Showing posts with label monday mystery mayhem. Show all posts
Showing posts with label monday mystery mayhem. Show all posts

Monday, July 13, 2026

πŸŽ…πŸŽ†πŸŽ„Monday's Mysterious Mayhem - Xmas in JulyπŸŽ„πŸŽ†πŸŽ…: The Hell You Say by Josh Lanyon




Summary:

Adrien English #3
Demons, death threats...
and Christmas shopping.
It's gonna be one Hell of a Holiday.


In the third in the popular Adrien English series, the "ill-starred and bookish" mystery writer has to contend with a Satanic cult, a handsome university professor and his on-again/off-again relationship with the eternally conflicted LAPD Detective Jake Riordan.

And, oh, yes, murder...




Original Review 2013:
Another great entry in the Adrien English Mysteries! The mystery is wonderfully complex and yet still easy to follow along with. I really want to just knock some sense in to Jake for refusing to admit who he really is. Adrien is as stubborn as ever and now he's getting a new family since his mother is remarrying. His sisters-to-be are an interesting trio, the youngest, Emma, seems to be the most level headed and likeable, but the other 2 are just as fun to read, especially Arien's inner monologue when it comes to his interactions with the young ladies.

2nd Re-Read Review 2016:
Being able to fall even deeper in love with a story, a mystery especially, when you're reading it for the third time, speaks volumes to the talent of the author and that is exactly what Josh Lanyon brings. Talent and respect for the written word.

Overall Series Audiobook Review 2019:
Adrien with an "e", what can I say that I haven't already said?  Nothing really because I absolutely adore Adrien and Jake.  Yes, there are multiple times I want to whack Jake upside the head but he's learning, albeit slowly sometimes but still learning.  There's heartbreak, there's joy, there's murder, and well there's plenty of love(even if it takes Jake a little longer to accept).

All but the final Christmas novella is narrated by Chris Patton and his voice is perfect for these two.  I couldn't imagine listening to anyone else bring life to the pair but then when I listened to So This is Christmas, read by Kale Williams, he too is . . . well for the lack of a better word(and not to sound redundantπŸ˜‰) . . . brilliant.  Obviously there is a difference between the two narrators but since Adrien and Jake are settled, or as settled as they can be considering Adrien's knack for stumbling into mayhem, which changes people and so the difference in narrators kind of reflects that I thought.  So I say spot on to all involved bringing Adrien English and Jake Riordan to life.

RATING:




The voice on the phone rasped, "Bones of anger, bones of dust, full of fury, revenge is just. I scatter these bones, these bones of rage, enemy mine, I bring you pain. Torment, fire, death the toll, with this hex I curse your soul. So mote it be."

I handed the receiver to Angus, who was facing out the 'We Recommend' stand by the counter, and said, "It's for you."

He took the receiver and put his ear against it as though expecting an electric shock. He listened, then, hand shaking, he replaced the receiver and stared at me. Behind the blue John Lennon specs his eyes were terrified. He licked his pale lips.

"Look, Angus," I said, "Why don't you talk to Jake? He's a cop. Maybe he can help."

"He's a homicide detective," Angus muttered. "Plus he doesn't like me."

True on both counts, but I tried anyway.

"He doesn't dislike you, really. Besides, you've got to talk to someone. This is harassment."

"Harassment?" His voice shot up a notch. "I wish it was harassment! They're going to kill me."

Someone lurking in the Dell map backs coughed, and I realized we were not alone in the bookstore.

I gestured to Angus, and he followed me back to the storeroom that served as my office. So far we'd had a grand total of three customers browsing the shelves on this gloomy November day. I half shut the door to the office and turned to Angus.

"Okay, what the hell is going on?" I sort of knew what the hell was going on, so I added, "Exactly."

I thought my tone was pretty calm, but he put his hands out as though to ward me off. "I can't talk about it," he gabbled. "I mean, if I talk about it, if I reveal the secrets of the-"He swallowed The Word. "They'll kill me."

"I thought they were already trying to kill you?"

"I mean physically kill me."

"Uh huh," I said, and realized I sounded like Jake.

Angus caught the skeptical note in my voice. "Adrien, you don't understand. You've never-they know where I live. They know where I work. They know where Wanda lives. They know where Wanda works. They --"

"Why don't you leave town for a while," I interrupted. "It's nearly Christmas. Why don't you... take a little vacation?"

