Thursday, June 1, 2023

🌈⏳Throwback Thursday's Time Machine⏳🌈: Pickup Men by LC Chase



Summary:

Pickup Men #1
It takes a pissed-off Brahma bull named Shockwave to show rodeo pickup man Marty Fairgrave the cold hard truth about his relationship with champion bull rider Tripp Colby: Tripp will never leave the safety of his closet or acknowledge Marty in public. Sometimes loving someone just isn’t enough, and after a year of hiding what they are, Marty finally sees the light—and it’s no longer shining on Tripp.

Tripp Colby would do anything for Marty. Well . . . almost. He’s never loved anyone before, and isn’t quite sure how to handle it now. But he knows Marty is his everything, and in order to win him back, Tripp will have to overcome his darkest fears and step into the light.

But no matter Tripp’s intentions, the cost might be too high and the effort too late for these two cowboys to ride off into the sunset.

2015 EPIC Ebook Awards Winner, Contemporary Romance
2014 Lambda Literary Awards Finalist, Gay Romance

Note: This title was previously published at Riptide Publishing, and has been lightly re-edited.


Original Review July 2014:
I fell in love with Marty and Tripp from the very beginning. Even when Tripp wasn't exactly stepping forward the way a lover should, I still felt for him. The story is an even blend of romance, cowboys, rodeo, drama, and even humor. Well written characters, a plot that grabbed my attention immediately, and I was so sorry to see the final page. It's not easy going for the rodeo pair and their friends but the author definitely makes you want to find out how it ends.

RATING:



Two thousand pounds of pissed-off beef, aptly named Shockwave, tossed around the man on its back like a ragdoll. But Tripp wouldn’t be dislodged. He clung to the spinning beast with an ease and confidence that belied the skill and athleticism—not to mention pure guts—required to compete at the professional level.

Sitting astride his best pickup horse, Fairgrave Flyer, near the chutes of the Santa Maria Elks Rodeo arena, Marty Fairgrave couldn’t suppress the smile that fought for freedom across his face.

It was a beautiful sight watching a champion at work.

It was a beautiful sight watching Tripp Colby at the top of his game.

Marty’s smile gained purchase as he recalled Tripp’s firm, bare butt bouncing before him while Tripp had hopped around the small bedroom of Marty’s travel trailer, pulling up his jeans and boots in a hurry to beat the rising sun earlier that morning.

The eight-second whistle blew, calling a clean end to Tripp’s money ride and Marty’s X-rated replay. Tripp dismounted Shockwave with enviable grace, landing upright but hard in the dirt. He stumbled forward a couple of steps before he got his center of gravity under him. It was textbook.

But as right as it was, it wasn’t.

Marty’s pickup partner, Bridge, pulled up beside him astride a stocky, bay gelding. “Where’re the fucking stooges?”

Marty scanned the arena, registering every player in crisp detail. The hair on the back of his neck rose to attention. His smile snapped into a frown. An ice-cold finger trailed down his spine.

The two bullfighters were still dicking around, showboating for the audience at the opposite end of the ring. They should have been paying attention to their job. They should have jumped in to distract the bull from the vulnerable rider. Instead, they looked every bit the clueless rodeo clowns they were colorfully dressed as. This wasn’t a fucking circus. And left alone, there was no way Tripp could reach the rails to get clear of the furious Shockwave, who had zeroed in on him like a missile.

There was no time to consider the consequences. No time to weigh the pros and cons, or proper protocols. Marty laid his boot heels to Fly’s sides and raced out after Tripp. Ignoring Bridge’s shout, he barreled into the path of what amounted to a runaway freight train.

Somewhere in the back of his mind, Marty knew what he was doing. Knew it was suicidal. It wasn’t his job as a pickup man to pull a cowboy from a bull ride, let alone a bullfight. Bulls were too dangerous and unpredictable for them to sidle up to and sandwich between like the broncos. Marty’s and Bridge’s job was simply to haze the animal out of the arena as quickly as possible, before it could cause any damage. But right then, all he saw was Tripp lined up for a brutal ride on the ends of Shockwave’s horns.

Not on my watch.

His pulse sped as time slowed in equal measure. His vision tunneled until all he saw was Tripp. All he heard was his own heartbeat and the pounding of Fly’s hooves. He leaned in his saddle as he closed in, and held an arm out. Tripp grabbed on, his hand seizing Marty’s forearm hard enough to bruise to the bone. Marty hauled Tripp off the ground and onto Fly’s back, galloping clear of Shockwave. The heat of Tripp’s body behind him, living and unharmed, was a heady comfort. A flash of black out of the corner of his eye told Marty how narrowly they’d escaped a horned broadside.

He pulled Fly up alongside the rails, and Tripp scrambled safely over the fence. Marty released a deep sigh of relief. Adrenaline still coursing through his veins, his muscles twitched as the panic released its hold. Turning his attention to Bridge, and the still-at-large bull, his lungs seized mid-exhale. Time froze in an intense, candid photograph—one of those “holy shit” moments that grace the centerfold of National Geographic. In this photograph, Shockwave bore down on him, too close. Bridge was right behind the bull, lasso suspended in the air mid-throw. The rodeo clowns—because they sure as hell weren’t bullfighters—were blurred in the background, desperately running to catch up.

Time for reaction was over. The only thing left for him to do was pray.

Yeah, holy shit.

Marty heard a distant gasp ripple through the audience like a gale force. He braced himself, but it still took a long, profound second for him to realize it wasn’t the wind bulldozing him and Fly into the unforgiving metal railing. It wasn’t the wind that caused the surreal sensation of disembodiment as the ground rushed up to kiss him.

And it wasn’t the wind that eclipsed the sun on a scream.

