and Markham were speaking, Vance’s eyebrows rose in mild curiosity.

“I say, Markham, all I’ve been able to glean is that your tutel’ry Sergeant has fears for your curtailed existence, and that you yourself are rather annoyed by his zealous worries.” 

“Hell, Mr. Vance, I’m not worryin’,” Heath blurted. “I’m just considering the possibilities, as you might say.” 

“Yes, yes, I know,” smiled Vance. “Always careful. Sewin’ up seams that haven’t even ripped. Doughty and admirable, as always, Sergeant. But whence springeth your qualm?” 

“I’m sorry, Vance.” Markham apologized for his failure to explain. “It’s really of no importance—just a routine telegraphic announcement of a rather commonplace jail-break at Nomenica.* Three men under long sentences staged the exodus, and two of them were shot by the guards…” 

“I’m not botherin’ about the guys who was shot,” Heath cut in. “It’s the other one—the guy that got away safe—that’s set me to thinkin’—” 

“And who might this stimulator of thought be, Sergeant?” Vance asked. 

“Benny the Buzzard!” whispered Heath, with melodramatic emphasis. 

“Ah!” Vance smiled. “An ornithological specimen—Buteo borealis. Maybe he flew away to freedom…” 

“It’s no laughing matter, Mr. Vance.” Heath became even more serious. “Benny the Buzzard—or Benny Pellinzi, to give him his honest monicker—is plenty tough, in spite of looking like a bloodless, pretty-faced boy. Only a few years back, he was strutting around telling anybody who’d listen that he was Public Enemy Number One. That type of guy. But he was only small change, except for his toughness and meanness—actually nothing but a dumb, stupid rat—” 

“Rat? Buzzard?… My word, Sergeant, aren’t you confusin’ your natural history?”

“And only three years ago,” continued Heath doggedly, “Mr. Markham got him sent up for a twenty-year stretch. And he pulls a jail-break just this afternoon and gets away with it. Sweet, ain’t it?” 

“Still,” submitted Vance, “such A.W.O.L.s have been taken ere this.” 

“Sure they have.” Heath extended his off-duty respite and took another whisky. “But you must’ve read what this guy pulled in court when he was sentenced. The judge hadn’t hardly finished slipping him the twenty years when he blew off his gauge. He pointed at Mr. Markham and, at the top of his voice, swore some kind of cockeyed oath that he’d come back and get him if it was the last thing he ever did. And he sounded like he meant it. He was so sore and steamed up that it took two man-eating bailiffs to drag him out of the courtroom. Generally it’s the judge who gets the threats; but this guy elected to take it out on the D. A. And that somehow made more sense.” 

Vance nodded slowly. 

“Yes, quite—quite. I see your point, Sergeant. Different and therefore dangerous.” 

“And why I really came here tonight,” Heath went on, “was to tell Mr. Markham what I intended doing. Naturally, we’ll be on the lookout for the Buzzard. He might come here direct, all right; and he might head west and try to reach the Dakotas—the Bad Lands for him, if he’s got a brain.” 

“Exactly,” Markham interpolated. “You’re probably right when you suggest he’ll head west. And I’m certainly planning no immediate jaunt to the Black Hills.” 

“Anyhow, Chief,” the Sergeant persisted stubbornly, “I’m not taking any chances on him—especially since we’ve got a pretty good line on his old cronies in this burg.” 

“Just what line do you refer to, Sergeant?” 

“Mirche, and the Domdaniel café, and Benny’s old sweetie that sings there—the Del Marr jane.”

“Whether Mirche and Pellinzi are cronies,” said Markham, “is a moot question in my mind.” 

“It ain’t in mine, Chief. And if the Buzzard should sneak back to New York, I’ve got a hunch he’d go straight to Mirche for help.” 

Markham did not argue the possibilities further. Instead, he merely asked: “What course do you intend to pursue, Sergeant?” 

Heath leaned across the table. 