"It's November."

"It's after Thanksgiving."

Angus had worked at Cloak and Dagger Books for the past year, but I still knew very little about him beyond the fact that he was finishing up an undisclosed undergrad program at UCLA which seemed to entail an awful lot of courses in folklore, mythology and the occult. He was twenty-something, lived alone, and was a decent if somewhat irregular employee. Lisa, my mother, insisted that he was on drugs; and Jake, my sometimes lover, was convinced that he was a nutcase, but I tended to believe he was just young. I studied him as he stood there in his baggy black clothes like an ... Γ©migrΓ©... from the dark side. He was shaking his head in a hopeless kind of way as though I still didn't get it.

"Yeah," I said, warming to the idea. "Why don't you take Wanda and split for a week or two? Let this all blow over." I was digging through the desk drawer for my checkbook.

Not that I believe throwing money at a problem solves the problem-unless the problem is lack of money. And not that I ordinarily recommend trying to run away from your problems, but this particular problem rang a few bells for me. Or so I thought at the time.

Angus was silent while I wrote out the check and tore it off. When I handed it to him, he stared down at it. He didn't say a word. Then, as I watched, a tear slid down his face and dropped on the check. He gave a great shuddering sigh, and started to speak.

I cut him off. "Listen, Harry Potter, do us both a favor. Crank calls from the Psychic Hotline is bad for business." I headed for the door.

* * * * *

"You did what?" said Jake.

I had been about ten minutes late meeting him at the car dealership on East Colorado Blvd. My ten year old Bronco was on its last legs, and Jake seemed to believe that I was incapable of making an informed buying decision unless he was my informant.

"Gave him eight hundred bucks, and told him to take Wanda Witch away for the holidays." I gazed at the rows of sleek sports cars and efficient-looking SUVs gleaming in the tequila sunset. Palm trees rustled overhead. Tinny Christmas carols issued from the loudspeakers in not so subliminal messaging.

I could see Jake's reflection in the nearest windshield, big and blonde and buff. "Eight hundred bucks? You have eight hundred bucks to throw around?"

I shrugged. "I'll write it off as his Christmas bonus."

"Uh huh." I could feel him studying my face. "Well, Mr. Trump, is there any point in our going inside?"

"Did you never hear of the great American tradition of financing?"

He snorted. I met his tawny gaze. "How the hell is running away supposed to solve anything?" he asked, and for a second I thought we were talking about something else entirely.

"I wasn't looking for a long term solution." And before Jake could say anything, I added, "I doubt if I need one. They're kids. They have the attention span of ... what is it? One minute for each year of life. We're looking at twenty minutes of terror. Tops."

Jake's lips twitched, but he said, "And these kids are all part of some witch's coven based out of Westwood?"

I stroked the hood of a silver Subaru Forester. "New meaning to the word 'Teen Spirit,' huh?" I checked the sticker price on the window. "From what I've picked up, they all took part in some class on demonology or witchcraft about a year ago. I guess somebody inhaled a little too much incense during the lab."

"They went off and started a coven?"

"I'm guessing. It's not like Angus has been forthcoming on the subject. Revealing Count Chocula's secrets carries a stiff penalty."

Red and green Christmas lights strung across the lot flashed on. They reminded me of glowing chili peppers, but maybe I was subconsciously influenced by the Mexican restaurant across the street. I remembered I hadn't stopped for lunch. My stomach growled. I wondered if Jake could take time for dinner. We hadn't seen much of each other lately.

"You shop around, you compare prices, you get the vehicle right for you," he observed, watching me linger over the Forester.

"Sure."

"You don't need another gas guzzler. How about something in a coupe? How about something pre-owned?"

"Used?"

Reluctantly I moved down the aisle of cars to a blue two-door. Tinted windows, power sun roof, Bose speakers. The price was right, too. 'Climate controlled.' What did that mean? Air conditioning?

Jake said suddenly, grimly, "Believe it or not, this kind of thing can get way out of hand. Hollywood PD turned up a Jane Doe in the Hollywood Hills about a month ago. Word is she was the victim of a ritual killing."