# # #

Thundering vibrations rumbled through the uneven earth beneath his back. Shadows flickered behind the red shades of his eyelids. Dust coated his throat and tickled his nose, and a light breeze carried mingling scents of leather, hot sweat, and livestock with it. Indistinguishable sounds teased his eardrums, rising and falling in pitch and volume and rhythm until they became definable. Concerned voices. Rapid hoofbeats. Braying cattle. Whinnying horses.

The last thing Marty remembered shot to the forefront of his mind and launched a scorching path of panic through his chest. His body tensed for flight, and his eyelids snapped open.

Pain came swift, sharp, and nauseating.

Blinding shards of unfiltered sunlight pierced his pupils and lanced straight through to the back of his skull. What felt like a thousand serrated knives stabbed mercilessly into his rib cage. He squeezed his eyes shut against the onslaught.

It hurt to breathe. It hurt to move. Hurt not to move.

Something large and solid hit the ground at his side with an ooph, quickly followed by a second, heavy thud. Rapid breaths puffed above him. Callused fingertips pressed against his neck, and a large hand gently brushed dirt from his face.

“Marty?” a deep, familiar voice pleaded. “C’mon, man.”

Marty tempted the heavens again and cautiously lifted his eyelids. The lancing pain he feared didn’t come. Bridge Sullivan and Kent Murphy—his best friends, practically brothers since grade school—were kneeling shoulder to shoulder at his side, their bodies forming a broad shield against the blinding sunlight. Equal parts worry and relief flashed in both pairs of eyes.

“You dumb son of a bitch.” The soft tone of Bridge’s deep voice belied the harsh words.

“What the fuck did you think you were doing?” Kent’s voice was tight, like he was struggling to hold back either crying or yelling. “Jesus Christ, Marty. You know better.”

Marty croaked out a rough, “I’m fine.”

“The hell you are.” Bridge pointed at Marty’s head. “You’re bleeding.”

“You going to pass out?” Marty teased.

“Shut up.”

Marty relaxed his eyes and feigned a smile. He couldn’t be too bad off if Bridge wasn’t heaving up his breakfast.

“How’s Flyer?”

“You’re fucking lucky, Smarts.” Kent lifted his cowboy hat and wiped at the sweat on his forehead with his shirtsleeve. “Bridge roped Shockwave just before he hit you so you didn’t get the full impact. Fly still got gored in the flank pretty good. It’s not too deep, thanks to the angle you got nailed at, but he needs a ton of stitches.”

“You won’t be riding him anytime soon,” Bridge added. “Won’t be riding any horse for a while, by the looks of things.”

“I’m fine.” Marty pursed his lips. It was his job to keep the competitors from getting hurt, not to get hurt himself. “Just need a minute to get my bearings.”

Kent shook his head. “Yeah, right.”

Marty ignored Kent and turned his attention to the crowd that had gathered, scanning for one face in particular. The face that mattered most, the one that still made his heart skip a beat more than a year since the first time he’d laid eyes on it. Familiar, concerned faces stared back at him, but not the one he needed. In a low rasp he asked, “Where is he?”

Bridge and Kent both scowled at him and sat back on their heels. They could have been twins.

“Guys . . .”

With a reluctant sigh, Bridge tilted his head to the side. “Prick’s standing back there.”

Marty followed the direction of his friend’s nod but still didn’t see who he was looking for. His chest felt heavy, his head began to throb, and his bones ached. Flyer was one of his best pickup horses, and he’d put Fly’s life—and his—in jeopardy. All because he’d fallen in love with a man who wouldn’t—couldn’t—acknowledge that he existed in public beyond the cursory post-rodeo thank-you.

Was he ever going to learn?

His breath caught sharply. There, at the outskirts of the small crowd, he found what he’d been searching for and locked onto a pair of piercing, light blue eyes.

Tripp stood with his hands buried in his pockets. His eyes were wide with fear and turmoil, lips pursed to a thin white line, body tense.

Please, Tripp.

With a determined expression on his handsome face, Tripp took a step forward. Paused. Then took another.

A cavalry of hope, bright and all-powerful, charged forward and forced the pain back into the shadows.

Tripp was actually coming to him. In public.

But just as Marty’s heart began to swell, Tripp faltered to a stop, and his gaze broke away. His face instantly transformed into the practiced blank mask Marty had come to loathe. The cold shock of that broken moment punched a hole into his chest big enough to drive a semi through. Marty’s internal army lost its hard-won ground, and every part of his body screamed in agony at its loss.

He closed his eyes and let the comforting earth suck him down.

“Move back, guys.” The unfamiliar, authoritative voice with a sharp accent interrupted Marty’s descent into oblivion. “Give the man some space here.”

Two paramedics dropped down beside him, replacing his friends. One of the men began pulling the tools of their trade from a brightly colored medical bag, while the other gently straightened his neck and cradled his head so he couldn’t move it. They efficiently went about assessing injuries and asking questions Marty wasn’t really hearing.

He opened his mouth to tell them he was fine. He knew where he was, what had happened, his name, the day—even if his head was a bit fuzzy. He’d get up—in a minute—and get back to work, but the words stalled in the back of his throat when fingers pressed lightly against his right side, and sharp pain flared across his torso. He winced and hissed a shallow breath, and his vision grayed out briefly.

“Sorry.” It was the paramedic with the accent. “No doubt you’ve got some broken ribs in there. We’re going to have to . . .”

The man’s voice faded as though it had been sucked up by some unseen vortex. He didn’t care. He needed to see if Tripp was still there, and turned his head sideways in its loose hold.

Scott Gillard, the biggest homophobic prick on the circuit, was standing at Tripp’s side. Scott laughed. Tripp smiled. Scott clapped Tripp on the shoulder, cast an impassive look at Marty, and walked away.

