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Monday, November 6, 2017

Monday Morning's Menu: Whiskey Business by Avon Gale


Summary:
Ryder Waites will do anything to keep the tiny town of Gallows Grove, Kentucky, from vanishing off the map—even sell his family’s whiskey recipe to Bluegrass Bourbon in Lexington. Hopeful that the larger company can provide necessary improvements to the distillery, Ryder’s ultimate goal is to get Gallows Grove on the Bourbon Trail… and bring in much-needed tourism revenue. But to keep producing Hanged Man Bourbon in Gallows Grove, he’ll have to convince company liaison, unbearably stuffy and seriously hot Adam Keller, that he's worth the investment.

Adam comes from an old-money family, but he’s determined to make his own way in the world. When he’s sent to Gallows Grove, he questions the life choices that led him to a rented room in a funeral home, in a town full of macabre-themed businesses. And he doesn’t know what to make of Ryder, the descendant of bootleggers who’s on a mission to save his strange town from extinction. When Adam and Ryder put aside their initial mistrust, the results are as smooth as good whiskey. But after Adam’s assignment ends, he’ll have to decide if small-town life and a future with Ryder is to his tastes.

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Chapter One
IF ASKED, Ryder Waites would say the reason he decided to sell his family’s recipe to Bluegrass Bourbon in Lexington was because no one tried to speak to him in Good Ol’ Boy.

Ryder was from Gallows Grove, Kentucky, and every single person he met with knew it. Ryder would sit down with Mr. So-and-So or Ms. This-and-That. They’d open their mouths and Ryder would hear the worst approximation of a Kentucky drawl ever.

They should be ashamed of themselves. Some of them—many of them—were also from Kentucky, and if they thought Ryder was stupid enough to believe that accent was real, then there was no way he was selling them anything. He’d find some other way to keep the family business afloat. Trying to “relate” to him by sounding like a stereotype? Insulting.

Bluegrass Bourbon was Ryder’s last chance, and his hopes weren’t very high when he went to Lexington to meet with Garrett Wood. But Wood’s Kentucky accent was subtle, an inflection on the Os that made him sound like he was from Northern Kentucky, closer to Cincinnati. The way he said “Please?” instead of “Excuse me” told Ryder he was right. People heard Kentucky and thought bourbon and horse racing, but Garrett Wood’s Kentucky was more Cincinnati-style Chili and sausage-mush Goetta.

Wood also didn’t suggest changing the name. Gallows Grove had been making Hanged Man Bourbon for so long, Ryder couldn’t imagine calling it anything else. Ryder was also angling to get Gallows Grove as a stop on the Bourbon Trail, because that would bring much-needed revenue in tourist dollars to the tiny town. Gallows Grove was a blip on the map between Lexington and Pikeville, Kentucky, with fewer than five hundred residents. Ryder refused to give up the recipe and have it distilled anywhere but his hometown, and that was a sticking point for the other companies he met with. Wood couldn’t promise the stop on the Trail without some buy-in from investors, but that was the first step toward achieving his goal and getting the distillery some essential improvements.

But Wood seemed amenable to Ryder’s plans, and there was only one small requirement that Ryder didn’t like. Wood insisted on sending a guy down to “gather some initial data,” and while that set off some warning bells in Ryder’s head, he couldn’t see a reason why he should refuse. That Adam Keller guy would show up, write up some reports, and be out of Ryder’s hair. Wood and his company would see that the bourbon was a valuable addition to their line, and investors would clamor to provide the necessary monetary means to put Gallows Grove on the Trail. Ryder’s town wouldn’t fade into memory, leaving him standing alone in front of the Last Meal Diner with a bottle of Hanged Man Bourbon, possibly haunted by generations of his infuriated ancestors.


ADAM KELLER showed up the following Tuesday, a week after Ryder returned home from signing over the recipe to Bluegrass. Ryder triumphantly reported back to the townsfolk that he’d arranged to get improvements on the distillery, which would hopefully lead to a spot on the Bourbon Trail. The town responded by badgering him about where the hell they were supposed to put a parking lot and bemoaning the influx of crime the tourists were sure to bring. But they grudgingly admitted he’d done a good job.

