Thursday, August 20, 2026

🎑⏳Throwback Thursday's Time Machine⏳🎑: Second by RJ Scott & VL Locey




Summary:
LA Storm #2
When he’s lost everything, can Michael rebuild his broken life and find a love worth fighting for?

In the high-stakes world of professional hockey, Michael "Zeetoo" Zhang once had the potential to shine even brighter than his older brother, captain of the LA Storm. But one wrong turn and a growing gambling habit have led him down a treacherous path. After a run of bad luck, he's left with nothing but debts, and after an arrest, he's slammed with a non-custodial sentence of work in the community. Fate takes an unexpected turn when he is placed in an inner-city garden project, where he encounters Bryce, the enigmatic and surly manager of the project, who harbors a deep resentment toward him. Despite Bryce's cold demeanor, Michael wants to prove himself worthy of being loved, if only the scars of past failures and the constant shadow of his brother's success didn't haunt him and leave him feeling lost and alone.

Bryce Kincaid is chased by his own brand of demons, and years out from his mistakes, he's determined to stick to one path and never waver, just in case he once again loses control. Michael Zhang is everything Bryce doesn't want in his life; temptation wrapped in sex, the hockey player is a man on the edge, and to fall for him would mean Bryce opening his heart to hurt.

As they work side by side, the walls around Bryce's heart begin to crack, revealing a vulnerability that even Michael can't resist. Drawn to each other they discover a passion that goes beyond the ice and the earth, and find a love that defies the odds. Only, just as Michael starts to believe in second chances, his past catches up with him, threatening to derail his life completely, and destroy Bryce right along with him. If he wants a life with Bryce then Michael must confront the demons of his past and fight for the future he never thought he deserved.

Original Review February 2024:
Even with 30+ books in their Hockey Universe, Scott & Locey keep producing amazing stories with so much emotion that your heart can't help but melt  No matter how many tropes & pairings the duo creates they keep finding ways to bring originality to said characters and as far as my mind is recollecting, I don't recall any of their athletes and the men who love them facing this kind of struggle(A bit cryptic I know but I don't want to spoil anythingπŸ˜‰).

Michael and Bryce are complete opposites from occupations to homelife to emotional states, at least on paper.  As Second progresses a few cracks begin to appear that give us a peak that they may not be as opposite as originally thought.  Not to spoil anything but sometimes the struggles a new couple faces should be proof that they should not be together and then again it's those same struggles that make them perfect for each other if they are willing to put the work in.  Scott & Locey have perfectly balanced both sides of those coins.  It's easy for a reader to sit on the outside and want to smack a character(MichaelπŸ˜‰) with an iron skillet to make him see sense(trust me I'm that reader most timesπŸ˜‰) but when you start to look at life from the characters view you begin to understand why they are the way they are, doesn't mean you don't still want to give a good whack but you understand himπŸ˜‰.

As I've said from their very first hockey collaboration, Changing Lines, I don't know which author writes which character but they have always created a realistic cast.  Michael and Bryce are no different, realistic fictious gems that I just want to wrap in loving Mama Bear Hugs until all the pain and drama disappears.  

Now, having said that, don't think Second is bogged down in depressing, angsty, heartbreaking melodrama. Yes, there is some of those elements but the hurt is well balanced with comfort, healing, and humor that sucks you in until the last page is swiped and then you want to kick yourself for not reading slower to savor the deliciousness of Michael and Bryce's journey.

Just a couple of things to finish off:
1. As always, most of the Scott/Locey Hockey Universe is a collection of standalones but again as always there are a few mentions of past characters and teams.  You don't have to read them first to enjoy Second but I warn you, when these other characters make an appearance or mentioned by current MCs, you will definitely be intrigued with wonder over their journeys and with 30+ books in the universe, that is a rabbit hole you might want to start at the bottom(or beginning as it were) to work your way out of instead of falling further inπŸ˜‰. But seriously, however you choose to read you won't be disappointed nor will you be lost(I do highly recommend reading the original Railers and Owatonna in order as the holiday novellas further the journeys of already established pairings).

2. In the Scott/Locey Hockey Universe there have been a few entries that had very little actual hockey in them for various reasons, ie: off-season, injury, possible retirement, etc.  Second falls under "etc".  This doesn't diminish the brilliant pull of the story in any way but I just wanted to mention it for those who need to have a lot of on-ice time in their stories, there is some here and it definitely plays a part in Michael's psyche but not nearly as central to the story as in others.