Tripp turned back to Marty. His shoulders slumped infinitesimally along with his mask. Feet rooted to the ground.

“Easy there.” The paramedic who’d been holding his head strapped a c-collar around his neck to prevent him from moving again. “Let’s make sure everything works before you go ripping up the dance floor, okay, cowboy?”

Marty would have laughed at the attempted levity any other time, but right now all he felt was an agonizing rawness clawing out his insides. He understood now, but that didn’t make it hurt any less. Didn’t make what had to happen any easier.

His heart seized mid-beat and splintered in his chest. Or maybe that was broken bone digging into flesh. Either way, the result was the same.

He barely registered Bridge telling him that he and Kent would meet him at the hospital, or the oxygen mask that had been secured over his mouth, or the hands that slid under his body and carefully rolled him onto his side to work a hard backboard under him. Straps tightened over his chest and legs, foam blocks immobilized his head, and cold bit into his back.

But it didn’t matter.

He stared up at the spotless blue sky, drifting on the sensation of weightlessness for a brief moment when the paramedics lifted and settled him onto a gurney and then rolled him into the waiting ambulance.

A face edged into his blurring line of vision, words were spoken in a calming tone, but none of it registered. He closed his eyes and burned the last image of Tripp into his memory: the lean, defined frame of Tripp’s body, the strong curve of a jaw shadowed with day-old stubble, the slight bend and bump in the bridge of a nose that had been broken more than once. The full, pink lips that had kissed him so passionately, bright eyes that had stared at him with heated desire, and jet-black hair that felt like silk sliding through his fingers. The mental keepsake would be all he’d have after today.

The ambulance doors closed resoundingly on Tripp, on their relationship, and on Marty’s heart. Warm liquid slithered down his temple, and he vowed that would be the only tear he’d shed. Darkness wrapped around him, pushing out sound and thought, and blessedly, the pain of broken bones and shattered dreams.



Welcome to the world of professional rodeo, where pickup men are the unsung heroes. Often called the ghosts of the arena, they’re there to get cowboys and roughstock safely out of the ring, be it by pulling a rider from the back of a bucking bronco, or hazing an angry bull back to the paddocks.

Join these strong, silent-type heroes as they find their way on the hyper-masculine rodeo circuit — coming out, coming to terms, accepting and embracing their true selves, and following their hearts.

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Author Bio:

Cover artist by day, author by night, L.C. Chase is a hopeless romantic, free spirit, and adventure seeker who loves hitting the open road just to see where it takes her. When not writing sensual tales of men falling in love, she can be found designing romance novel covers, taking photos, drawing, horseback riding, or hiking the trails with her goofy four-legged roommate.

L.C. is a two-time Lambda Literary Award finalist for Pickup Men and Pulling Leather; an EPIC eBook Awards winner for Pickup Men; runner-up for Best Gay Contemporary Romance and Best Gay Book in the 2016 Rainbow Awards for A Fortunate Blizzard; honorable mention for Best Gay Contemporary Romance in the 2015 Rainbow Awards for Pulling Leather; and Best Gay Mystery/Thriller in the 2012 Rainbow Awards for Riding with Heaven. She is also a nine-time Ariana eBook Cover Art Awards winner.

You can find L.C. on her website, lcchase.com, and subscribe to her totally sporadic, no spam newsletter works in progress, new releases, newsletter exclusives, and more.


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Monday, May 29, 2023

πŸ—½πŸŽ­Week at a GlanceπŸŽ­πŸ—½: 5/22/23 - 5/29/23

















πŸ—½Monday's Memorial Moment(Memorial Day Edition)πŸ—½: Heroes for Ghosts by Jackie North



Summary:

Love Across Time #1
Soulmates across time. A sacrifice that could keep them apart forever.

In present day, near the village of Ornes, France, Devon works on his master's thesis in history as he fantasizes about meeting a WWI American Doughboy.

In 1916, during the Battle of Ornes, Stanley is a young soldier facing the horrors of the battlefield.

Mourning the death of his friends from enemy fire, Stanley volunteers to bring the message for retreat so he can save everyone else in his battalion. While on his mission, mustard gas surrounds Stanley and though he thinks he is dying, he finds himself in a peaceful green meadow where he literally trips over Devon.

Devon doesn't believe Stanley is who he says he is, a soldier from WWI. But a powerful attraction grows between them, and if Stanley is truly a visitor from the past, then he is Devon's dream come true. The problem is, Stanley's soul wants to finish his mission, and time keeps yanking him back to relive his fateful last morning over and over, even as his heart and body long to stay with Devon.

Will Stanley have to choose between Devon and saving his battalion? Will time betray their love, leaving each alone?

A male/male time travel romance, complete with hurt/comfort, French coffee, warm blankets, fireplace kisses, the angst of separation, and true love across time.

Original Review February Book of the Month 2021:
This was brought to my attention when I asked in a FB M/M book rec group for stories with a similar concept to the movie Groundhog Day, the whole repeating the day over scenario.  When I also learned this had a WW1 element, I was all kinds of grabby hands.  I was not disappointed.

I have to start off by saying this: I don't often make mentions of details in stories because I'm a spoiler-free reviewer but this isn't a spoiler, this is more of a feeling, a reason why I'm a history lover.  When Devon is wobbly about his thesis, about telling the story, wondering if anyone will care, Stanley's answer is spot on how I feel about history and why it's an important subject and why everyone needs to learn it.

“The whole thing is stupid,” said Devon. “After everything you’ve been through. After hearing about it from you and having you show me the trenches, telling me about that guy who lost his leg—which isn’t in the records anywhere—because you were there, and you suffered for it. For me to write a paper about it, it’s like I’m benefiting from that without having paid the price.” 