"You mean, like, Devil worshipers?"

I was mostly kidding, but Jake said thoughtfully, "I kind of wish you hadn't sent the kid out of town. I'd have liked to talk to him."

"You can't think Angus is involved in anything like that," I protested. "He's a little odd, granted, but he's a decent kid."

"You have no idea what he is, Adrien," Jake, a ten year veteran of LAPD, said in that cop tone he got when I exhibited signs of civilian naΓ―vetΓ©. "You've employed him for a few months, that's all. You hired him through a temp agency. You think they ran any serious security check?"

"You think it's necessary for working in a mystery bookstore?"

He wasn't listening. "There's this whole Satanic underground we've been hearing about since the Eighties. There may not be evidence of an organized movement like some religious groups claim, but we've seen plenty of injuries and deaths resulting from people taking this stuff seriously. And plenty of people turning up in psyche wards. It's ugly and violent, but a lot of kids are attracted to it."

"So hopefully this scares the hell out of Angus, and he gets it out of his system." I tried to picture myself behind the wheel of the coupe, gave it up, and headed back to the silver Forester.

* * * * *

When I finished signing the loan docs, Jake and I went across the street and grabbed some dinner. I had just traded in the Bronco, and since the dealership was going to install a stereo system, I needed a ride back to my place. Jake let himself be coerced.

While we waited for our meal I watched him put away two baskets of tortilla strips. He munched steadily, as though he were being paid by the chip, gaze fastened on a wall planter bristling with plastic bougainvillea.

"Everything okay?"

Still crunching, he paused in mid-reach for his Dos Equis. "Sure. Why?"

"I don't know. You seem preoccupied."

"Nope." He swallowed a mouthful of beer, eyes on mine. "Everything's cool."

Our relationship was not an easy one. Jake was deeply closeted. He claimed it was because he was a cop, but I'd come to believe that it was more complicated than that. Jake despised himself for being sexually attracted to men, and though he had been a good friend to me and was a physically satisfying lover-when he was around-there was a certain tension between us that I sometimes was afraid could never completely be resolved.

Which was a damn shame because I cared for him. A lot.

When I'd first met him he'd been active in the S/M scene, but I thought, though I didn't know for sure, that he was less active in the clubs these days. What I did know for sure was that he was dating a woman, a female cop named Kate Keegan. He'd been seeing her longer than he'd known me, and I didn't think it was just a cover relationship. But he didn't discuss it much with me.

"So I hear Chan's writing a book."

A few months earlier Jake's partner, Detective Paul Chan, had joined Partners in Crime, the weekly writing group I hosted at the bookstore.

"Yeah, a police procedural."

"Is it any good?"

"Uh, well... "

Jake laughed, and shoved the basket of chips my way.

* * * * *

The next day, Friday, I had to prepare for a book signing with bestselling author, Gabriel Savant. Savant wrote the Sam Haynes occult detective series, sort of an update on the old Jules de Grandin and John Thunstone pulps. I'm not a big fan of horror, but I had skimmed Savant's latest in an effort to facilitate discussion should the question and answer session peter out too fast. Not that I expected a problem; after an initially lackluster career in the Eighties, Savant had reinvented himself and his work, and was now something of a media darling. Hustling around in anticipation of a big turnout that evening, I wished ungenerously that I had delayed saving Angus till after the weekend.

I was arranging the front display of Savant's latest, The Rosicrucian Codex, and wondering if I had enough bottles of four dollar champagne, when I received another call from the dark side.

"Smitten, battered, beaten, torn. I prick at thee as if a thorn --"

"Speaking of pricks," I interrupted, "You're wasting your time. Angus doesn't work here anymore."

"Wh-?" He-the voice was male-caught himself. There was a pause, and then a click as the receiver slammed down.

I tried call return but the number was blocked. Not a surprise, I guess. I knew of course that it wouldn't end there.

Sure enough, later that afternoon I got another caller requesting 'Gus.' This time the voice was feminine and dulcet-toned. In all the time Angus has worked for me, I've only known one female to call him, and that's his girl friend Wanda. Wanda is not dulcet-toned. She sounds like she was weaned on unfiltered Marlboros.

"Sorry," I said in answer to the query. "He's not here."