RATING:






Chapter 1
Michael
“Card,”I demanded and schooled my features when the king of diamonds turned up. I had a straight flush, and it was perfect—the kind of dream hand in poker that comes once in a lifetime. My heart raced as I peeked at my cards, barely containing my excitement. The odds were in my favor. It was a sure thing, a certainty, and blinded by the promise of winning, I did the unthinkable. I pushed all my chips to the center of the table. Everything. It was a bold move, a statement. I was all in. This was my moment, my chance to erase all my past mistakes, to come out on top, to prove to everyone, especially to my brother, that I was more than just a cautionary tale.

The room fell silent as the other players contemplated their next moves. One by one, they folded, until it was only me and one other—a newcomer with a poker face that gave nothing away. The final card was dealt, and I held my breath, ready to claim my victory.

But fate, as I had learned the hard way, is often cruel. In a twist that seemed ripped from a movie script, the newcomer revealed his hand. It was the only one that could beat mine, a statistical improbability, a once-in-a-lifetime counter to my once-in-a-lifetime hand. A royal flush.

“Read ’em and weep, Freckles,” my opponent cackled.

The realization slammed into me like a physical blow. I’d lost.

Lost everything. The room spun, and the sounds around me faded to a dull roar. I couldn’t breathe, couldn't think. The chips, my lifeline, my ticket to paying my way out of debt, were now sliding across the table, away from me.

The weight of what I had done crashed down on me with brutal force. I’d gambled everything on a single hand, and everything was over. Paying off the debts, the promises of turning things around, the fleeting glimpse of a better future—all gone with the turn of a card—my brief taste of success was ash in my mouth. The debts were still there, looming larger than ever, and now, I had nothing left to pay them with. My car, my last asset, was as good as gone, promised to Looper for a fraction of its worth. I’d been so close to clawing my way out and keeping my baby, only to plunge deeper into the abyss.

“I’ll be back,” I said with confidence, but no one met my eyes.

I made my way through the smoky backroom to where Looper stood, overseeing his domain. The noise of the poker game faded behind me as I approached the man who held my fate in his hands. Looper, the enigmatic figure who ran these high-stakes games, was more than just a loan shark; he was a kingpin in this underworld, and he’d called me his friend for the longest time.

“Hey, Looper, buddy,” I started, my voice brimming with the confidence of a man who’d had a win tonight before the losses. “I need more money.”

He glanced up from his notebook, his expression unreadable, then flipped through worn pages with deliberate slowness, stopping at a page with my name etched at the top. His finger traced the figures next to it, a damning ledger of my debt. “You’re in for sixty plus already, Michael,” he said, his voice devoid of emotion, but his eyes were bright with excitement.

I swallowed hard; the euphoria of any win I might have had tonight weighed down by the cold reality of his words. “I know, I know,” I rushed, “but you've seen me out there. I'm on a streak.”

The air in the room grew heavy as Looper’s eyes bored into me, a silent threat lurking in their depths. His calm demeanor belied the danger he represented, a faΓ§ade of civility with his expensive suits and businessman vibes, masking the ruthlessness of a man who ruled whatever shadowy world he had going on here. It used to be I could play out in the open, or lay my bets in full view of anyone, but now… well, this was all I had. Shadows and deals.

“You're skating on thin ice, Michael,” he said, then chuckled at his joke. “See what I did there, Mr. Hockey Hero?”

I stood my ground, trying for confidence, but inside, fear began to spike at what I was doing. Looper’s reputation was well-known; he was not a man to be crossed. His words, though measured, carried an undercurrent of menace.

“Sure, funny. I get it.” I paused. “Twenty K will cover me for now.”

He raised an eyebrow. “I've been patient, but my patience has limits, and I’m cutting you off when I have debts against your name already.”

As if on cue, one of his goons, the one with the accent— Kurgan, I recalled—a mountain of a man with a face like granite, took a deliberate step forward. The message was clear: this wasn’t just a friendly warning. Looper didn’t need to raise his voice or make explicit threats; his power was understood.

A bead of sweat trickled down my back. “I’m riding a wave of wins and I just need a little more time.”

Looper studied me for a moment, his expression unreadable. “Time is luxury, and it’s one you’re running out of. Remember, I have eyes everywhere. I know about your wins, and I know about your losses. You can’t hide from what you owe.”

The reality of my situation was closing in, suffocating. Looper’s presence, Kurgan looming silently behind him, were physical reminders of the threat hanging over my head.

“I’ll get your money, Looper,” I repeated, more to convince myself than him. “Just give me a bit more time. You know I’m good for it.”