“I figure it this way, Chief. If the Buzzard does plan to return to his old hunting grounds, he’ll be smart about it. He’ll do it quick and sudden-like, figurin’ we haven’t got set. If he don’t show up in the next few days I’ll simply drop the idea, and the boys’ll keep their eyes open in the routine way. But—beginning tomorrow morning, I plan to have Hennessey in that old rooming-house across from the Domdaniel, covering the little door leading into Mirche’s private office. An’ Burke and Snitkin will be with Hennessey in case the bird does show up.” 

“Aren’t you a bit optimistic, Sergeant?” asked Vance. “Three years in prison can work many changes in a man’s appearance, especially if the victim is still young and not too robust.” 

Heath dismissed Vance’s skepticism with an impatient gesture. 

“I’ll trust Hennessey—he’s got a good eye.” 

“Oh, I’m not questioning Hennessey’s vision,” Vance assured him, “—provided your liberty-lovin’ Buzzard should be so foolish as to choose the front door for his entry into Mirche’s office. But really, my dear Sergeant, Maestro Pellinzi may deem it wiser to steal in by the rear door, don’t y’ know.”

“There ain’t no rear door,” explained Heath. “And there ain’t no side door, either. A strictly private room with only one entrance facing the street. That’s the wide-open and aboveboard set-up of this guy Mirche—everything on the up-and-up. Slick as they come.” 

“Is this sanctum a separate structure?” asked Vance. “Or is it an annex to the café? I don’t seem to recall it.” 

“No. And you wouldn’t notice it, if you weren’t looking for it. It’s like an end room that’s been cut off in the corner of the building—the way they cut off a doctor’s office, or a small shop, in a big apartment-house. But if you wanta see Mirche that’s where you’ll most likely find him. The place looks as innocent as an old ladies’ home.” 

Heath glanced round at us significantly as he continued. 

“And yet, plenty goes on in that little room. If I could ever get a dictograph planted there, the D. A.’s office would have enough underworld trials on its hands to keep it busy from now on.” 

He paused and cocked an eye at Markham. 

“How do you feel about my idea for tomorrow?” 

“It can’t do any harm, Sergeant,” answered Markham without enthusiasm. “But I still think it would be a waste of time and energy.” 

“Maybe so.” Heath finished his whisky. “But I feel I gotta follow my hunch, just the same.” 

Vance set down his liqueur glass, and a whimsical expression came into his eyes. 

“But I say, Markham,” he drawled, “it would be a waste of time and energy, no matter what the outcome. Ah, your precious law, and its prissy procedure! How you Solons complicate the simple things of life! Even if this red-tailed hawk with the operatic name should appear among his olden haunts and be snared in the Sergeant’s seine, you would still treat him kindly and caressingly under the euphemistic phrase, ‘due process of law.’ You’d coddle him no end. You’d take all possible precautions to bring him in alive, although he himself might blow the brains out of a couple of the Sergeant’s confrères. Then you’d lodge and nourish him well; you’d drive him through town in a high-powered limousine; you’d give him a pleasant scenic trip back to Nomenica. And all for what, old dear? For the highly questionable privilege of supportin’ him elegantly for life.” 

Markham was obviously nettled. 

“I suppose you could settle the whole situation with a lirp.” 

“It could be, don’t y’ know.” Vance was in one of his tantalizing moods. “Here’s a worthless johnnie who has long been a thorn in the side of the law; who has, as you jolly well know, killed a man and been convicted accordingly; who has engineered a lawless prison break costing two more lives; who has promised to murder you in cold blood; and who is even now deprivin’ the Sergeant of his slumber. Not a nice person, Markham. And all these irregularities might be so easily and expeditiously adjusted by shooting the johnnie on sight, or otherwise disposing of him quickly, without ado or chinoiserie.” 

“And I suppose”—Markham spoke almost angrily—“that you yourself would be willing to undertake this illegal purge.” 

“Willing?” There was a teasing tone in Vance’s voice. “I’d be positively delighted. My good deed for that day.” 

Markham puffed vigorously at his cigar. He was always irritated when Vance’s persiflage took this line. 