"Oh gosh," she fretted. "I've just got to talk to Gus. It's, like, an emergency."

"Like an emergency, but not?"

"What?"

"Forget it." I said, "Look, he's gone. For real. Spread the word."

A pause. Then she faltered, "I'm not sure... ?"

I decided to try a different approach. "Can I get your name? Maybe he'll phone me once he gets settled. You're a friend of Angus's?"

She laughed a tinkling little laugh, a party-girl laugh. "Well, ye-aah! Of course! And I've just got to talk to him. He wants to talk to me, believe me."

"Oh, I do," I said with equal sincerity. "But he's gone. Skipped. I'd like to help, but... hey, why don't you leave your name and number, and if he gets in touch with me, I'll let him know you called."

Another little hesitation. Then she said coolly, "Sure. Tell him Sarah Good called. He knows the number."

666?

She replaced the phone gently. I followed suit. I caught a glimpse of my rueful expression in the mirror across from the counter. 'Sarah Good.' One of the first of the Salem witches to be hanged. Cute.

Well, on the bright side, at least the kids were getting some history at school.

* * * * *

By six thirty it was standing room only in the store. I realized I had seriously miscalculated both the champagne and how much help I would need. I'd never seen so many teenagers in black lipstick-boys and girls-or chain mail jewelry on middle aged men. I ran next door and offered time and a half to the girls closing up the travel agency, if they would lend me a hand behind the counter.

By seven fifteen our illustrious author was officially late, and the natives were getting restless. One of the local reporters tried to interview me about my involvement in a murder case the previous year. I resisted the impulse to finish off the last of the drugstore champagne and hide in the stockroom.

At seven thirty there was commotion at the front door and several people, clearly part of an entourage, entered the store. Three leggy ladies dressed more like incubus than typical mystery readers entered. A plump bespectacled man drew me aside and introduced himself as Bob Friedlander, Gabe's handler.

Handler? Nice work if you could get it, I guess.

I didn't catch most of what Friedlander said, because the next instant the Prince of Sales had appeared. Gabriel Savant was over six feet tall and built like a male model-in fact, he looked like the male half of the illustration on a historical romance: unruly raven hair falling over his tanned forehead, piercing blue eyes, flashing white smile. Were there rhinestones in his teeth? There was certainly something shining in his right ear lobe. He wore leather jeans and a black cape. And the most amazing thing was that nobody laughed.

"But this is charming," Gabriel assured me, as Friedlander navigated his star in my direction. "Of course it's not Vroman's, but it's very nice."

"Ambiance," Friedlander said quickly. "Wonderful ambiance."

"We try," I said.

"Of course you do," Gabriel encouraged. He glanced at his handler. "Bobby, is there anything to drink? I'm parched."

Friedlander cleared his throat uneasily. Along with that musky aftershave of Gabe's wafted a mix of mouthwash and bourbon. Mostly bourbon.

"There's some brand X champagne making the rounds," I said.

You'd have thought I offered milk to a vampire. Gabe blanched and then swallowed hard. "Oh, God, let's get this over with." He strode over to the antique desk I had set up. Enthusiastic applause from the waiting audience echoed off the dark beams.

"This book tour has been grueling," Friedlander told me by way of apology. "Twenty cities in thirty days... radio interviews at four in the morning, cable talk shows, book club luncheons, sometimes three bookstores a day... Gabe is exhausted."

"I bet you both are."

He laughed. Behind the glasses his mild eyes were unexpectedly alert. "A little. I understand you write also."

"A little." Not enough, thank God, that anyone wanted to send me out on the road.

"You're too modest. I've read Murder Will Out. Very witty."

Either this guy did his homework like nobody I'd ever met before, or he was gay. My books don't attract many mainstream readers.

"But you need a gimmick," he said.

"You don't think a gay Shakespearean actor amateur sleuth is enough of a gimmick?"

"No. Look at Gabe. He wasted years producing beautifully written critically acclaimed literary fiction that no one wanted to read, and then what happens? He comes up with Sam Haynes the Occult Detective. The rest is history."

History, occult and romance all spelled out in purple prose, I thought as Gabe read from his latest novel. But the audience loved it. When he finished reading, he took questions. Lots of questions. His fans wanted to know everything from where he got his ideas (at which he turned up his elegant nose and requested the next question) to was he seeing anyone.