The twisted feelings that had started when Stanley had shown up on the green grasses that were all that was left of a disastrous battle had risen to the surface, and he’d said them aloud. He could barely look at Stanley with this confession ringing in the air. His constant awareness about the futility of war was only the half of it. The other half was the loss that war brought, inexplicable and never-ceasing, and Stanley had been the one to go through that. Not Devon. 

“But you’re telling the story,” said Stanley as he stood up and came over to Devon, so close that as he took a step forward, Devon found himself against the wall. “You’re telling all of our stories, mine, Isaac’s, everybody’s.” 

“Nobody will care,” said Devon. His voice broke on the last word because he realized that it was true. None of his friends cared, and his thesis advisor had strongly suggested he focus on another aspect of the Great War. In the end he was alone, except for Stanley, who could be dragged back through time at any moment. 

“I care,” said Stanley. “And you care. You can put the stuff that I told you in your paper, and then one day, somebody will read it. It’ll matter to somebody, someday.” 

Now, I know the whole time-travel sub-genre gives this historical a fantasy twist but this moment in time, this exchange the author gives between the two men is so important, it really resonated with me, it's how I have felt whenever someone says "why do I need to know, it happened years ago to people I don't know".  Their actions had a bearing on life today, time is what connects us all but most importantly, those souls of yesteryear, be it on the world stage or your own family tree, lived, they mattered and those stories need to live on.  In these few paragraphs that I shared the author put voice to the importance more than anything I've ever read before.  For that alone, I have to say a huge "Thank You" to Jackie North.

Okay, off my soapbox and onto the story.

HOLY HANNAH BATMAN!!! How have I not seen this series before?  How did it not cross my reading path?  Heroes for Ghosts is a brilliant tale of history, fantasy, science fiction, romance, and drama with characters that are likeable, loveable, wanting-to-know-able, I'll be honest it ticks every single one of my reading boxes.  I've read historical paranormal/supernatural/fantasies before but too often the historical element gets lost in the world of fantasy so for Jackie North to combine all these factors AND keep the historical accuracies is just pure . . . well it's magical(and I'm not talking about the time-travel bitπŸ˜‰).

Devon is a history lover after my own heart, thesis or not if I didn't have family keeping me grounded now, the idea of going to the place history happened and living in a mostly state of seclusion to do the research sounds absolutely heavenly.  I can also honestly say, if I came across Stanley the way Devon did, my mind would be a bit teeter-totter as to believing him and worried he escaped from an institution too.  I don't see how anyone couldn't love either of these men, they are just so real and wonderfully written, there is no doubt to this reader they have to have their HEA.  If you follow me you'll know what my next statement will be: to see how the men get there you'll have to experience their journey for yourself.

And what a journey it is! You won't regret it, historical lover or not, if you love an old fashion journey of storytelling than this is for you.

I'll add that this is my first Jackie North and it certainly won't be my last because if her backlist is only half as good as Heroes for Ghosts than it will still be a pleasure to dive in.

RATING:



Chapter One
A mortar shell exploded at the far end of the trench, spraying black debris that slammed into the mud and sent up the acrid odor of burnt tar and hot, damp earth. Stanley hunkered down with mud up to his ankles, his backside pressed against the broken end of a mortar gun, his hands on his helmet as his body shook with the force of the blast. He tried to stem his tears as Lieutenant Billings stabbed at the radio with a bit of metal wiring to see if he could get it to work again. Between the mortar rounds, the radio responded with squawks and low pitched shrieks and then went quiet. 

If the radio had been even six feet to the left, it would have been safe from being torn apart by the shell that had directly hit the trench mid-morning. And if Bertie, Isaac, and Rex had been on the other side of Stanley when that shell had hit, then they would be alive. Then he would have had someone to worry with, someone who would bolster his courage so he could respond to Lt. Billings’ earlier request.

He missed his friends, but he wanted to be brave for them now. Lt. Billings needed a volunteer to run across the trenches and the misty, frost-bitten fields to contact the major in charge to get the final message for retreat. The battalion needed a retreat or all of the 200 men were going to be smashed to bloody bits and their families would not hear from them come Christmas. 

It was horrible. Stanley wondered how he ever imagined that signing up and shipping off would be an adventure worth having, something he could tell everybody about back home. There was no way he could convey the tragedy of it, the futility of a radio that didn’t work, of trying not to look at the bodies of his friends that were currently beneath a tarp for decency’s sake. 

Whether there would be a break in the shelling so that they could be buried was anybody’s guess; the way it had been going, they would likely get frozen in place, spattered with mud and bits of shrapnel, and nobody would be able to bury them till spring. By which time, the war would be over, or they’d all be dead. Or both. 

Stanley was shaking all over, and told himself it was because he was trying to warm his body up, but that was another futility, a lie he could barely hold on to. The Germans were coming closer with each passing hour. The shells were louder and more on target, and soon they would die. All of the battalion’s efforts would come to nothing, and Stanley would be another body beneath a tarp, and nobody would have the energy to bury him.

He would become part of the landscape, part of the stretch of brown mud and red blood, decorated with torn limbs. The uniform he wore so proudly would turn into the tattered remnants of desire to do good, to fight for one’s country, and to keep families and children and grandmothers safe. At least that’s what the recruitment posters had stated, and behind every one had been the American flag, rippling with patriotism and an overwhelming urgency. 

Stanley had signed up alone, but had soon met his three friends during training. They’d stuck together, sharing the burden of fear, bolstering each other up, proud to fight and do right. Only it was wrong, so, so wrong because what was happening seemed to be for no reason at all, and everything they did as a battalion felt like they were merely going through the motions. 

Men kept dying, though the sudden silence across the top of the trenches indicated that the Germans seemed to have let up for the moment. Which left Stanley alone with Lt. Billings, and on the verge of blubbering. He was shaking with the effort of not crying, though his face was hot with tears he kept having to blink away as he tried to focus on what Lt. Billings was doing. 