“Your worth is measured by your ability to settle your debts,” Looper sneered. “And right now, Michael Zhang, you’re worth nothing.” His gaze was steady, and he closed the notebook with a soft thud, a gesture signaling the end of our conversation. “I run a business, not a charity, and time is something you don't have, Michael.”

His words stung, but I was Michael freaking Zhang, and I was overdue some luck.

Looper tapped his lips. “But, say you throw me a bone on who’s injured, or hey, what about you engineer the Storm losing to Boston next weekend…” Looper began.

“What?”

“A turnover here and there, a loss—that might pay me back some of what you owe?”

Shock nearly cut me off at the legs. “Fuck off. I’m not throwing freaking games.” The thought of doing that, of letting down the team, of…

Would it hurt?

It would be one game.

Fuck. What am I doing? I’m not so desperate that I would do that.

Would I?

“The Storm is a team; it’s not like I can throw a game just by my actions alone. You really think that I, alone, could make sure the Storm loses to a team like Boston?”

“But you’d be willing to throw a game if you could?”

“What? I didn’t say that. No, I wouldn’t help you.”

“Then, that’s your loss, Mr. Zhang.”

I stood there; confident I could fix things. Looper's refusal to extend more credit was just a blip. The world I had been drawn into, this underworld of high stakes and higher risks, might be unforgiving, and didn’t care about my potential, my earnings, or my name, but I was on a roll.

He had to see that.

“Fuck’s sake, Looper⁠—”

Kurgan placed a hand on my chest and the towering giant of a man was between me and my banker. I ducked and hip-checked him, but this wasn’t some D-man I was skating away from, he was musclebound, had a hundred pounds on me, and was immobile.

“Leave,” he grumbled.

I poked the bear, literally, shoving at solid muscle. “You need to fuck off, so I can talk to your boss.”

Kurgan grabbed my hand, twisted it, and shoved me backward until I met the wall. Then, in a flurry of motion, he had me outside the side door, shoving me so hard I stumbled back and hit the scaffolding currently gracing both this building and the restaurant beside it.

I beat on that closed door—felt a bone crack in my hand I smacked it so hard—but I didn’t care, and no one came out to me.

“Fuck you!” I shouted up at the building, a wave of righteous indignation washing over me. I crossed to my Mercedes, which was all flash and style, and about the only thing I still had to my name, even if the repayments were killing me. I kicked the tire. “Fuck you!” I repeated, drawing a few glances from pedestrians heading into the family restaurant.

Their expressions pinched, they had no idea how badly I’d been screwed over, or why I was kicking my car and railing at the world. I confronted them, bristling, waiting for them to say something, alcohol blurring the edge of good decision-making. I climbed into my car, the cool air doing little to dull the alcohol buzz, but knowing I shouldn’t drive. I fumbled for my phone—looking for someone to collect me.

Someone who even cared about me enough to get here.

Not my brother. No, Charles Golden Boy Zhang would judge me, tell me I was messing up, demand I stop. Defiant anger simmered within me. I wasn't going to lie down and accept Looper’s judgment, or my brother’s self-righteous condemnation bordering on pity. People needed to remember my successes on the ice, that I shone bright, and the world freaking owed me.

I would win again, prove them all wrong.

Fuck that noise. Maybe someone on the team. Who? I couldn’t think—my head hurt. Maybe Cam would throw me some cash, or Prez—both of them had contracts bigger than mine, and we were teammates—brothers-in-hockey—so they’d help? A renewed sense of determination flooded me at thinking of a way out. I pushed the button to get my phone working, only it was dead, because of course it was, and I turned on the car, then cursed and fought to get the charging lead working.

Startled, I turned towards a flash to my left. There, not more than a few feet away, was a figure with their phone out, snapping photos through my car window. The sudden intrusion felt like a violation, and my temper spiked. The light was blinding, disorienting, adding to the surreal sense that even my private temper wasn’t safe from prying eyes.

I lowered the window a little. “Hey!” I barked, my voice laced with frustration and a hint of desperation. “Get lost!” But the guy, no more than a kid, undeterred by my outburst, continued to snap away, or was he filming now?

In a haze of frustration and the need for a swift escape, I threw the car into reverse and the engine roared to life. My hand was heavy on the stick, driven by the urgent desire to get away from prying eyes and flashing cameras.

The car lurched backward with more force than I’d intended, and before I could fully grasp what was happening, there was a sickening crash. The rear of my beautiful car collided with the scaffolding. People screamed, there was shouting, but for a moment, time seemed to stand still. The light from the camera was replaced by the flashing on the car’s dashboard, warning signals blaring in the sudden silence following the collision.