"I'm seeing everyone," Gabe drawled, and tapped his forehead, either to indicate the Third Eye or that his busy social life was giving him a headache.

Maybe the bubbly helped, but the fans gobbled it right up.

Friedlander listened and ate pizza rolls like they were going out of style. Every so often, like when Gabriel graciously referred to me as 'Andrew,' he would smile nervously in my direction.

And then someone asked what Gabriel was working on now. Apparently this was the question he'd been waiting for. He rose to his feet, shaking back the cape.

"As you know, I've made a fortune telling stories about the occult and its practitioners, but my current project is not a mere work of fiction. During my research I've uncovered evidence of a real life secret and sinister cult which has preyed upon the young and naΓ―ve for the past two decades. A cult right here in this very city. In my next book I plan expose that cult and its leaders to the world."

Bob Friedlander dropped his paper plate, and pizza rolls scattered across the hardwood floor. I stooped to help retrieve them and saw out of the corner of my eye that Bob's knees were knocking together. I glanced up. His round face was white and perspiring; he looked terrified.

I turned. Gabe Savant was beaming at his audience, most of whom were smiling and chattering, delighted to learn that another of those pesky cults was soon to be history-and a best selling book. At the back of the room, however, stood a small group of young women. They were dressed in black, lots of leather and lace, makeup and hair inspired by Halloween. Elvira: the Early Years. They appeared to be hissing at Gabe.

* * * * *

"I love this house," Lisa sighed. "I've been very happy here."

The first Saturday of each month I had brunch with my mother, at the ancestral ruins in Porter Ranch in the North San Fernando Valley.

The brunch tradition began when I left Stanford and broke it to her that I would not be returning to the nest. It shouldn't have come as a shock-or even as bad news-but, choosing not to remarry after my father's death (despite a legion of eligible suitors), I was all Lisa had in the world. As she rarely failed to remind me.

"It's a beautiful house," I agreed.

The house smelled of pine trees and cinnamon and apples. It felt warm and Christmassy. In some ways it still felt like home. I'd taken my first steps in the marble foyer (an initial attempt to make a break for it). I'd learned to drive in the quiet surrounding streets. I'd experienced my first fumbling sexual encounter in the upstairs bedroom beneath the fake open beams and poster of Robert Redford in The Natural.

"Although it really is too large for one," she said, as though she had only noticed those additional sixteen rooms.

"Maybe you should think about moving," I said heartlessly.

I had underestimated her as usual. "If I were to... move... do you think the house would suit you and Jake?" she inquired innocently.

I inhaled my white chocolate pear tartlette, and spent the next few moments wondering if the last thing I saw would be the mental picture of me and Jake picking china at Neiman Marcus.

"Darling," Lisa was gently protesting when I could breathe again, "You shouldn't talk with your mouth full."

"You're not serious about Jake and me moving in here," I said.

"Why not? You seem awfully fond of him, and he's-he's-"I could see her searching for something nice to say about Jake. "He's a very efficient sort of person."

The 'why nots' were so many and varied that I was speechless. The worst part of it all was that for one split second I seriously considered it.

Seeing my moment of weakness, she moved in for the kill.

"It's wonderful that you're feeling so well these days, Adrien, but it doesn't do to push yourself too hard."

"I'm not."

She shook her head a little as though it were all no use. "The economy is so dreadful right now, especially for small businesses." As though Lisa had the foggiest idea about the challenges of running a small business. "And when you talk about needing to expand, I simply can't help worrying about the stress and strain of an additional mortgage on you, darling. Whereas this house is paid for free and clear."

Like a fool I said, "Even so, there's no way I could begin to afford the upkeep."

Her violet eyes widened at my naivetΓ©. "You're going to be very wealthy one of these days, darling," she chided. "I know I could prevail upon Mr. Gracen to arrange something with your trust fund."

"Don't start that again." Funny how that money was absolutely untouchable when it was for something I wanted that Lisa didn't approve of, but right there at my fingertips if I'd give in to something she wanted for me.

"If your poor father had realized that you would end up sacrificing your health struggling to make ends meet-"

"Lisa, where is this going?" I broke in. "Are you thinking of selling the house? Is that what this is about?"