Ryder expected nothing less. He knew every man, woman, and child in Gallows Grove by name and had lived there his whole life. And he knew exactly how suspicious they were too. It went along with the whole “descendants of bootleggers” thing. He made sure they knew that Wood was sending a company man, reminded the town that they needed to make a good impression when the guy got there, and sincerely hoped that was the end of his entrepreneurial career. He’d manage the distillery like he’d been doing since he graduated nearby Elliott County High School, cut himself a paycheck, and bask in the knowledge that he’d saved his small town from extinction—even if they bitched about a parking lot.

Of course it wasn’t that easy.

“Ryder.” Heather Combs, the office manager at the distillery, came barreling into the office breathlessly on Tuesday morning. “The Lexington boy’s here. And he’s cute.” She gave him an encouraging smile. “Maybe he’s gay too and you two’ll hit it off. We’ll have us a gay weddin’ in our new parking lot. Show that Kim Davis we’re not all awful people.”

Gallows Grove defied every single stereotype people had about small towns in Kentucky. Ryder was gay. He had never shown any interest in the local girls, and everyone had known it since he was about thirteen years old. Most people just reacted to the news with a shrug and “Well, his ma was a witch. What did you expect?”

Ryder’s mother was a witch in the sense that she didn’t go to church and liked to talk to her plants. But she also read tarot cards—which is where Ryder got his name, after the Rider-Waite deck—and made a mean hot toddy, so apparently, that was enough to count. But she died from breast cancer when Ryder was fifteen, leaving him the distillery and a good-luck charm she buried beneath the floorboards. Her memory was like a photograph faded with age, but the thought of her still made him smile. She would have loved being part of the Bourbon Trail, and he just knew she would have set up a table with a colorful patterned silk throw to read the cards for visitors.

“Who said he was cute?” Ryder asked Heather suspiciously.

“It was Sadie,” Heather said, referring to her niece. “And Sadie reads People, you know. She’s up on her cute boys and whatnot.”

Ryder did know, because they had stacks of People, going back to 2001, piled up in the office. Come to think of it, maybe they should have cleaned before that Adam guy showed up.

“Anyway, Sadie says he went to Willy’s office.” Heather was in her midforties, and always, without fail, wore some kind of University of Kentucky paraphernalia on her person. That day it was a pair of earrings, sparkly little blue things with the distinctive UK logo. She started working at the distillery after she graduated high school too, and was some kind of cousin twice removed to Ryder. He figured he was related to probably everyone there in some way, which was another reason it was impossible to find someone to date.

“Willy’s office?” Willy McCrae was the town businessman, serving as a loan officer, notary public, and tax accountant. He’d been the mayor once or twice too. “I wonder why he went there?”

“Probably looking for a place to stay, wouldn’t you guess? Willy can help him out, since he’s got that Realtor license,” Heather continued thoughtfully as she perched on the desk. She was short—about five foot two—and still favored the sort of hairstyle that called for an obscene amount of hairspray. “About the only place I could think of is the Mancys’ place, and that’s… well, nobody wants to rent a room in the funeral home.”

Ryder shrugged. “Figured he’d just come in a few times a month from Lexington.” The alarm bells he didn’t want to listen to when he was negotiating the sale of the bourbon recipe started playing merrily in the background. It never occurred to him that anyone would actually want to stay in Gallows Grove. It hadn’t occurred to anyone else either, because the closest hotel was the Little Sandy Lodge, and that was still a bit of a drive. Ryder lived in a half-renovated apartment on top of the Trapdoor, the town bar, located in the small downtown area. There were a few more apartments on the list to “renovate” if more businesses opened up in the empty buildings, but none of them were anywhere close to habitable. Even if they were, Ryder didn’t want the Lexington man to be his neighbor. He wanted the Lexington man to stay in Lexington.

Before Ryder could process what to do about Mr. Lexington, his uncle Zeno, the bourbon master, strolled in. He was a strange man—even by Gallows Grove standards, even by Waites standards. He had the coal-black hair common to most Waites, and like Ryder, he had two different colored eyes—one blue, one green. In fact he and Ryder looked so much alike, Zeno was often mistaken for Ryder’s father. But Ryder’s mom, Maisie, was Zeno’s sister, and since Ryder’s dad split before he was born, he was the only real male authority figure in Ryder’s entire life.