I was okay.

I hadn’t hurt myself.

Then, the scaffolding shifted, a cacophony of bending, breaking, and crashing.

And everything went dark.

* * *

I slouchedin the stiff leather chair as, across from me, my lawyer Mr. Jenkins, adjusted his glasses, ready to dive into the grim reality of my situation. Beside me, Charles sat with his hands in his lap, silent, judging, and with a permanent expression of concern more patronizing than comforting.

“This is bullshit,” I snapped because, yes, it was fucking bullshit. “It’s not as if I hurt anyone apart from myself—no people were injured in the filming of me fucking up.” I chuckled to myself, and Charles muttered under his breath. I didn’t catch all the words, but I got the gist of his disapproval.

“Let's be clear about what’s at stake, Michael,” Mr. Jenkins began, his voice stern, yet not devoid of empathy. “Your sentence following the incident with your car is community service. This is non-negotiable.”

“We need to appeal.”

Is it hot in here?

“You did the crime, and we’re not appealing,” Charles snapped.

“Fuck you, Charles.”

“You want to go back out there and appeal against something you know was wrong? How’s that going to work?”

I glanced at Charles, biting back a retort. His presence was a silent reprimand, his involvement in my affairs a reminder of how far I’d fallen. Only by his grace was I even sitting in this office and not being driven to some prison in the ass end of nowhere. He’d paid for the best lawyer; he’d vouched for me; he’d basically thrown himself at the mercy of the media to defend me.

I guess it’d look bad for him if a Zhang brother was behind bars.

That was Charles—always watching out for number one. Asshole.

“And that's not all,” Mr. Jenkins continued, speaking right over my incredulous sigh.

“Of course, it isn’t.” I slumped even further in my seat. Three months, and the fall from grace had been spectacular. I was on long-term injured reserve, but it was only a matter of time before the Storm got rid of me, going the same way as my agent, who’d dropped me like a hot potato.

“Your driver’s license is suspended for a year, but you don’t automatically get that back. You’ll have to go through assessment for sobriety.”

“I’m not a fucking alcoholic; it was one drink!” Or two, or whatever. “I’m a professional athlete. I take care of myself.”

Charles huffed and, I swear, he was one more huff away from me decking him.

“As for your living situation,” Mr. Jenkins ignored my sobriety comment, “your sentence mandates living at the address on court records.”

“My house,” Charles said. He was trying for supportive, but I knew, that under that, he was probably feeling smug and self-righteous. “I’m his brother.”

“I’m in the pool house.” A cramped space, one-bedroom, a kitchen-diner, and shitty WiFi, a far cry from my sprawling house that had long since been sold off to repay the mortgages I’d taken out on it. “Shitty, small, and no AC.”

“It’s a roof over your head, and it’s free,” Charles said cautiously.

“Whatever, Saint Charles.”

Charles gaped at me. “You’re an asshole, Mikey.”

“Fuck you,” I snapped back.

Mr. Jenkins shuffled papers and cleared his throat, probably confused by the fact that fan favorite, captain of the LA Storm, Charles Zhang was an asshole, and I was having to stand up for myself. “With respect to the community engagement, there are limited choices for your placement, which you will begin in ten days. Details will follow shortly, but we do have a place for you.”

“As I said, whatever.”

“Michael, I know this is hard, but it’s an opportunity to reset your life on a better path,” Charles interjected, his voice laced with a sincerity that only fueled my irritation.

I turned away, his words feeling like salt in a wound. His life was perfect—Clare, his loving wife, two beautiful daughters, a successful career playing the game he loved. And here I was, losing everything because no one had ever given me the same chances my brother had enjoyed. I’d always been second best, not quite the player he was, not as old, not first in the line for the good stuff. There again, I was just the adopted kid; he was the one with the parents who’d actually created him.

“As I was saying, the place the team has in mind is a community garden project—a chance to contribute positively, as per your sentence,” Mr. Jenkins said, snapping me back to reality.

I scoffed internally. From promising athlete to gardener—not exactly the life story I had in mind. Still, once I was back, I’d show everyone how much Michael Zhang could win at life, and all I needed was the stake for the game.

“And of course, in September, in addition to the hours agreed for your sentence, you are mandated to spend five hours per week with The Honor Guards, the veterans’ hockey team out in Encino. This was agreed with NHL Player Support as a way to⁠—”

“Yeah, yeah, make it look good for them.”

“That will be good for you too,” Charles commented. “To work with vets and see what a real hero looks like.”