I was sort of amazed to see her turn pink.

"Um, sort of," she said. A very un-Lisa-like comment.

When she didn't continue, I prodded, "And?"

"Actually, I'm thinking of getting married."





Josh Lanyon
Bestselling author of over sixty titles of classic Male/Male fiction featuring twisty mystery, kickass adventure and unapologetic man-on-man romance, JOSH LANYON has been called "the Agatha Christie of gay mystery."

Her work has been translated into eleven languages. The FBI thriller Fair Game was the first male/male title to be published by Harlequin Mondadori, the largest romance publisher in Italy. Stranger on the Shore (Harper Collins Italia) was the first M/M title to be published in print. In 2016 Fatal Shadows placed #5 in Japan's annual Boy Love novel list (the first and only title by a foreign author to place on the list).

The Adrien English Series was awarded All Time Favorite Male Male Couple in the 2nd Annual contest held by the Goodreads M/M Group (which has over 22,000 members). Josh is an Eppie Award winner, a four-time Lambda Literary Award finalist for Gay Mystery, and the first ever recipient of the Goodreads Favorite M/M Author Lifetime Achievement award.

Josh is married and they live in Southern California.


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Monday, June 29, 2026

🌈Monday's Mysterious Mayhem🌈: Doc by RJ Scott



Summary:

Redcars #4
Raised in hell. Remade in blood. Levi is a mercy; he won’t survive.

Doc has lived his whole life in the shadows, using sharp skills and colder instincts to keep his sister and her kids safe. He fixes problems no one talks about, navigates dangerous circles without leaving a trace, and has learned that survival means staying hidden, staying in control, and never letting anyone close enough to see the cracks.

Detective Levi Rosen is the exception he never planned for.

Levi should walk away the moment he realizes Doc is tied to a world of underground violence, organ traffickers, and buried bodies. Instead, he finds himself drawn to the man behind the mask—the quiet precision, the impossible loyalty, and fear buried so deep it barely shows.

Together, they’re forced to navigate a violent network, shifting loyalties, and a past that’s been hunting Doc since he was a boy. And Levi has to decide how far he’s willing to go for a man who doesn’t believe he deserves to be saved.

Doc is a dark, emotional MM romantic suspense about trauma, obsession, forced proximity, morally grey choices, found family, and choosing someone even when the world keeps trying to take them away. This is Book 4 in the Redcars series and should be read in order.

Original Review June 2026:
When I read Redcars last year, I never cared for Doc. He was rude, unfriendly, had the worst bedside manner EVER, I never imagined him being the MC, especially one you rooted for. When I saw he was getting his own book, you can imagine my initial reaction was not one of "YAY!!!" but after a few minutes, I had no doubts RJ Scott would make him, well not "loveable" but definitely "rootable", okay that's not a real word but I'm sticking to itπŸ˜‰.

We learn quite a bit about Doc, Alejandro to a chosen few, and it helps paint a bigger picture as to why he is the way Redcars readers recall him as. To some extent, it makes it okay but there is plenty of it that still rubbed me wrong, HOWEVER, despite that, you want him to find a HEA, he's earned it. Liam has his own issues and hurdles, he is just so darn likeable, he just might be the one to help him find what he has been running from or avoiding all this time. 

I won't go into details so as not to spoil anything. Just know that Doc. and Redcars as a whole, is definitely darker than what we have come to expect from the author. That said, she puts the same effort and part of her heart into the story. Dark or not, Doc is an unforgettable read that will bring you to tears, put you through the emotional wringer, and yet when you come out the other side, you are left uplifted, and I can't ask for more.

Novak is sitting on my Kindle but I think I need a little time to let my heart heal from Doc and Liam's journey before jumping in but I'm looking forward to yet another less than stellar character find whatever it is that will awaken his heart.

RATING:





ONE
Gael
The room reeked of blood and sweat, a sour-metallic stink that clung to the back of my throat. The man on the chair slumped forward, wrists raw where the rope had bitten into him. His chest rose shallow and uneven—no breaks, no bruising, nothing visible to explain why every breath sounded wrong. His head lolled at an angle, jaw slack, lips split and caked with dried blood. One eye was swollen shut: the other stared glassy and unfocused. Dried streaks of vomit stained his chin, and each inhale rattled as if pulled through water. He was more corpse than man, a shell propped upright, skin carved and ruined, his body kept vertical only by rope and stubborn refusal to die.