“The wire goes under,” said Stanley with a croak. “Under on the left.” 

“Oh, yes?” asked Lt. Billings. His voice was gruff. 

He didn’t look at Stanley, all of his attention on the radio. He moved the wire as Stanley had suggested, and while this brought a sound from the transmitter, it ended in another ineffectual squawk.

The worst of it was that Stanley had previously thought the radio was too much in the open and ought to be moved, just in case. He’d not wanted to step on Lt. Billings’ toes, though, as the lieutenant had only just taken over from Colonel Helmer, and had not said anything. 

Helmer had been the worst commander anybody had ever seen, and the muttered comments among the enlisted men had almost grown into a roar. Though Stanley might have given him some leeway, due to his age, Colonel Helmer had taken the coward’s way, run off in the night, and had not been heard from since. With the tenseness among the men, Stanley hadn’t wanted to point out that the radio was in harm’s way. It might have been seen as a challenge to the order of command, which was the last thing that Stanley wanted to do. 

He’d refrained from talking about Helmer, and had generally kept his mouth shut. But if he’d not done that, if he’d given into his natural proclivities to think with his mouth open, they might have a radio now, might already be in an officially sanctioned retreat, and Rex, and Bertie, and Isaac would not be dead. They’d be beside him as they all scuttled to the rear of the battle and clambered into trucks to be taken to somewhere a bit safer than where they were. 

It was all his fault, then. All of it. His lungs felt as though they were running out of air, and his belly dipped so hard he thought he might shit himself in fear. The only thing for it was to do something so that it didn’t get worse. And that meant answering Lt. Billings’ question from earlier that morning.

“Sir?” asked Stanley, though he realized that his voice was too soft to be heard. “Sir?” he asked again, more loudly this time. 

“It just sparked,” said Lt. Billings, completely focused on the radio. “If I move that wire again, I’m going to fry this fucking thing.” 

Stanley scrambled up from where he was, his boots slipping on the mud as he surged forward to land on his knees at Lt. Billings’ side. 

“Sir, I’ll go,” said Stanley. “I’ll take the message and bring the code back.” 

Lt. Billings’ hands froze in the midst of what he was doing, and then he slowly turned his head. The lieutenant’s eyes were red-rimmed, and his face was be-grimed with smoke and mud that seemed to have pushed its way into his skin. He didn’t smile as he looked at Stanley, and his expression was grim. 

“You might not come back,” said Lt. Billings. “In fact it’s a death sentence. Do you want that?” 

Lt. Billings was so unlike Commander Helmer in every way; Stanley knew that it was a death sentence, so Lt. Billings, not one to suffer fools, was making sure that Stanley knew exactly what he was getting into. A zigzag run across a field of dead bodies, horse carcasses, guns, gouged earth, and barbed wire, all the while dodging bullets and shrapnel and mustard gas. 

“There’s no other way,” said Stanley. He wiped his hand across his upper lip, and took a hard breath, feeling his metal ID tag like a circle of cold ice in the middle of his throat. “You said so this morning. If we don’t get the order to retreat, we’re all going to die. Right here in this trench.”

He did not add that they could retreat anyway, without the order, and save a whole lot of lives. But Lt. Billings was a seasoned army officer, and while he might take it upon himself to take control of a battalion that was currently officer-less, it was not in his makeup to call such a command without a direct order. 

Stanley could try to convince Lt. Billings to overstep his authority, but that would only get everyone irritated, and as they were all so edgy already, it would be the worst way he could contribute. The best thing for him to do, besides throw himself on a land mine, was to step up and volunteer. It wouldn’t bring his friends back, but it would give their deaths meaning. Or would it? At any rate, it would be better than sitting with his ass in the mud watching Lt. Billings mess with equipment in a way that was probably making it worse. If only Stanley had spoken up and told him to move the radio. 

If only Stanley had told his friends to sit someplace other than where they had. If only Stanley had been born at a different time, and had missed this stupid war entirely. One hundred years ago or a hundred years from now, it made no difference to him. But he was here now, and he needed to do his best for the sake of his friends’ memory. 

He stood up and made an ineffectual pass at the front of his wool sweater vest. He winced as his fingers touched dried blood, the source of which he didn’t want to identify, but which had been the spatter from Rex’s head as it exploded. Rex would have gone with him, big and silent and close as they crossed the field of battle to carry the message. 

“I’ll go,” said Stanley.

Lt. Billings stood up too, though he didn’t reach out to shake Stanley’s hand. Stanley was glad about the lack of the gesture because that would have truly meant that Lt. Billings did not expect him to return, but was only sending him out because there was nobody else who would go. 

“Find Major Walker,” said Lt. Billings. “Give him half the message, and he’ll know I need the other half. He’ll tell you what that is, and when I have the whole message I can call retreat. Tell him I sent you, you got all that?” 

“Yes, sir,” said Stanley. His heart was thumping in his chest, threatening to push its way out, and his knees started to knock together. “I’ll bring the message back, I promise.” 

“It’s a foolish thing to make such promises,” said Lt. Billings. He shook his head, and looked down at the busted radio before looking up at Stanley. His expression was so deep and serious that Stanley knew he was going to die the minute he stepped out of the trench. The alternative, however, was to stay in the trench and watch while his friends’ bodies froze in the mud, taking his heart with them as they became one with the earth, and that he could not bear. 

“Here’s a canteen and here’s your rifle,” said Lt. Billings. “You might need to kill some Krauts, and you won’t believe how thirsty you can get when you’re running hard, terrified enough to piss your uniform.” 