Zeno lived with a woman named Eden Jones. They’d never bothered to get married, because they couldn’t agree where to go on a honeymoon. They couldn’t agree on baby names either, so they never had kids. When he wasn’t fussing over bourbon, Zeno liked to repair antique clocks. There was a constant ticking sound in their house that made Ryder want to jump out of a window every time he went over there.

“Hey, Uncle Z.” Ryder gave his uncle a fond smile.

Zeno’s strange eyes settled on Ryder. “I hear that Lexington boy is here.”

“He’s cute,” Heather piped up. “Sadie says so.” She coughed and gave Ryder a pointed look.

Ryder let that go. “How’s Aunt Eden?”

Marriage, or a lack thereof, didn’t make Zeno’s sweet-tempered partner any less Ryder’s aunt. Well, she was sweet tempered until a Kentucky basketball game came on, that was. Then she turned into a raving lunatic, like most everyone in the town. Like most everyone in Kentucky. When UK had lost to Wisconsin on the tail end of a perfect season in the NCAA tournament in 2015, the town had declared a day of mourning and Ryder gave everyone free whiskey. Ditto when UK’s hated rivals, the Duke Blue Devils, won the championship. Which none of them watched, because—well, because it was Duke.

Being invested in sports teams meant a lot of drinking away your sorrows.

“She’s fine. Says to call her if you want that old chair of ours for your apartment, but you probably don’t. Cat’s been sitting on it for years.” His uncle crossed his arms over his chest and looked at Ryder. “What are you gonna do about that Lexington boy? Told you it was a bad idea to let them send someone.”

Ryder resisted the urge to roll his eyes. How exactly would he have stopped that? It wasn’t like he could have said no. “It’ll be fine, Uncle Z. Just trust me. I did pretty good so far, didn’t I?”

“Thank goodness Maisie put that charm under the floorboards,” Zeno said dourly. “I got some barrels to check. You keep this kid out of my way, Ryder.”

Since the whole point of “this kid” being in town was to check things out, that seemed next to impossible. Ryder just sighed, ran a hand through his messy black hair, and said, “I’ll do my best, Uncle Z.” Time to go find Mr. Lexington.

Author Bio:
Avon Gale was once the mayor on Foursquare of Jazzercise and Lollicup, which should tell you all you need to know about her as a person. She likes road trips, rock concerts, drinking Kentucky bourbon and yelling at hockey. She’s a displaced southerner living in a liberal midwestern college town, and when she’s not writing you can find her at the salon, making her clients look and feel fabulous. She never gets tired of people and their stories -- either real or the ones she makes up in her head.


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Monday, December 19, 2016

Monday's Montage Mantlepiece: All in Fear


Summary:
Horror wears many faces, and its masks can be tantalizing. Some of the top names in queer fiction come together to spin their own versions of horror. Worlds rife with dark beauty and mystery, the familiar becoming terrible, creatures ethereal and alluring—and all bearing the gleam of love. Does hope lie along these grim passages or only doom? It will become clear. All in time—and all in fear.

Stories Included:
Company by Roan Parrish 
Nick Levy’s family is falling apart and he has no friends, but at least he can escape into the world of his favorite comic book series, The Face of the Vampire. Naturally, when the vampire in question shows up one day, Nick is enthralled. After all, what could be better than his own personal fantasy made real? Except that Nick isn’t exactly sure whether Michel is real or not. And when the arrival of a new boy in school promises romance, Nick sees a side of Michel he never could have imagined. This Michel is cruel, jealous...and he’ll do anything to keep Nick for himself.

Love Me True by Kris Ripper 
Palmer's life is as good as it gets. Well, okay, so he hates his mind-numbing office job. But he's found a hot, smart, incredibly kinky guy. The sex is explosive. The power play is off the hook. And if he gets his way, Jon will soon be his husband.

When Palmer asks, Jon says yes. For the first time ever, Palmer thinks things might be really good. Sure, bad things happen in the world—to other people. But this is all he needs: Jon at the end of the day, in their bed, arms around him.

How could he have possibly been so stupid?