“Don’t keep fucking with the product,” someone muttered in badly butchered Spanish, “he’ll die before we take his kidneys.”

“I have a way of keeping him alive.” A shadow moved. Boots scraped across the concrete. Raven’s voice was low, calm. Almost amused. “Gael! Here!”

They shoved me forward; my hands still stained with the iodine I’d been using on my mother an hour ago. Her cracked ribs had barely knit from the last time. Now this. Always this.

“Watch this!” Raven said, pride dripping from his words.

The victim’s eyes rolled white as I pressed fingers to his throat. Pulse—thready. Breath—a wet rattle. Not the chest. His airway. Something inside was swelling, closing, drowning him from the inside out. My stomach clenched. I’d seen this kind of thing before—too many times. Men, women, and kids who’d stood up to Raven and were left hanging by a thread. Some tried to bargain, some sobbed until their voices gave out, and others just went quiet and never spoke again—but all I knew was that life slipped away fast when someone sounded like they were breathing through blood.

I pressed along his neck and jaw, and it felt wrong—spongy, shifting, as if things inside weren’t where they should be. His throat was filling, bruised deep, maybe crushed, maybe torn, choking him slowly. In my head, I begged him—why won’t you just die, don’t make me do this—pleaded with him even as I knew he couldn’t hear, and my hands kept moving even as my heart tried to crawl away.

Raven crouched next to me, smoke from cigars and pungent sweat flooding my nose, staring into the eyes of the dying man. His big hand clamped on my shoulder, hard enough to bruise. I froze. Scared. Alone. With no choice but to obey.

Raven’s other hand toyed with the blade he carried everywhere—a narrow, cruel thing with a carved bone handle worn smooth where his fist rested. The grip was etched with tiny grooves, darkened by years of blood and sweat—the same blade he’d used tonight to carve the victim’s face into ribbons, each slash clean and precise, art to him and horror to everyone else. His grin was too wide, eyes bright with a kind of glee that twisted his face into something unhinged. He grabbed my hand, pushed it to the man’s chest, where his heart beat fast.

“Gael?” he rasped. “Feel him dying? That’s power.”

“Please, Raven,” I begged, my voice breaking.

He chuckled, a dry sound that made the hair on my neck prickle. His fingers dug into my shoulder as if he wanted to leave a mark. “You don’t get to choose,” he whispered, as if sharing a secret. “Your mama’s been useful—keeps her mouth shut, brings food, pays for the quiet. But even she wears out. I take what I want, niΓ±o. I make new toys when the old ones stop working.” He smiled then, too wide, and for a second his face softened, like a man humoring a pet. Then the smile snapped back, and the tenderness was gone. “Maybe I’ll bring your sister in next. Fresh meat. New lessons to teach.”

Someone in the small crowd of onlookers chuckled. “LucΓ­a would be tight.”

I whirled on them, leering at me, one man holding his crotch. I tried to lurch for him, but Raven held me tight and shook me.

“You promised you wouldn’t let them touch my sister!” I said, and something inside me cracked, panic hardening into ice.

His thumb pressed into my jaw. “I can’t control my men.” In that moment, Raven was the devil in flesh, a nightmare made real, and he gloried in the way I waited and stared.

“I’ll do it!” I snapped. My voice didn’t shake, although my hands did.

Raven dropped his hand, and his gaze flicked to me, sharp, cold. “All yours.”

I tilted my chin. “Don’t touch my mom for a week.”

He closed his fingers around my throat. “You think you can bargain with me?” He spat the words.

I stared at him as his grip tightened. “I can keep this man alive for whatever you need from him.” God forgive me.

Raven glared at me, fury in his eyes, and then he released his hold, and I nearly fell to the floor.

“Your momma’s too broken to take what I give right now,” he said with a hateful laugh. “You have a deal, El Doctorcito.”

A week would give my mother time to heal. That was all I was asking for. Maybe I could get her and my sister LucΓ­a away in the next seven days. I’d almost saved enough favors to get one of them across the border. I had to hold out a while longer. I focused on the victim as he lifted his head, and I saw a missing eye, the gaping hole, the ribbons of flesh from each cut Raven had made, the terror, the plea in his expression.