I rounded on my brother, who reared back. “The fuck?”

He held his hands up in mock surrender. “All I meant was, hockey players aren’t heroes; we’re nothing special.”

“Speak for yourself, asshole,” I muttered. And fuck you, big brother. Living on his dime, freaking gardening, then, adding in hockey wannabes, and my punishment was complete.

“And remember, any failure to comply with these conditions will land you back in court,” Mr. Jenkins concluded.

“Yeah, yeah, let’s get this shit done.”



Saturday's Series Spotlight
Harrisburg Raptors
Part 1  /  Part 2  /  Part 3  /  Part 4

Owatonna U
Part 1  /  Part 2

Arizona Raptors
Part 1  /  Part 2

Boston Rebels
Part 1  /  Part 2

Chestorford Coyotes

LA Storm
Part 1  /  Part 2

Railers Legacy
Powder  /  Fly

Hockey Universe
Xmas Edition
Part 1  /  Part 2  /  Family First

Road to the Stanley Cup Edition
Part 1  /  Part 2  /  Part 3

Father's Day Edition

Caregivers Edition
Part 1  /  Part 2

Valentine's Day Edition







RJ Scott
Writing love stories with a happy ever after – cowboys, heroes, family, hockey, single dads, bodyguards

USA Today bestselling author RJ Scott has written over one hundred romance books. Emotional stories of complicated characters, cowboys, single dads, hockey players, millionaires, princes, bodyguards, Navy SEALs, soldiers, doctors, paramedics, firefighters, cops, and the men who get mixed up in their lives, always with a happy ever after.

She lives just outside London and spends every waking minute she isn’t with family either reading or writing. The last time she had a week’s break from writing, she didn’t like it one little bit, and she has yet to meet a box of chocolates she couldn’t defeat.












VL Locey
V.L. Locey loves worn jeans, yoga, belly laughs, walking, reading and writing lusty tales, Greek mythology, the New York Rangers, comic books, and coffee.
(Not necessarily in that order.)

She shares her life with her husband, her daughter, one dog, two cats, a flock of assorted domestic fowl, and two Jersey steers.

When not writing spicy romances, she enjoys spending her day with her menagerie in the rolling hills of Pennsylvania with a cup of fresh java in hand.



RJ Scott
EMAIL: rj@rjscott.co.uk
EMAIL: vicki@vllocey.com



Second #2

Harrisburg Railers Series

Owatonna U Series

Arizona Raptors Series

Boston Rebels Series

Chestorford Coyotes Series

LA Storm Series

Sparkle #1.5(LA Storm)

Railers Legacy Series

Rochester Copperheads Series


Monday, August 17, 2026

🎑Monday's Musical Melody🎑: Leap of Faith by CF White



Summary:

Sometimes all you need is a little push.

Running from his shattered gymnastics career, Charlie Avrill’s one hope for redemption is the strange and colourful world of the circus. His skills should make him a good fit for seasoned performer, Darius Lungo. But Darius won’t compromise his high stakes act for just anyone.

Still mourning the loss of his performance partner who unexpectedly abandoned the show, Darius’s heart can’t take another temporary filler. No matter how perfect Charlie might seem at first glance. But the circus is dying, and Darius owes his bosses a stellar act to sell.

Putting their differences aside to recreate the star attraction, Darius and Charlie grow closer with each rehearsal. But Charlie’s only in the ring for a one-night-only performance and the circus is due at its next stop—off the island and into Europe.

Can Charlie push aside his fears and take the leap of faith to change his entire life? And, if he does, will Darius still be there to catch him?

Leap of Faith is a standalone age-gap, enemies to lovers, mm romance where the twists and turns don’t only happen in the ring.





Chapter One
Dismount
“You need to face up to things. You screwed up.”

Those words burned Charlie like an infection. Even though his ear buds drowned out the external revving from the airplane engine as it prepared for take-off, those taunting words echoed through his mind and suffocated him far more than the packed cabin of Ryanair’s Boeing 737.

Ramping the volume up on his playlist, he settled back and waited for the flight to take him home. Or away. The cabin shook, vibrating Charlie’s seat as the wheels screamed on tarmac. He had no desire to watch the ascension. It’s why he’d opted for the end seat and not the window one that he’d pre-paid for. He’d happily given that up to the toddler who’d bounced down the aisle in excitable delight and had stopped with a pout at his row on realising he didn’t have the best seat in the house. Good luck to the kid. It would only pain Charlie more to have to see Birmingham—more importantly Loughborough—disappear into the distance.