The Price of Meat by KJ Charles 
Johanna Oakley will do anything to save her beloved Arabella from the cruelty of Mr Fogg’s madhouse—but ‘anything’ turns out to be more than she bargained for when she finds herself working for a man suspected of worse than murder. As Johanna is plunged from the horror of Sawney Reynard’s barber shop into the foul, lawless labyrinth at the heart of London, can she or anyone get out alive?

His Mouth Will Taste of Chernobyl by Steve Berman
Joining Zeta Psi isn’t Steve’s dream, it’s his dad’s. Nevertheless his dad’s gift of the mysterious Bailey flask gets Steve an in to the frat house, and maybe his best shot at being accepted on campus. But the flask’s silver sheen may only be lighting his way into the darkness at the heart of the frat—and the darkness he’s learning is within himself. Steve wants to choose who he is, but choices are dropping like flies as he learns the true mystery of the Bailey flask. How does he give back a gift that’s also a curse?

Legion: A Love Story by Avon Gale 
STAFF SERGEANT JASON ESSEX, YOU HAVE RECEIVED THE FOLLOWING ORDERS FROM THE UNITED STATES MARINE CORPS:

REPORT TO: CAIN INSTITUTE [ADDRESS REDACTED]

ACTIVE DUTY COMMITMENT: GUARD AN ENTITY CURRENTLY HELD IN AN ENCLOSURE AT THE CAIN INSTITUTE. RECORD DAILY MEASUREMENTS. KEEP ANY AND ALL PERSONS FROM ENTERING OR LEAVING THE FACILITY. ENSURE THE ENTITY REMAINS COMPLETELY INCARCERATED. OBSERVE THE ENTITY WITHOUT ENGAGING.

ADDITIONAL INSTRUCTIONS: THIS ASSIGNMENT WILL BE CARRIED OUT IN FULL ISOLATION. PLEASE BE ADVISED.

Beauties by J.A. Rock
When Dr. Lester Usole attends an event at AI developer Carnificiality, he’s introduced to Beauties: artificial beings designed to provide tailored sexual experiences for their human owners. Lester isn’t interested in sex—but he is fascinated by Ira, a Beauty too violent to be sold.

Lester convinces Carnificiality to give Ira to him.

Author Bios:
Steve Berman (Editor)
Some tidbits about me...

I turned down a scholarship to Miskatonic University because I heard of the high rate of incidents against the student population.

I briefly worked for Omni Consumer Products in their Marketing Department. Great benefits, nice cafeteria, sadly too prone to executive whim.

Last year I stayed at the noted Mauna Pele resort in Hawaii. The accommodations were impressive but my traveling companion disappeared soon after wanting to attend a pig roast.

I've slept with one minor porn star and with a guy who later became one.

And I happen to have written some fanfic that inspired the memorable holodeck scene in Star Trek: Hidden Frontiers episode "Vigil".

K.J. Charles
I'm a writer of romance, mostly m/m, often historical or fantasy or both. My books include The Magpie Lord and Think of England.

I'm also a freelance editor, and I blog about writing and editing at kjcharleswriter.com.

I live in London, UK, with two kids, a tolerant husband and an even more tolerant cat.

Avon Gale
Avon Gale was once the mayor on Foursquare of Jazzercise and Lollicup, which should tell you all you need to know about her as a person. She likes road trips, rock concerts, drinking Kentucky bourbon and yelling at hockey. She’s a displaced southerner living in a liberal midwestern college town, and when she’s not writing you can find her at the salon, making her clients look and feel fabulous. She never gets tired of people and their stories -- either real or the ones she makes up in her head.

Roan Parrish
ROAN PARRISH is currently wandering between Philadelphia and New Orleans. When not writing, she can usually be found cutting her friends’ hair, meandering through whatever city she’s in while listening to torch songs and melodic death metal, or cooking overly elaborate meals. She loves bonfires, winter beaches, minor chord harmonies, and self-tattooing. One time she may or may not have baked a six-layer chocolate cake and then thrown it out the window in a fit of pique.

Kris Ripper
Kris Ripper lives in the great state of California and hails from the San Francisco Bay Area. Kris shares a converted garage with a toddler, can do two pull-ups in a row, and can write backwards. (No, really.) Kris is genderqueer and prefers the z-based pronouns, because they're freaking sweet. Ze has been writing fiction since ze learned how to write and boring zir stuffed animals with stories long before that.