“Deliberately taking a human life, Vance—”

“Please spare me the logion, Reverend Doctor. I know the answer. With Society and Law and Order singing the Greek chorus a capella. But you must admit my suggested solution is logical, practical, and just.” 

“We’ve gone into that sophistry before,” snapped Markham. “And furthermore, I’m not going to let you spoil my dinner with such nonsensical chatter.”


CHAPTER TWO 
A Rustic Interlude 
(Saturday, May 18; afternoon.) 
THE NEXT DAY, shortly after noon, we met Markham in his dingy private office overlooking the Tombs. Ordinarily the District Attorney’s office was closed at this hour on Saturdays, but Markham was in the meshes of a trying political tangle and wished to see the affair settled as soon as possible. 

“I’m deuced sorry, don’t y’ know,” said Vance, “that you must slave on an afternoon like this. I was hoping you might be persuaded to come for a drive over the countryside.”

“What!” exclaimed Markham in mock surprise. “Are you succumbing to your natural impulses? Don’t tell me Mother Nature’s sirenical tones can sway a hothouse sybarite like yourself! Why not have Van lash you to the mast in true Odyssean manner?” 

“No. I find myself actually longin’ for the spell of an Ogygian isle with citron scent and cedar-sawn—” 

“And perhaps a wood-nymph like Calypso.” 

“My dear Markham! Really, now!” Vance pretended indignation. “No—oh, no. I merely plan a bit of gambolin’ in the Bronx greenery.” 

“I see that the clear-toned Sirens of the flowered fields have snared you.” Markham’s smile was playfully derisive. “If Heath’s ominous dream is fulfilled we’ll later be steering a stormy course between Scylla and Charybdis.” 

“One never knows, does one? But should it come to pass, I trust no man shall be caught from out our hollow ship by the voracious Scylla.” 

“For Heaven’s sake, Vance, don’t be so gloomy. You’re talking utter nonsense.” 

(I particularly remember this bit of classical repartee which certainly would not have found its way into this record, had it not been that it proved curiously prophetic, even to the scent of citron and the Messina monster’s cave.) 

“And I suppose,” suggested Markham, “you’ll do your gamboling in immaculate attire. I somehow can’t picture you in vagabondian trappings.” 

“You’re quite wrong,” said Vance. “I shall don a rugged old tweed suit—the most ancient bit of coverin’ I possess… But tell me, Markham, how goes it with the zealous Sergeant and his premonitions?”

“Oh, I suppose he’s gone ahead with his useless arrangements.” Markham spoke with indifference. “But if poor Hennessey has to invite strabismus for very long I’ll have more to fear from him in the way of retribution than from Mr. Beniamino Pellinzi… I don’t quite understand Heath’s sudden case of jitters over my safety.” 

“Stout fella, Heath.” Vance studied the ash on his cigarette with a hesitant smile. “Fact is, Markham, I intend to partake of Mirche’s expensive hospitality tonight myself.” 

“You too!… You’re actually going to the Domdaniel tonight?” 

“Not in the hope of encounterin’ your friend the Buzzard,” replied Vance. “But Heath has stirred my curiosity. I should like to take a closer look at the incredible Mr. Mirche. I’ve seen him before, of course, at his hospice, but I’ve never really paid attention to his features. And I could bear a peep—from the outside only, of course—at this mysterious office which has so fretted the Sergeant’s imagination… And there’s always the chance a little excitement may ensue when the early portentous shadows of the mysterious night—” 

“Come, come, Vance. You sound like a penny dreadful. What arrière pensée is being screened by this smoke of words?” 

“If you really must know, Markham, the food is excellent at the Domdaniel. I was merely tryin’ to hide a gourmet’s yearnin’…” 

Markham snorted, and the talk shifted to a discussion of other matters, interrupted now and then by telephone calls. When Markham had completed his arrangements for the afternoon and evening, he ushered us out through the judges’ private chambers and down to the street. 

After a brief lunch we drove Markham back to his office, and then headed uptown to Vance’s apartment. Here Vance changed his suit for the old disreputable tweed, and put on heavier boots and a soft well-worn Homburg hat. Then we went out again to his Hispano-Suiza, and in an hour’s time we were driving leisurely along Palisade Avenue in the Riverdale section of the Bronx. 