So he focused on the music in his ears as the plane lifted from the ground and tore into clouds. Goodbye England.

“Maybe they’ll forgive you for next time.” Coach Fergal’s voice wouldn’t fade even with the rock music blaring from his playlist, nor the passenger beside him crunching through peanuts and laughing at his tablet screen whilst ignoring his child’s pleas to watch the miniature world below.

“The people are like ants, Daddy!” the child said, shaking his father’s arm. “I want to fly in the clouds forever!”

Charlie squeezed his eyes shut. Poor kid. He didn’t yet know that all dreams came to a crashing end.

Hopefully not his plane with the passengers still on it.

“That’s great, Bobby. Keep watching.” The dad turned up the volume on his tablet and chuckled away to his comedy show on catch-up. Charlie thought the bloke might want to share in his kid’s excitement. But Charlie shouldn’t comment. His father had been as apathetic about his birth and life thereon. And he’d turned out okay.

On second thoughts, this journey home proved he hadn’t.

An hour later, the plane bumped down at Jersey airport. The child in the window seat was as excited about that as he had been for take-off. The father still as indifferent. Charlie kept his buds in as the plane parked up and he was the first out of his seat to drag his sports bag from the hold above.

He caught the little kid’s eye. “Good spot?”

“It was sick! Thank you!”

Charlie smiled, and gave him a wink. The kid’s gaze trailed to the chest stitching on his tracksuit jacket. Jaw dropping, he thumped his dad beside him but Charlie was long gone before the man could peer up from his screen.

The last thing he needed was that conversation.

He waited, impatiently, behind the queue of tourists lining up to vacate the cabin and start their holiday. There were a few Channel Island commuters decked out in suits on their way home from their offices—an hour flight from Jersey to England was worth the best of both worlds for some. Charlie couldn’t understand that life. How did they ever know if they were coming or going?

The doors opened, and Charlie strode out onto the metal steps, squinting up at the blaring sun that should have been dipping down into the horizon rather than beaming on him like an interrogation spotlight. It was as though it was homing in on him with a sly tut and the words of, well, well, well, look what Ryanair dragged home.

“Fuck off,” Charlie muttered under his breath.

“Excuse moi?” The elegantly thin woman in front twisted to face him, a scowl crossing her thin lips and her to-die-for cheekbones sharpening.

Realising he hadn’t cursed as under his breath as he’d thought, Charlie fiddled with his phone to switch off his music.

“Pardon.” He’d replied in French as it was clear this madame was from that side of the island. Or visiting that side. “Je ne vous parlais pas,” he said. Because it was true. He hadn’t been talking to her. He’d been talking to the sun that hadn’t burned his face as much as his faux pas had.

The woman flicked her dark plaited hair over her shoulder, then twisted back to help her toddler down the steps of the aircraft, marching court-shoe heels across tarmac. Charlie sighed. The sun tutted and offered him a welcome home in the form of sweat patches forming under his armpits on the base layer he wore beneath his team tracksuit. He’d forgotten how warm Jersey was in the height of summer. Even at nine p.m.

Without any baggage apart from his sports holdall, Charlie was able to speed through arrivals and passport control, finding himself exiting the terminal and in the taxi queue faster than any other passenger. He should have jumped on the bus and saved the limited cash he had left from his student loan, as it would have to last a while, but the thought of clambering on that shuttle, packed in with the tourists, wasn’t so appealing anymore. He’d have to keep the titbits of local islander info to himself this time.

I’m more a visitor myself these days. 

The taxi cruised to the front and the driver nodded for him to get in. As Charlie went to open the back door, his fingers shook, pain searing through to his wrist and he sucked in a breath through gritted teeth. He almost kicked the alloy wheels in frustration, but the driver’s narrowed eyes prevented him from having to use even more of his loaned cash for damages. So he used his left hand instead, and shouldered the passenger door open. The driver watched him through the rear-view mirror. Seasoned cabbie. He could tell the locals from those who’d need his welcoming chauffeur service in order to secure a larger tip.

“Where to?” the cabbie asked, flicking on the air conditioning. The sudden blast of cool breeze ruffled the tufts of spiralling curls that Charlie had meant to get cut into a short back and sides ready for—

“St Helier,” he replied to cut his thoughts off instead. He no longer had to worry about hair in his eyes. He had to worry about what waited for him at the end of this journey. “Drop me at the Pomme d’Or.” Maybe he could catch up with Josh before having to face the wrath that was his mother? As much as his mum gave great hugs, she would also be exceptionally disappointed in him. And want to know his plans.

So would I.