Stanley took the canteen and looped it over his neck and shoulder, then hung the rifle across his chest in the other direction. He wasn’t exactly armed to the teeth, but he had a pouch of bullets and could give somebody a run for their money. After that, he’d be out of bullets and dead in a ditch somewhere. 

He couldn’t think about that now. He needed to go over the top and start running. The major would be in a trench at the back of the field, at least that was the general idea in most battles. 

“That way, right?” asked Stanley. He pointed over his shoulder with his thumb. 

“More over that way,” said Lt. Billings. “Straight across and then over. He’ll be in the right quadrant. You won’t see any flags, but it’s going to have more sandbags and look a damn sight tidier than where we are now.” 

“Yes, sir,” said Stanley. 

He straightened up and gave Lt. Billings the most efficient salute he’d ever managed, out of respect. Then, not allowing himself one last glimpse at the pile of bodies at the end of the trench, he pushed his way past the three soldiers who were manning a Howitzer that was almost out of shells, and climbed up the ladder. 

Stanley slipped at the bottom rung, and was tempted to call it done then and there. For the memory of Isaac, Rex, and Bertie, and all the others, he made himself go up and up till he was standing on top of the ridge, looking over the dip in the earth that ran next to the ruined castle and the small cottage whose roof was half gone. 

The sprawl of barbed wire along the top of each trench was intertwined with the dark flags of smoke that twisted and moved as though it was alive. The sun was a smudge through the brown and black haze, and the smell of hot oil and human excrement shot itself into his lungs with his first breath. The air was cold and it seemed as though frost speckled the air like little bits of diamonds made half yellow by the smoke from fires and the general exhalation of despair and gloom and death. Stanley watched a shell explode a hundred feet to his left, turned the other way, and started running.

The idea was to get out of the line of fire, for that was where the major was to be found. The easiest way was to follow the line of trenches, to run inside of them, along the bottom, and make his way there. He started to run, his canteen bouncing, his rifle banging into his thigh the whole while. 

At the edge of the trenches were the round tops of helmets. Beneath those glimmered the exhausted, tired eyes of soldiers who saw him go, who knew where he was headed, and who had no hope that he would make it. A few soldiers stood up and fired beyond Stanley to draw enemy attention away from him when he had to cross over the top of a trench to get to the next one. The shots zinged around him anyway. If he slowed down, he was going to take a hit, so he kept low in the trenches and kept running. 

His boots slipped as he headed down a small hollow, and he almost fell to his knees as he went up the other side; it was like trying to run up a waterfall, only this one was of mud, with bits of shell and hunks of rock. Just as Stanley got halfway to the top, he heard the high-pitched pop of a canister as it opened, and even before he smelled the bitter tang, a yellow cloud of mustard gas descended around him like a blanket of pure poison.

He brought his hand to his mouth, and staggered to the top of a trench, and though he kept his breath shallow, he felt his lungs collapsing, and fell to his knees, coughing up spit, his hands in the mud, his eyes closed. The yellow swirl filled his brain until there was nothing left but an empty ache and the sting in his lungs. He barely felt his head hit the mud and then sighed, thinking that it would be good to stay right where he was, for what did it matter anyhow? And then it became blackness, so, so much blackness.



Sunday's Short Stack



Author Bio:

Jackie North has been writing stories since grade school and her dream was to someday leave her corporate day job behind and travel the world. She also wanted to put her English degree to good use and write romance novels, because for years she's had a never-ending movie of made-up love stories in her head that simply wouldn't leave her alone.

Luckily, she discovered m/m romance and decided that men falling in love with other men was exactly what she wanted to write about. In this dazzling new world, she turned her grocery-store romance ideas around and is now putting them to paper as fast as her fingers can type. She creates characters who are a bit flawed and broken, who find themselves on the edge of society, and maybe a few who are a little bit lost, but who all deserve a happily ever after. (And she makes sure they get it!)

She likes long walks on the beach, the smell of lavender and rainstorms, and enjoys sleeping in on snowy mornings. She is especially fond of pizza and beer and, when time allows, long road trips with soda fountain drinks and rock and roll music. In her heart, there is peace to be found everywhere, but since in the real world this isn't always true, Jackie writes for love.


EMAIL: jackienorthauthor@gmail.com



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Sunday, May 28, 2023

πŸ—½Sunday's Short Stack(Memorial Day Edition)πŸ—½: Out of the Blue by Josh Lanyon



Summary:

France, 1916. The Great War. High above the carnage in the trenches, British and German aces joust like knights of old for control of the skies. The strain and tension of living every day on the edge of death leads to dangerous choices and wild risks. When British ace Bat Bryant's past catches up with him, he strikes out in panic and kills the man threatening him with exposure. But there's a witness: the big, handsome American pilot Cowboy Cooper.

Cowboy, it seems, has his own ideas of rough justice.



Re-Listen Audiobook Review November 2020:
Out of the Blue is one those stories that will never get old or that I'll tire of it.  I can understand why some might not like Cowboy's domineering side, that kind of alpha male is not everybody's cup of tea, frankly I don't always care for it either but there's something about Josh Lanyon's character creation that makes him so enjoyable in my mind. As I've said before there is just not enough WW1/post-war stories for my liking but I've found pilots from that era an even bigger missing feature, I don't think people fully grasp the added danger pilots faced during the Great War.  Josh Lanyon conveys that danger without the reader feeling like they are being taught a history lesson and that is a huge tick in my historical box: inform but don't lecture.  Out of the Blue continues to be a win-win in my heart.

Original Audiobook Review September 2019:
I rarely listen to audiobooks that I haven't already read and that's because I listen to them while I'm working on something else or doing chores so no matter how much I love the story I tend to zone out occasionally so having read the story previously then I know I won't be lost by missing minutes here and there.  Out of the Blue is a novella that I've read three times previously and love it every time, well Alexander Masters voice kept me enthralled from beginning to end, not once did I "zone out" while listening to Bat and Cowboy's journey.  There's just not enough WW1 stories in the M/M genre but I have a feeling if there 10X what there is, Out of the Blue would still be one of my favorites.