JA Rock
J.A. Rock is the author of queer romance and suspense novels, including BY HIS RULES, TAKE THE LONG WAY HOME, and, with Lisa Henry, THE GOOD BOY and WHEN ALL THE WORLD SLEEPS. She holds an MFA in creative writing from the University of Alabama and a BA in theater from Case Western Reserve University. J.A. also writes queer fiction and essays under the name Jill Smith. Raised in Ohio and West Virginia, she now lives in Chicago with her dog, Professor Anne Studebaker.


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Sunday, November 8, 2015

Sunday's Safe Word Shelf: Let the Wrong Light In by Avon Gale


Summary:
Avery Hextall, a junior architect at a prestigious firm, is thrilled when his design is chosen for a new performing-arts center—even if it means working closely with his insufferably uptight project manager, Malin Lacroix. When a chance encounter in the boss’s office proves that Lacroix is anything but cold, Avery is determined to learn more about the real man beneath the aloof veneer.

Despite their growing attraction and their increasingly kinky encounters, the enigmatic Malin remains as emotionally distant as ever. Worse, Avery’s friends are convinced Malin thinks of Avery as a dirty secret and nothing more—a secret that might destroy both of their careers.

But the real secret is a single moment in time that haunts Malin and keeps him from committing to the life he wants with Avery. In order to move on, Avery must help Malin come to terms with the tragedy in his past before they can work on building a future together.



Chapter One
THE UMPTEENTH proposal that ends up back on his desk, complete with a tersely written note that basically says no chance in hell, is the proverbial sustainable-living and eco-friendly straw that breaks Avery Hextall’s back.

He’s been at Ratcliff and Roberts architectural firm for two years, patiently working his way up the ranks to junior associate. When he found himself with an ergonomically designed desk and his very own voice mail, he thought his first project couldn’t be far behind. Unfortunately he was saddled with a project manager who put the “cad” in AutoCAD and took a vicious glee in rejecting every single design Avery put in front of him.

He has no idea what he’s done to piss off Malin Lacroix, but whatever it is, he’s apparently a lot better at doing that than he is at designing buildings. Fuck. Think of all the student loan debt he could have saved himself if he’d only known that ahead of time.

His latest design, though—he was really proud of it, and he was sure it would at least make it past Project Manager Prissypants’ desk. He’d spent three weeks of his life on it, living on coffee spiked with two of those five-hour energy supplement things and eating nothing but Frosted Flakes. He was pretty sure he was designing the goddamn thing in his sleep—if he’d actually slept. He still wasn’t sure about that.

What he was sure about was that he’d pored over blueprints of every building he ever loved and every graduate-school design he ever did. Hell, he even looked at the shit he drew in his fifth-grade art class and asked his mom if his Lego creations struck her as particularly innovative and sustainable. She told him very calmly to get some sleep and then hung up. Avery took that as a no.

When it was finished, he sent the whole thing to his friend from graduate school, Blake Everett, himself an architect at an award-winning firm in Seattle. Then he paced around his living room, smoking cigarettes some chick left at his apartment a month or two before, and waited for Everett to respond.

Everett’s e-mail came a few hours later—fuck you, you brilliant goddamn bastard—and Avery gave a fist bump to his cat—or pillow. Whatever. He was really tired. And then he promptly went to sleep despite it being two in the afternoon on a Saturday. He spent the next day feverishly preparing the design for submission and drank two beers. He hit send on the e-mail to Lacroix when it was uploaded, watched some girl-on-girl porn on the Spice Channel, and then fell asleep on his couch.

He strolled into work on Monday morning convinced he’d finally done it, that he would finally see an Avery Hextall design on something other than a computer screen. He was high as a fucking kite for the next two weeks, right up until two minutes before, when he got back from lunch.

There it is, his proposal, sitting in the exact center of his desk with Lacroix’s crisp handwriting inked in red across the top page. Lacroix uses red ink because he’s some kind of sadistic bastard. Or maybe he has a recurrent high school calculus-teacher fantasy. Whichever. Avery knows what it means before he even reads it, and it feels like a thundercloud has just unleashed a storm on his kite and tangled the damn thing up in a tree.