He’d better come up with something before he dumped all his problems on his mum who already had a ton of her own. Josh might be able to help with that. If he wasn’t still chasing skirt in the form of the visiting French girls.

Slumping his chin into his hand, he watched his homeland out of the back-passenger window during the drive down Beaumont, to the seafront where the sun dipped and melted into the sea. He’d missed the sea. And the beach. It had been his place to escape to when things had got too much. But coming home was hard. And it tightened his chest ever more when the sixteenth-century fortress of Elizabeth Castle came into view, the tide high and waves sloshing around that focal point both waving and dragging him closer. A few hours ago, he couldn’t think of anywhere other than home to go to, but now he was here, the anxiety weighed heavy in his gut at having to admit to the whole waiting island as to what had caused this tail-between-the-legs moment.

His fingers cramped and he winced. At least the shaking has stopped. Ignoring the fleeting concern from the driver through the rear-view mirror, he pulled out the roll of fabric tape from his bag and strapped his fingers together. He should have seen the doc about them. Except, he no longer had access to those perks. He had to treat his own injuries how he saw fit. And it wasn’t as though he hadn’t had the shaking before. He was on his own now. He could make his own bad decisions. No university behind him. No trained professionals. No team. There was just him.

Alone.

On a different path.

One he had no idea where it led. 

The cab pulled up to the layby at the front of the hotel and Charlie handed over his English cash to the driver. The man returned a few Jersey notes, which made Charlie breathe out a melancholic sigh. He pocketed the money, grabbed his bag and bundled out of the taxi. Glancing up at the Pomme D’Or and its iconic grey-stone entrance, his eyes stung. But he couldn’t blame that on the sun as it had now vanished to make way for dusk and the only lights blinking were from the Yacht marina opposite. The car drove off, making way for the sounds of home to grip him harder—the trickling water from the fountain monument, the low drones of chatter and the clinking of glasses from the packed out al-fresco diners surrounding Liberation Square. Along with that unrelenting flick and whoosh of a revolving door.

Gripping his bag handles, Charlie jogged up the front steps and into the hotel’s foyer. It was relatively quiet for a summer’s evening. The bar only had a handful of customers inside and the lone receptionist was busy tapping on a tablet screen. Not exactly the grand welcome home that he’d expected when he should have been returning in three months’ time.

Won’t ever happen now.

“Hey.” He slipped his elbow on the reception counter, leaning toward the red-haired girl he didn’t recognise and attempted an authentic smile he didn’t feel. “Is Josh working tonight?”

Brown eyes regarded him, and a petulant curl of lips followed as the girl returned to acknowledge her computer screen instead. “Joshua?” she questioned in that voice that said she knew exactly who Charlie had been referring to. “Gallichan?”

“That’s right.” Charlie slid away from the desk. “Works here. Concierge?”

She glanced up, her red hair not the only fiery thing about her. “I know who he is.”

Right. She clearly did know Josh. Like all the visiting tourist girls did. Typical.

“He’s working the bar.” She raised her chin in indication of the bar opposite, gaze not leaving her screen.

“Thank you.”

She didn’t reply, so Charlie sauntered off and nipped farther into the hotel. It had been a while, but some things never changed. And the mostly glass fronted bar with black tables and stools, with the deep brown distressed leather sofas adding to the ambiance of a small but cosy hotel cocktail bar, was one of them. Especially when Charlie set eyes on the man serving the drinks.

Josh leaned forward on his elbows, laughing with a couple of customers at the end of the curved counter. Charlie gave him a moment. He was working the charm. And the American couple were transfixed on whatever tale Joshua would be regaling them with this time. So Charlie dumped his bag beside a stool, sat and listened.

“Be with you in one second, sir…” Josh threw over to him, then returned his attention back to the couple. “As I was saying, this hotel was the base for the Germans during the occupation…” His smooth, amiable voice pervaded over the counter and he glanced back to Charlie as if checking his eyes hadn’t deceived him. He then stopped, mid-sentence. Stood straighter. And did a double take.

Charlie tilted his neck and gave a wry smile that might as well have been a, ta da!

Josh’s smile lit up his boyish features. Slamming his hands on his hips, he shook his head as if in disbelief. He looked good in that uniform. Not that Charlie would ever admit that to his very heterosexual best friend. It might ruin their twenty years thick-as-thieves friendship. But those figure-hugging black trousers, translucent-thin white shirt and silken black waistcoat clung to Josh’s slender frame like a second skin. The whole ensemble made him appear more sophisticated than his bellboy outfit had. More mature. Charlie had a thing for men in uniform. Mature men in uniform. Costumes too. Because some costumes were uniform.