2nd Re-Read Review November 2018:
There is something about WW1 stories that always break my heart, even if it is a HEA of HFN, the lives lost alone is enough pain but with an M/M genre story there is an extra level of heartache added just because of the hiding they had to do.  So when I find a story like Out of the Blue, even as my heart hurts for the conditions the characters are living in, when I can still smile, laugh, and reach the final page for the third time and know it won't be the last time then I know I have definitely found a keeper.

Re-Read Review 2016:
I have upped my rating to 5 with my re-read.  Since reading it the first time 2 years ago, I have come to have a deeper respect for novellas and don't knock off 1/2 a bookmark just for it's shortness.  As for the story, it was fantabulous!!  I am a huge lover of WW1 stories so that just added to my enjoyment.  Even knowing how the story goes, Cowboy's actions and attitude still left me reeling but loved every ounce of him.

Original Review 2014:
This story is several of my favorite genres all rolled into one: historical, male/male relationships, romance, drama, and erotica. With main characters named Bat and Cowboy you expect to be dropped in the middle of a western, which by the way is also a favorite genre of mine, but this time author has brought her way with words to the airfield of World War One. Now, I won't lie, the first time you meet Cowboy you're not real sure if you are suppose to like him or not but we quickly find out that there's more to him than he first lets on. The only reason I gave this a 4-1/2 bookmark instead of 5 is because I would have loved for it to have been longer. Simply put, I was just not ready to let go of this pair when the final page came. Once again, I was not let down by Ms. Lanyon's work.

RATING:



France, November 1916
“Don’t be too hasty, Captain Bryant,” Orton warned. “Not like I’m asking a king’s ransom. Not like you can’t find the ready, eh? What’s a couple a bob ’ere and there? Could ’ave gone to the major, but I didn’t, did I? Not one word to ’im about what you and poor Lieutenant Roberts used to —”

Bat punched him.

He was not as tall as the mechanic, but he was wiry and strong, and his fist connected to Orton’s jaw with a satisfying crack. Orton’s head snapped back. He staggered, tripped over something in the shadowy darkness of the stable, and went down slamming against the side of the stall.

The elderly dappled gray mare whickered softly. Leaning over the stall door, she lipped at Orton’s fallen form.

For a second, perhaps two, Bat stood shaking with rage — and grief.
“Get up, you swine,” he bit out.

Orton’s head lay out of reach of the uneven lamplight, but his limbs were still — and something in that broken stillness alerted Bat.
“Orton?”

He moved the lantern and the light illuminated Orton’s face. The man’s head was turned at an unnatural angle — watery eyes staring off into the loft above them.

Bat smothered an exclamation. Knelt beside Orton’s body.

The mare raised her head, nickering greeting. The lantern light flickered as though in a draft. He could see every detail in stark relief: the blue black bristle on the older man’s jaw, the flecks of gray in his mustache, oil and dirt beneath his fingernails.

There was a little speck of blood at the corner of his mouth where Bat’s ring had cut him. But he was not bleeding. Was not breathing.
Bat put fingers to Orton’s flaccid throat and felt for a pulse.
There was no pulse.

Sid Orton was dead.

Bat rose. Gazed down at the body.

Christ. It seemed...unreal.

He was used to thinking swiftly, making life-and-death decisions for the entire squadron with only seconds to spare, but he could think of nothing. He’d have to go to the CO. Chase would have to go to the Red Caps...

Bat wiped his forehead with his sleeve. First he’d need to come up with some story — some reason for what he’d done. Gene mustn’t be dragged into it. No one could know about Gene and him. Wasn’t only Gene’s name at stake. There was Bat’s own family and name to think of. This ... just this ... murder ... was liable to finish the old man.

He couldn’t seem to think beyond it. Disgrace. Dishonor.

He ought to feel something for Orton, surely? Pity. Remorse. He didn’t. He hadn’t meant to kill him, but Orton was no loss. Not even an awfully good mechanic. And Bat had killed better men than Orton — ten at last count — for much worse reason.

A miserable specimen, Orton.

But you couldn’t murder a chap for that.

Gaze riveted on the ink stain on the frayed cuff of Orton’s disheveled uniform, Bat tried to force his sluggish brain to action. Yes, he needed a story before he went to the major. More, he had to convince himself of it — get it straight in every detail — in case he was cross-examined. Mustn’t get tripped up.

If only he had ignored Orton’s note ... Why the devil hadn’t he?

“You waiting for him to tell you what to do?” a voice asked laconically from behind him.

Bat jerked about.

Cowboy leaned against the closed stable door. His eyes glinted in the queer light. Bright. Almost feral as he watched from the half shadows.

“P-pardon?” Bat asked stupidly.

“If you don’t plan on getting jugged by the MPs, you better get a move on.”

It was as though he were speaking to Bat in a foreign language. Granted, Cowboy was a Yank — a Texan, at that — and did take a bit of translation at the best of times.

Bat said, “I don’t — what d’you mean? I-I shall have to report this.”

“Why’s that?” Cowboy left his post at the door and came to join him. Oddly, it gave Bat comfort, Cowboy’s broad shoulder brushing his own. Together they stared down at Orton’s body.

Already he had changed. His face had a waxy, sunken look. The smell of death mingled with kerosene and horse and hay.

Bat’s stomach gave a sudden lurch and he moved away, leaning over a rusted harrow. But there was nothing to vomit. He hadn’t eaten since yesterday. Hadn’t eaten since Gene bought his packet and crashed in flames in the woods of the estate his family once owned near Hesdin.