Both sides of the road were thickly grown with trees and shrubs. The fragrance of spring flowers hung in the air, and we caught a fleck of bright color now and then. On our left, beyond an unbroken steel-mesh fence, a gentle slope dipped to the Hudson. On the right the ground rose more abruptly, so that the rough stone wall did not shut off the prospect. 

At the top of a slight incline, just where the road swung inland, Vance turned off the roadway, and brought the car to a gentle stop. 

“This, I think, would be an ideal spot for minglin’ with the flora and communin’ with nature.” 

Except for the fence on the river side, and the stone wall, perhaps five feet high, along the inner border of the road, we were, to all appearances, on a lonely country road. Vance crossed the broad and shaded grassy strip that stretched like a runner of green carpet between the roadway and the wall. He clambered up the stone enclosure, beckoning me to do likewise as he disappeared in the lush rustic foliage on the farther side. 

For over an hour we trudged back and forth through the woods, and then, as we suddenly came face to face with the stone enclosure again, Vance reluctantly looked at his watch. 

“Almost five,” he said. “We’d better be staggerin’ home, Van.” 

I preceded him to the roadway, and started slowly back toward the car. A large automobile, running almost noiselessly, suddenly came round the turn. I stopped as it sped by, and watched it disappear over the edge of the hill. Then I continued in the direction of our own car. 

After a few steps, I became aware of a young woman standing near the wall, well back from the roadway, in a secluded grassy bower. She was shaking the front of her skirt nervously and with marked agitation, and was stamping one foot in the soft loam. She looked perturbed and displeased, and as I drew nearer I saw that on the front of her flimsy summer frock there was an inch-wide burnt hole. 

As a vexed exclamation escaped her, Vance leaped—or, I should say, fell—from the wall behind her. His heel caught in the crude masonry, and as he strove to regain his balance, a sharp projection of the plaster tore the sleeve of his coat. The unexpected commotion startled the young woman anew, and she turned, inquisitively alert. 

She was a petite creature, and gracefully animated, with a piquant oval face and regular, sensitive features. Her eyes were large and brown, with extremely long lashes curling over them. A straight and slender nose lent dignity and character to a mouth made for smiling. She was slim and supple, and seemed to fit in perfectly with her pastoral surroundings. 

“My word!” murmured Vance, looking down at her. “That wasn’t a very graceful entry into your arbor. Please forgive me if I frightened you.” 

The girl continued to stare at him distrustfully, and as I looked at Vance again I could well understand her reaction. He was quite disheveled; his shoes and trousers were generously spattered with mud; his hat was crushed and grotesquely awry; and his torn coat-sleeve looked like that of some roving mendicant. 

In a moment the girl smiled. 

“Oh, I’m not frightened,” she assured him in a musical voice which had a very youthful engaging timbre. “I’m just angry. Terribly angry. Were you ever angry?… But I’m not angry with you, for I don’t even know you… Maybe I would be angry with you if I knew you… Did you ever think of that?”

“Yes—yes. Quite often.” Vance laughed and removed his hat: immediately he looked far more presentable. “And I’m sure you’d be entirely justified, too… By the by, may I sit down? I’m beastly tired, don’t y’ know.” 

The girl looked quickly up the road, and then seated herself rather abruptly, much as a child might throw herself carelessly on the ground. 

“That would be wonderful. I’ll read your palm. Have you ever had your palm read? I’m very good at it. Delpha taught me all the lines. Delpha knows all about the hands, and the stars, and lucky numbers. She’s a fortune-teller. And she’s psychic, too. Just like me. I’m psychic. Are you psychic? But maybe I can’t concentrate today.” Her voice took on a mystic quality. “Some days, when I’m feeling in tune, I could tell you how old you are and how many children you have…” 

Vance laughed, and seated himself beside her. 

“But really, y’ know, I don’t think I could bear to learn such staggerin’ facts about myself just now…” 

Vance took out his cigarette case and opened it slowly. 