Sore subject.

“Charlie Avrill,” Josh breathed out, his cheeks indenting dimples from his widening grin. “I was just telling this couple about you.” He indicated to the man and woman now studying him with anticipation and stirring straws in the cocktails that Josh had no doubt mixed to perfection. “Darlene, Cody.” Josh gestured toward Charlie. “Meet the island’s star athlete. He’ll be bringing home the gold on the horizontal bar, the rings and whatever else there is in the Olympic category of gymnastics.”

Josh’s announcement oozed a pride that Charlie couldn’t bear. Nor did he want to see the impressed gawps from the American couple. So he hung his head and stared forlornly at the gleaming wooden bar surface.

“Shouldn’t you be on your way to Rio right now?” Josh asked.

Charlie couldn’t put it off any longer and he swallowed his pride when he said, “Not this year, my friend. Not this year.” He gave a sad smile to the couple, then settled his gaze on his old friend.

Josh’s smile faded. Gone was the pride, the steadfast devotion and seeping to the surface was the rotten disappointment. He obviously didn’t know whether he should jump at Charlie and demand an explanation or to continue charming the pants off the tourists in the hope of the extra tip he’d just lost. Strangely, or perhaps not so strangely, he chose the former and, chucking the bar towel over his shoulder, he slipped closer to Charlie.

“What happened?” Josh asked, letting the Americans continue their vacation alone.

“I don’t really want to talk about it.”

“Is this a joke?”

Charlie laughed, albeit strangled. “Sadly not.”

Josh’s shoulders deflated and he tilted his neck. “Mate, I’m so sorry.”

“Not as much as I am.”

“Does your mum know?”

“Not yet. I needed to work my way up to that.” Charlie angled his head to the Americans. “Guess I can’t be your claim to fame and the island’s notable figure anymore.”

Catching Charlie completely unawares, and in stark contrast to his previous sympathy, Josh punched Charlie on the shoulder. He toppled back on the stool, grabbing the gleaming gold bar that ran the length of the surface to prevent his tumble to the floor.

“Don’t be daft, mate,” Josh said. “I have a ton more claims to fame to use. So, you’re back? For good?”

“Summer break. After that? Don’t know. I’m not even sure Loughborough will take me back.”

“Charlie…” Josh clucked his tongue. “What did you do?”

“Something I shouldn’t. Let’s leave that there.”

Josh heaved in a vexed breath, then seemed to shake free the disappointment and merged into the Josh Charlie had come to seek out when he said, “So I got you for the summer vacay?” He slapped the bar counter. “Could use a wingman for the darlings heading this way.”

Charlie peered out to the foyer. “I see you’re doing fine without me.” He tried to get the jealousy out of his voice. He’d long abandoned the idea that Josh might swing his way eventually.

Josh followed his line of sight. “Ah. Ivy.” He winced. “I didn’t call her after…well, y’know. Apparently, there’s a cut off. Did you know that? You’ve got, like, three days to return a text before you’re toast.”

“Three days, huh?”

Josh shrugged. “Work like that for your lot?”

By ‘your lot’, Josh had meant gay. It was his way of separating the them and us. The Charlie from Josh.

“Not really.” Charlie shrugged. “Not that I’d know.”

“Ha. I’ll bet you get enough attention with that arse.”

Charlie narrowed his eyes. “Get me a beer.”

“Aren’t you gonna check in with your mum first?”

Charlie hoped his glare was enough to tell Josh what he could do with that statement. Stick it up his not-so-pert-through-years-of-strength-and-muscle-training-arse.

“All right.” Josh pulled a glass from the rack and poured a pint of Amstel from the taps. “So what’s the plan?” he said after dumping the cool, crisp pint in front of Charlie.

Charlie licked his lips. He hadn’t had a drink in months. Wrapping his uninjured fingers around the glass, he knew right then what his immediate plan was. So he answered Josh with all heartfelt conviction when he said,

“I’m going to drink this. Then another one. Then I might move onto something stronger.”

“And after that?”

Charlie heaved in a deep breath. “Not a fucking clue.”



CF White
Brought up in a relatively small town in Hertfordshire, C F White managed to do what most other residents try to do and fail—leave.

She eventually settled for pie and mash, cockles and winkles and a bit of Knees Up Mother Brown to live in the East End of London; securing a job and creating a life, a home and a family.

She writes gritty British based stories about imperfect men falling in love against the odds and has been accused of sprinkling a little humour into them too.


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