Instead, he hung white-knuckled onto the rough metal frame heaving dry, empty coughs and nothing coming out but a few exhausted tears. Not for Orton. For Gene.

“You better pull yourself together, boy,” Cowboy told him when the worst of it was over. Listening distantly to that terse voice, Bat knew he was right. He shuddered all over. Forced himself upright, blinking at the American.

Cowboy was a big man. Several inches taller than Bat. Broad shoulders and narrow hips. Long legs. Must be the way they grew them in Texas. Cowboy certainly fit Bat’s notion — based entirely on the works of Zane Grey and Max Brand — of a man of the West. He’d been attached to the RFC for about two months. Which was a bloody long time in this war. Several lifetimes, really.

The old mare stretched her long neck and nibbled at the collar of Cowboy’s tunic. He patted her absently and drawled, “Orton was a sidewinder. A low-down, miserable piece of shit pretending to be a man. He wasn’t even a very good mechanic. Whatever else you might be, you’re one hell of a pilot. And the RFC is running short on pilots these days. Let alone aces.”

Bat blinked at him, wiped his face again. He felt hot and cold, sick and sweaty. He felt as though he were coming down with something — something fatal. He was unable to think beyond the thing at their feet. “What are you saying?”

“I’m saying what the hell’s the point of you going to jail for killing that skunk? Anyway, I saw what happened. It was an accident. You slugged him and he fell and hit his head.”

“It’s still...” But he didn’t finish it. He felt a flicker of hope. “You’ll back me up then? When I go to Major Chase?”

“I don’t think you want to do that.”

Too right there. Bat didn’t. But...

“How are you going to explain what he said that got you so mad you punched him? Or what the hell you were doing in the stables this time of night?”

Before Bat thought of an answer — assuming he’d have come up with one — Cowboy added, “I guess Orton ain’t the only one who ever noticed you and Lieutenant Roberts were kinda sweet on each other.”

Bat lunged, and Cowboy sidestepped, grabbing him and twisting his arm behind his back in a wrestling move they never taught in any officer’s training course Bat had received. It was fast and efficient. Pain shot through his shoulder and arm and he stopped struggling, sagging against Cowboy. The American was so big, so powerfully built, it was easy to underestimate how fast he was when he needed to be. Not least because he never seemed to be in a hurry. He spoke in a lazy drawl and moved with easy, loose-limbed grace. Even when he flew into battle, he picked off enemy planes as though he were potting birds off a branch with a rifle. As though he had all the time in the world.

Listening to the calm, strong thud of Cowboy’s heart, Bat thought dizzily that this was the closest he’d come to being in a man’s arms ever again.

Cowboy’s voice vibrated in his chest as he intoned, “Never realized you had such a temper, Captain Bryant. One of these days it’s going to land you in a fix you can’t get out of.”

Bat yanked free and Cowboy let him go.

“Not tonight, though.”

Bat rubbed his wrist where Cowboy’s fingers had dug into the tendons. “What d’you mean?”

“I mean, if you can simmer down long enough to listen, I’m going to help you.”

“Help me how?”

Cowboy wasn’t looking at Bat. He stared down at Orton’s body. Thoughtfully, as though only making his mind up to it, he said, “I’m going to get rid of him once and for all.”

“How?”

“Never mind how. It’ll be better if you don’t know. Go back to the mess, and make sure everyone sees you. Close the place down. Then head up to your quarters. Understand?”

The flicker of hope flared. Bat knew a cowardly longing to do exactly as Cowboy instructed. Leave it to him, go get blind drunk, then retire to bed and forget any of this happened.

He forced himself to say, “Awfully good of you, old chap, but you must see I can’t ... can’t let you do this.”

Amused, Cowboy retorted, “You don’t even know what I’m going to do, old chap, so why argue about it?”

He was staring at Bat, smiling that funny crooked grin of his. Bat had never noticed how blue Cowboy’s eyes were. Blue as the sky — back when the sky was empty of anything worse than clouds — light and bright in his deeply tanned face. His hair was soft gold. Palomino gold.

Helplessly, Bat said, “Why should you do this? Why should you help me? I haven’t been ... it’s not as though...”

“You’ve acted like a stuck-up sonofabitch since the day I arrived, is that what you were going to say?” Cowboy asked easily. “Not a member of your old boys’ club, am I? Well, I guess it could be that I like you anyway. Or it could be having you around makes my life easier — ’cept days like today when you seem bent on getting yourself blown out of the sky.”

His gaze held Bat’s, and there wasn’t anything Bat could say. Today. Yes. What a long time ago it seemed.

If Cowboy hadn’t been there today ... Sid Orton would still be alive.

“Git,” Cowboy said softly. “I’ll find you later.”

And so ... Bat got.


Author Bio:
Bestselling author of over sixty titles of classic Male/Male fiction featuring twisty mystery, kickass adventure and unapologetic man-on-man romance, JOSH LANYON has been called "the Agatha Christie of gay mystery."

Her work has been translated into eleven languages. The FBI thriller Fair Game was the first male/male title to be published by Harlequin Mondadori, the largest romance publisher in Italy. Stranger on the Shore (Harper Collins Italia) was the first M/M title to be published in print. In 2016 Fatal Shadows placed #5 in Japan's annual Boy Love novel list (the first and only title by a foreign author to place on the list).

The Adrien English Series was awarded All Time Favorite Male Male Couple in the 2nd Annual contest held by the Goodreads M/M Group (which has over 22,000 members). Josh is an Eppie Award winner, a four-time Lambda Literary Award finalist for Gay Mystery, and the first ever recipient of the Goodreads Favorite M/M Author Lifetime Achievement award.

Josh is married and they live in Southern California.


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