“I’m sure you wouldn’t mind if I smoked,” he said ingratiatingly, holding out the case to her; but receiving only a giggle and a shake of the head, he lighted one of his Régies for himself. 

“But I’m awfully glad you mentioned cigarettes,” the girl said. “It reminds me how mad I was.” 

“Oh, yes.” Vance smiled indulgently. “But won’t you tell me at whom you were so angry?” 

She squinted at the cigarette between his fingers. 

“I don’t know now,” she answered with slight confusion. 

“By Jove, that’s unfortunate. Maybe it was me you were angry at all the time?”

“No, it wasn’t you—at least, I didn’t think it was you. Now I’m not so sure. At first I thought it was somebody in a big car that just went by—” 

“And what were you angry about?” 

“Oh, that… Well, look at the front of my new dress here.” She spread the skirt about her. “Do you see that big burnt hole? It’s just ruined. And I simply adore this dress. Don’t you like it?—that is, if it wasn’t burnt? I made it myself—well, anyhow, I told mother how I wanted it made. It made me look awfully cute. And now I can’t wear it any more.” There was real distress in her tone. “Did you throw that lighted cigarette?” 

“What cigarette?” asked Vance. 

“Why, the cigarette that burnt my dress. It’s around here somewhere… Well, anyhow, it was an awfully good shot, especially since you couldn’t see me. And maybe you didn’t even know I was here. And that would make it much harder to hit me, don’t you think?” 

“Yes, I can see your point.” Vance was as much interested as he was amused. “But really, my dear, it must have been some villain in the car—if there was a car.” 

The girl sighed. 

“Well, then,” she murmured with resignation, “I guess it wasn’t you I was mad at. And now I don’t know who it was. And that makes me madder than ever. I’m sure if I was mad at you, you’d do something about it.” 

“Shall we say then, that I’m just as sorry about it as if I had thrown the cigarette?” suggested Vance. 

“But now I don’t know whether you did or not. If you couldn’t see me through the wall, how could I see you?”

“Irrefragable logic!” Vance returned, adjusting himself to her seemingly fanciful mood. “Therefore, you must permit me to make amends—no matter who the culprit was.” 

“Really,” she said, “I don’t know what you mean.” But a twinkle in her eyes seemed to belie the words. 

“I mean just this: I want you to go down to Chareau and Lyons* and select one of their prettiest frocks—one which will make you look just as cute as this one does.” 

“Oh, I couldn’t afford it!” 

He took out his card case, and, jotting a few words on one of his visiting cards, tucked it beneath the flap of the girl’s handbag which was lying on the grass. 

“You just take that card to Mr. Lyons himself and tell him I sent you.” 

Her eyes beamed gratefully, and she did not protest further. 

“As you quite correctly say,” Vance continued, “you couldn’t see through the wall, and I therefore see no human way of proving that I did not throw the cigarette.” 

“Well, now, that’s settled, isn’t it?” The girl giggled again. “I’m so glad it was you I was mad at for throwing the cigarette.” “And so am I,” asserted Vance. 

“And, incidentally, I also hope you’ll use the same perfume when you wear your new dress. It’s somehow just like the springtime—a ‘delicious scent of citron and orange trees,’ as Longfellow pæaned in his Wayside Inn.” 

“Oh, did he?” 

“By the by, what is it? I don’t recognize it as any of the popular scents.” 

“I don’t know,” the girl replied. “I guess nobody knows. It hasn’t any name. Imagine not having a name! If we didn’t have names we’d get terribly mixed up, wouldn’t we?… It was made specially for me by George—but I suppose I shouldn’t really call him George to strangers. His name is Mr. Burns. I’m his assistant at the In-O-Scent Corporation—that’s a big perfume factory. He’s always mixing different things together and smelling them. That’s his job. He’s very clever too. Only, he’s much too serious. But I don’t think he mixed any citron in it—I really don’t know exactly what citron smells like. I thought it was something you put in cake.” 