Or something like that. Fuck it. He’s too angry for appropriate metaphors.

He is pissed. And he’s going to get some goddamn answers. Namely what the hell Lacroix’s note—too complicated given the parameters—means. Fuck. Avery designs commercial-use buildings, not Playmobil toy sets. Lacroix is going to have to explain himself, because this is personal—just like the fourth Jaws movie—only this makes even less sense.


THE PROBLEM with barging into Lacroix’s office, Avery quickly discovers, is the reality is far more anticlimactic than he imagined. It starts out promisingly enough. He storms in without knocking, and that’s pretty great. Then he yells for five minutes and even pounds his fist on Lacroix’s desk for added dramatic effect.

Lacroix just looks at him. “Is there a problem, Mr. Hextall?”

Avery gives his desk a cursory glance, looking for the red pen. Fuck that red pen, man. And fuck Lacroix. Fuck him and his classy suits, his icy eyes, his hands that look more like a violinist’s than a project manager’s. They’re nice hands, actually… and wait, what is he doing? He’s here to yell at Lacroix, not think about his hands.

“Yeah, there’s a problem,” Avery huffs, ready to shout so loud that the glass panes in the window behind Lacroix will shatter into pieces. Maybe the son of a bitch will get sucked outside—Γ  la every action movie Avery’s ever seen. “The problem is you’re a prick with no soul.”

“Please have a seat.” Lacroix waves at the chair in front of his desk, the chair Avery is holding on to with both hands. He’s thinking about swinging it at Lacroix’s head.

Avery yanks the chair out and sits down, realizes he’s just obeyed Lacroix, and then stands up again. “No.”

Lacroix shrugs, in that effortless, annoying way of his that’s number sixty-five on Avery’s “Reasons I Irrationally Hate Malin Lacroix” list. He has another list of rational reasons. Avery is a believer in the power of lists.

“Suit yourself,” Lacroix says, watching him with those pale eyes of his. “I assume you are here because I rejected your proposal?”

There’s the slightest hint of amusement in Lacroix’s voice. At least, Avery thinks he hears it. Or maybe he just wants an excuse to pick up the dumb glass paperweight on Lacroix’s desk and hurl it at something, which is exactly the next step of his spur-of-the-moment plan.

The glass is cold in his fingers—smooth—and the architect in him appreciates the form of it, even as the rest of him wants to smash it into Lacroix’s face. “Yes. Do you know how hard I worked on that?”

Lacroix has his fingers around Avery’s wrist. They’re warm, surprisingly strong, and his grasp is starting to hurt.

“Hextall.” Lacroix’s voice is just as firm as his grip, and there’s something in his tone that takes Avery’s breath away completely. “Put that down, and then sit. I’m not going to tell you again.”

Lacroix says that like Avery is his dog—or a junior associate, same thing. And it should be infuriating. It is, but that’s exactly what Avery does. He flexes his hand with a petulant mutter and then collapses in the seat with as much grace as a fallen angel sauntering into a whorehouse.

“There.” Lacroix sounds pleased, but Avery can’t tell for sure because he refuses to look at the motherfucker. “Now I know you’re upset that I did not select your design, and I am perfectly willing to give you feedback. Provided you stop sulking.”

“I know why you did it.” Avery’s starting to feel kind of… maybe not embarrassed. He’s still really pissed, but he’s sort of wishing he thought this through. As usual that doesn’t make him stop talking. “You want to crush my hopes and dreams. That’s why.”

“I’m sure you are aware that I reject most of the junior designers’ submissions—all of them, not just yours. But I assure you it’s for the benefit of this firm, not personal enjoyment.” Lacroix pauses. “Well, maybe I find it a little enjoyable in your case.” Now he’s definitely amused. Avery doesn’t need to look up from his intense concentration on the threads of his dress pants to see that.

“And all of you think the same thing—that I am failing to appreciate your genius, that I’m too rigid and don’t understand how brilliant you are. Or if I only knew how you stayed up for days on end, living on coffee and cigarettes, running purely on fumes from the fires of creation—then I would understand that this is more to you than just a building. Does that sound familiar?”