Let me die.

I had no gloves. No proper tools. Only a knife wiped once on a dirty rag and a length of tubing ripped from a siphon pump. My stomach churned, but I worked. Hands steady because I’d taught myself they had to be. Cut. Push. Clear the airway—blood and swelling choking him from the inside—until the man could drag in air again.

The man screamed again, then sobbed.

Still breathing.

I leaned back, sweat dripping into my eyes, and got my first sight of the stranger in the corner who wanted kidneys from this victim—sweating, overdressed for the heat, his accent was a butchered attempt at Spanish. An American. Out of place. Wrong in a way that made my skin crawl.

Raven wasn’t done showing me off.

He angled my face toward the American as though he wanted the man to get a good look at whatever he thought he’d made. “He learns fast,” Raven said, voice warm in a way that never meant comfort. “Faster than any of the others ever did.”

The American made a faint grunt of approval, but Raven wasn’t watching him anymore. His focus was fixed on me—too intense, too proud, the way a man might look at a weapon he’d forged.

“He doesn’t flinch,” Raven went on, admiration thick in his voice. “Not like the other ones who cried or begged.” His hand slid from my jaw to the back of my neck, anchoring me, guiding me closer to the dying man. “This one watches,” Raven added. “He listens. He remembers.”

The American’s brow lifted. “Are you training him?”

Raven smiled. Slow. Cold. “Already trained.” His fingers pressed into my neck—possessive, claiming. “He can tell you how long this one has left just by the feel of the heart. He knows where to cut to keep the rest intact. He knows how to keep a body alive long enough to take what needs taking.”

My stomach turned, but Raven didn’t let me step away.

Raven snorted a laugh. “Useful, isn’t he?” he asked the American. I was a tool, an instrument, a thing.

The American nodded once, businesslike. “If he can keep them stable, that’s worth something to my clients.”

Raven’s smile widened until it was all teeth. “He’ll be worth more than you think.” Something in his voice made the room shift—as if he believed it, as if he’d already written the future in blood and expected me to play my part. He tapped two fingers against my chest, right over my heart. “I built him myself,” he murmured. “Piece by piece.” My pulse stuttered under his touch, and his smile widened. “See how steady he is? He was made for this.”

The American didn’t argue. Raven never needed proof. He just needed an audience. He yanked me to my feet, pulled me into his side, and held me so close I couldn’t breathe, pushing me toward the men who stood around the room—his sicarios, loyal cartel soldiers with dead eyes and blood on their hands. The only thing stopping any of them from touching me was my usefulness to the compound and to the boss.

“El Doctorcito,” someone said with an exaggerated bow, and Raven laughed so loud it shook his whole body.

“El Doctorcito!” he cried, and then shunted me from the room, past the ring of his men, one of them pushing me into the Sinaloa sunshine and dirt—heat rising in shimmering waves, the smell of dust and diesel thick in the air, cactus and scrub baking under a merciless sky—as I stumbled—cicadas screaming in the brush, a dog barking somewhere behind the shacks, tinny music blaring from a distant radio—every sound too sharp in the hot air, and the smells too—roasting corn from a vendor’s cart, sewage trickling in the gutter, cheap beer spilled and souring in the sun. I ran for my fucking life back home. Neighbors stood in their doorways, eyes following but never meeting mine, pretending they didn’t see. A woman pulled her child inside; a man turned his back. Everyone knew, but no one ever spoke.

No one cared that my shoes were too small, that my voice still cracked when I spoke.

No one cared that I was only twelve.




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RJ Scott
Writing love stories with a happy ever after – cowboys, heroes, family, hockey, single dads, bodyguards

USA Today bestselling author RJ Scott has written over one hundred romance books. Emotional stories of complicated characters, cowboys, single dads, hockey players, millionaires, princes, bodyguards, Navy SEALs, soldiers, doctors, paramedics, firefighters, cops, and the men who get mixed up in their lives, always with a happy ever after.

She lives just outside London and spends every waking minute she isn’t with family either reading or writing. The last time she had a week’s break from writing, she didn’t like it one little bit, and she has yet to meet a box of chocolates she couldn’t defeat.


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