“It’s the preserved rind of the citron that goes into cake,” Vance explained. “The oil of citron is quite different. It has the odor of citronella and lemons; and when it is treated with sulphuric acid it even has the odor of violets.” 

“Isn’t that wonderful!” she exclaimed. “Why, you sound just like George. He’s always saying things like that. I’m sure Mr. Burns knows all about it. He gets me so mixed up sometimes, bringing him the right bottles of extracts and essences. And he’s so particular about it. Sometimes he even says I don’t know how to boil his old flasks and tubes and graduates. Imagine!” 

“But I’m sure,” Vance asserted, “that you brought him the right phials when he prepared the odor you are wearing. And I’m sure one of them contained citron, though it may have had some other name… And speaking of names, is your name, by any chance, Calypso?”

 She shook her head. 

“No, but it’s something almost like that. It’s Gracie Allen.” Vance smiled, and the girl’s chatter took still another direction. 

“But aren’t you going to tell me what you were doing over beyond the wall? You know, that’s private property, and I wouldn’t go in there for anything. It wouldn’t be right. Would it? And anyhow, I don’t know where there’s a gate. But this is nice out here. I’ve come here several times, and yet no one’s ever thrown lighted cigarettes at me before, although I’ve been right in this same spot many times. But I guess everything has to happen the first time sometime. Have you ever thought of that?” 

“Yes—oh, yes. It’s a profound question.” He chuckled. “But aren’t you afraid to come to such an unfrequented spot alone?”

"Alone?" Again the girl glanced up the road. "I don't come alone. I generally come with a friend who lives over toward Broadway. His name is Mr. Puttie, and he works in the same business house I do. Mr. Puttie's a salesman. And Mr. Burns--I told you about him before--was very angry with me for coming out here this afternoon with Mr. Puttie. But he's always angry when I go anywhere with anybody else, and especially if it's Mr. Puttie. Don't you think that's silly?" She made a self--satisfied moue. 

"And where might Mr. Puttie be now?" asked Vance. "Don't tell me he's attempting to sell perfumes along the highways and byways of Riverdale." 

"Oh, goodness, no! He never works on Saturday afternoons. And neither do I. I really think the brain should have a rest now and then, don't you?...Oh, you asked me where Mr. Puttie in. Well, I'll tell you--I'm sure he wouldn't mind. He's gone to look for a nunnery." 

"A nunnery? Good Heavens! What for?" 

"He said there was a lovely view from there, with benches and flowers and everything. But he didn't know whether it was up the road from here or down. So I told him to find out first. I didn't feel like going to a nunnery when I didn't even know where it was. Would you go to a nunnery if you didn't know where it was--especially if your shoes hurt you?" 

"No, I think you were eminently sensible. But I happen to know where it is: it's quite a distance down the other way." 

"Well, Jimmy--that is, Mr. Puttie--has gone in the wrong direction then. That's just like him. I'm lucky I made him look first..."


The zany plot follows nitwit Gracie Allen trying to help master sleuth Philo Vance solve a murder.

Release Date:  June 2, 1939
Release Time: 78 minutes

Director: Alfred E. Green

Cast:
Gracie Allen as Gracie Allen
Warren William as Philo Vance
Ellen Drew as Ann Wilson
Kent Taylor as Bill Brown
Judith Barrett as Dixie Del Marr
Donald MacBride as Dist. Atty. John Markham
Jed Prouty as Uncle Ambrose
Jerome Cowan as Daniel Mirche
H. B. Warner as Richard Lawrence
William Demarest as Police Sgt. Ernest Heath
Sam Lee as Thug
Al Shaw as Thug
Richard Denning as Fred
Irving Bacon as Hotel Clerk






Author Bio:
S. S. Van Dine is the pseudonym used by American art critic Willard Huntington Wright (October 15, 1888 – April 11, 1939) when he wrote detective novels. Wright was an important figure in avant-garde cultural circles in pre-World War I New York, and under the pseudonym (which he originally used to conceal his identity) he created the once immensely popular fictional detective Philo Vance, a sleuth and aesthete who first appeared in books in the 1920s, then in movies and on the radio.


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