It does. And it also sounds like his life resembles one of the songs from Rent. He finally looks up, wary, and meets Lacroix’s gaze. Probably responding with jazz hands and La Vie Boheme isn’t the best thing to do, even if it would be fucking funny as hell. So he doesn’t say anything at all.

“I thought so. And I myself am a designer, Mr. Hextall. I understand the simple elements of a good design. But my job is to select a proposal that has a chance of winning the bid for a certain project. And so, yes, they are just buildings to me. I’m not here to inflate your ego with constant praise. You’re no longer in graduate school.”

“Wait. They do that in graduate school? Someone should call Columbia University and tell them that, then.” Avery leans forward, eyes narrowed. “That was a goddamn good design and you know it.” Maybe if Lacroix agrees, he can leave, and they can both pretend he didn’t just do this.

There’s an angry flash in Lacroix’s eyes, and his mouth sets into a hard line. “I’m going to assume you need longer than the average person to absorb information, and simply remind you that my job is not to select proposals based entirely on their design but their functionality, cost effectiveness, and adherence to the client’s wishes. Do you understand that, or shall I draw you a diagram explaining how architecture firms work?”

Avery glares at him. “I understand. Yeah. I knew there would be soulless corporate types, just not soulless architects. Is that why you’re in project management, because all your designs are stuffy and boring?”

“No. I’m in project management because I’m very good at convincing clients to select our firm’s proposals. Which, by the way, I accomplish without shouting at them and suggesting they’re idiots.” Lacroix sighs. “Even though most of them are. I’m able to adapt our designs so that they actually get built, Hextall. So you might want to rethink which one of us is so rigid, hmm?”

“I designed that building according to the specifications we were given.” Avery’s voice is less angry now, and he’s fidgety, unable to sit still. “If there were other ones, you should have told me.”

“I don’t have to do anything,” Lacroix snaps. Then he closes his eyes like he’s counting to ten. Or… whatever the fuck ten is in French. Avery is pretty sure that’s Lacroix’s nationality. “Let me show you something.”

Lacroix turns his computer screen so Avery can see it, and what’s on the monitor doesn’t make a whole lot of sense to him at first. He leans forward, squints, grabs his glasses from his front pocket out of instinct, and puts them on. “Fascinating. Are these the things called ‘spreadsheets’ I’ve heard so much about?”

“Were you this annoying in all your classes, Hextall?”

“Oh yeah.” Avery doesn’t look away from the screen. “It’s a good thing this place only needed two reference letters, or I’d be in trouble.”

There’s a huff that might be a laugh, and then Lacroix continues. “This is the schematic of the job for which your proposal was rejected.” He starts clicking with the mouse, pulling up screens comprised of bar graphs and a lot of boring math. “It was a brilliant design. Your talent is only very rarely in question.”

Avery is too shocked by the first actual word of praise he’s ever heard from Lacroix to do anything but gape like a drunken fish with black-rimmed glasses. Did he fall asleep? Because no way did that just happen….

Wait. Does he really want to fall asleep and dream about Lacroix? Absolutely not. The praise, though. He could get used to that.

“Mr. Hextall?”

“Oh. Uh. What?” Avery adjusts his glasses and tries for his scowl, but he can’t quite manage it. Besides, he’s interested in what’s on the screen. There are a lot of words about soil composition and weather patterns, right next to things like bid tabulation and schedule of values.

“I have to take every single proposal that meets my expectations and filter them through the requirements of the client, and then through the company and our available resources. At the end of the day, I select the proposal that comes closest to satisfying both.” He finishes clicking buttons, and there’s a screen with Avery’s initials and some more graphs—as well as a lot of numbers. “Here is the breakdown of your design.”

Avery studies the screen, and he’s not entirely sure what he’s reading, but he has a pretty good idea based on the frightening amount of numbers in red.

“It was too expensive?”

“That was one issue. Yes.”

“For us or for them?” Avery looks at him, his temper flaring, though it is solely on behalf of his artistic soul this time. “And what do you mean, one issue? What are the others? Because sometimes you have to pay more for quality—”

“Hextall, be quiet. Look at the screen and listen to me.” Lacroix has that same tone in his voice he did when he told Avery to sit. “You’re thinking like an architect, not a businessman. There are more things to consider than a brief cost analysis and environmental impact survey.” Lacroix waves his hand dismissively. “Did you know that the insurance required for this particular company to have a—what did you call it, a free-standing atrium—would likely cost a thousand people their jobs, just to pay for it?”

“They said they wanted open spaces with plenty of light. That’s what I was designing. How was I supposed to know that other stuff?”

Lacroix sighs, and turns his computer screen away from Avery. “You’re not. I am. There were issues with some of the soil composites and water runoff from a nearby lake. I imagine you didn’t know there was a lake nearby either. And that impacted it as well.”

Avery takes his glasses off and rubs the lenses with his shirt. “I could have fixed that. All of it. If someone had told me.”

“I’m sure you could have. But you are a junior associate in a firm, and Thomas’s design was far better suited for the environment and the cost.”

Brandon Thomas. Ugh. Of course. The shining golden boy who was nice to just about everyone and also really genuine about it. He also was impossible to hate. And oh, had Avery ever tried. Including right this moment, learning Brandon’s design had been chosen instead of his.

“So you didn’t hate it.” Avery falls back in his chair, stares up at the ceiling, and tries to figure out how to say “I’m sorry” without actually having to say it. In hindsight, this entire thing was a terrible idea. At least he didn’t throw the paperweight. “My design, I mean.”

“This one? No. I’ve hated a few of them because I find your adherence to sustainability affects your form, on occasion. I’m beginning to think your trademark is unnecessarily complicated.”

That surprises him enough to prompt him to look at Lacroix again. “You better not be talking about the passive solar-heating coil that I integrated into the curvature of the staircase, because that was fucking brilliant.”

“Passive solar heating… you mean a window?”

“It’s not my fault you hate the Earth.” Avery expels a breath. He probably just fucked himself six ways to Sunday, and if he gets a reputation for being a prima donna, he’ll end up designing condos for retirees in Virginia Beach or something equally horrible. He just can’t bring himself to apologize, even though he knows he should. It probably won’t do any good… but still.

Avery remains obstinately silent. All he has left here is his pride and a fucking killer staircase design.

“I assume this little chat addresses all your questions, Mr. Hextall?” Lacroix is still staring at him. Avery thinks he looks like a hawk. Does that make Avery a bunny rabbit if he can’t look away?

He nods as grudgingly as possible.

“Good. You are more than welcome to schedule a meeting with me about your designs, but don’t you ever barge in here and act like I owe you any answers for doing my job. Or like I’m carrying out some personal crusade to end your professional career. Consider it a new rule that you don’t enter my office without my express permission.” Lacroix’s winter voice feels like ice sliding down Avery’s spine.

No wonder he didn’t like that staircase of mine. He’s way too cold for solar anything. It’s a sign of maturity that he doesn’t allow that thought to become actual words.

“I would suggest taking a few days off. Expend some of this energy of yours on something other than nearly losing your job.”

Avery stands up, nods, and shoves his hands into his pockets before he can do something dumb, like try to shake Lacroix’s hand.

“Yeah. Okay.” He heads toward the door and says, without looking back, “I didn’t know. That other stuff.”

Lacroix is quiet for a moment. “And now you do. And you won’t act that way again.”

It’s not a question, which is a good thing because Avery doesn’t want to make promises he can’t keep. And promising he won’t make impulsive decisions is like promising he can keep the sun from rising.

It’s also a clear assertion of who has the control, who holds the power over whom. And instead of infuriating Avery like it should, it does something just as maddening.

Avery walks out of Lacroix’s office, heads back to his desk, and grabs his cell phone. There is only one thing to do after the double gut punch of rejection and forced humility.

It’s time to get drunk.

Author Bio:
Avon Gale was once the mayor on Foursquare of Jazzercise and Lollicup, which should tell you all you need to know about her as a person. She likes road trips, rock concerts, drinking Kentucky bourbon and yelling at hockey. She’s a displaced southerner living in a liberal midwestern college town, and when she’s not writing you can find her at the salon, making her clients look and feel fabulous. She never gets tired of people and their stories -- either real or the ones she makes up in her head.


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